Friday randoms?

[HoneySpider]

Ok, I'm starting a randoms thread because I need to share this but didn't want to start a thread just for it, lol. I was contacted yesterday to set up a phone interview for a job! Yay! I applied over 2 months ago so I had pretty much written it off and was surprised to get the email. DH & I want to move back closer to one of our families and we've been applying for jobs for a few months without too much luck - I had one phone interview a few weeks ago that went really well but never heard back (after I was told "you'll hear back one way or another")

It's been pretty depressing for both of us, we are applying for jobs we're qualified for but I think that there's just a lot of competition and being physically far away from where we are applying might be hurting us (we are in south Texas and looking to go to Chicago or NJ/PA, so quite different) Anyway, I'm starting to ramble but I'm excited to have this interview, I'm hoping to hear back today about when it's going to be scheduled. 

[ilovecandy]

Yay!!

[lola]

YAY! Good luck. I really hope you end up in Chicago!

Here's my random - I almost started a thread but changed my mind.

I'm supposed to start my period today so I'm running to the bathroom every 10 minutes to check, and analyzing every fucking feeling that I have. I need today to just end, one way or another.

And, if I don't start today, I don't think I plan to test until a week from today. I just really don't want any bad news. And testing is so much worse these days bc my H is really into it, and I feel like before I could be bummed and move on, but now he's bummed too and for some reason that makes it so much harder.

[ilovecandy]

lola I get you.  I am at the exact same place and my H is all super excited and pushes me to test all the damn time.  

My random i posted it elsewhere but me good friend is pregnant! is am so excited and already planning what to get her lol.  Also her baby is due on my birthday so i told her the kid better actually come on their due date cause it is my birthday!

My lawn needs to get mowed.  H usually does it.  I though about doing it but it looks like it is gonna rain, plus i don't wanna do anything.

[jewel]

Good luck Honey!

I'm currently sitting in the exam table, pantless, waiting for my IUI. How's that for a fun visual?

[belovedbride07]

Good luck HoneySpider!

lola I am in the exact same spot today. It's really hard to not get my hopes up, even though I keep thinking of the statistical unlikelihood (sperm count x motility + my issues = probably not gonna happen on it's own).

jewel Not so much a visual, but I feel awkward and cold for you!

[G22]

jewel, lol and good luck!

I want to rip my ovaries out. I'm supposed to start IUI, and I have a freaking huge cyst again. My Dr said it looks like it starting to collapse and go away but she want to double check again tomorrow. I just want to scream!

[HoneySpider]

Thanks guys! I haven't heard back yet about when it will be and I'm getting anxious.

lol jewel hope things are going well

[changedname]

Apr 12, 2013 13:31:53 GMT -5 G22 said:

jewel, lol and good luck!

I want to rip my ovaries out. I'm supposed to start IUI, and I have a freaking huge cyst again. My Dr said it looks like it starting to collapse and go away but she want to double check again tomorrow. I just want to scream!

 I fucking hate cysts. I am so over them. I had an ultrasound yesterday and my cyst is huge. The RE said she would doubt I would be able to start ivf next month because  of it. . I am now going to go on an anti-cyst diet (apparently they love sugar - who doesnt?) and I have been doing castor oil packs every night.
If it goes aways tomorrow can you still do IUI? what cd are you?

[G22]

Apr 12, 2013 14:33:19 GMT -5 changedname said:

Apr 12, 2013 13:31:53 GMT -5 G22 said:

jewel, lol and good luck!

I want to rip my ovaries out. I'm supposed to start IUI, and I have a freaking huge cyst again. My Dr said it looks like it starting to collapse and go away but she want to double check again tomorrow. I just want to scream!

 I fucking hate cysts. I am so over them. I had an ultrasound yesterday and my cyst is huge. The RE said she would doubt I would be able to start ivf next month because  of it. . I am now going to go on an anti-cyst diet (apparently they love sugar - who doesnt?) and I have been doing castor oil packs every night.
If it goes aways tomorrow can you still do IUI? what cd are you?

I'm CD2 today. I had an ultrasound yesterday, dr and nurse both were like "wow that's huge" when they saw it. Ugh! She thought it looked like it was starting to collapse and go away, and she went ahead and sent my script for Femara into the pharmacy, but told me not to pick it up until after tomorrow. She seems to think I will be able to go ahead with it, but I'm not holding my breath. I've kind of resigned myself to the fact that we won't be able to. No sense in getting my hopes up. 

Maybe I need to try an anti-cyst diet. This freaking sucks. I'm sorry your dealing with these too

[mae141]

jewel Good luck! I hope it goes well!

G22 Don't you love it when doctor's say things like that? It makes you feel so special and lucky to have such a large cyst, right!? I hope everything works out.

changedname Will they put you on BC to help get rid of it?

My random- when I was driving home today I had the windows open and the music on since it's so nice out. There were some young, probably college age guys driving by looking at me and smiling. They even honked when I went past them. I don't normally encourage such behavior, but I have felt so bad about myself lately and I really don't get that kind of attention much anymore (now that I'm old,) that it kind of made my day.

[mae141]

Another random- I really need to pick an avatar. I'm sick of being an egg-head.

[changedname]

mae141 - I have been on bcp for a week now and am to continue until May 19th. Then I start lupron and the whole ivf circus again. I am hoping that 6 weeks is enough time to get rid of this blasted cyst.

[jewel]

Thanks guys lol...

The IUI went pretty well. My husband's sperm count was actually in the normal range today, which it never has been before. I've also been feeling really full this cycle, so now I'm convinced that I either have a huge cyst, or too many eggs, and I'm not happy with either option.

Also, I cannot believe this happened....The doc was making small talk as he was doing the IUI. He asked where I work, and I told him. He proceeded to tell me that he is on our BOARD! Holy shit. Someone on our board of directors may have just impregnated me. I can't even describe the level of embarrassment and weird anxiety this gives me. I feel like he needs to disclose that shit upfront. Holy hell...

[lola]

LOL jewel! That is so awkward!

Want a flameful? I want to stop TTC. If I'm not pregnant right now, then I want to take some time off. And if it doesn't happen for us, I don't know if I am willing to try IVF.

[HoneySpider]

lola there's no way that's flameful. Sometimes you just need a break...sometimes short, sometimes long. Sometimes forever.

Are you actually going to stop, or do you just feel like you want to but won't actually do it?

((hugs))

[lola]

Apr 12, 2013 19:53:04 GMT -5 HoneySpider said:

lola there's no way that's flameful. Sometimes you just need a break...sometimes short, sometimes long. Sometimes forever.

Are you actually going to stop, or do you just feel like you want to but won't actually do it?

((hugs))

I don't know. I really want to stop for a while...maybe even just a few cycles. I just don't know how to tell my H.

[HoneySpider]

Apr 12, 2013 20:02:04 GMT -5 lola said:

Apr 12, 2013 19:53:04 GMT -5 HoneySpider said:

lola there's no way that's flameful. Sometimes you just need a break...sometimes short, sometimes long. Sometimes forever.

Are you actually going to stop, or do you just feel like you want to but won't actually do it?

((hugs))

I don't know. I really want to stop for a while...maybe even just a few cycles. I just don't know how to tell my H.

Well I'm no help because I would just lay it all on the line and be upfront...I'm not good at hiding my feelings. 

On a side note, there is a lolo on MM and it confuses me because I keep thinking it is you.

[lola]

Ugh, I'm usually so "lay it all out" but I just feel like he is really excited and really wants it to happen and I just feel burned out and pessimistic and I feel like that's surely not going to help make it happen, right? Like, I need to be in a good place mentally...Which I don't feel like I am right now.

And yeah, I've seen lolo!  And I thought the same thing. I'm pretty much never never never on MM though.

[bronxgirl]

My first random/ confession is that I don't know how to tag people

jewell-  good luck with your IUI!  I hope it works for you.  When I had IUIs, my favorite part was the 1st week afer.  It felt like such a break from IF.  I didn't have anyearly morning appointmments, no shots, but it was too soon to worry about the results so it was like a week off from my #1 stress.

icedgems and gumby- that sucks about your cysts.  I hope they go away soon.  Right now I have an aversion even just to the word cyst b/c of something that happened to my friend.

lola-  I know what you mean about wanting a break.  I can't decide what I want to do about going forward with treatment.  I desperately want  a baby, but i'm so afraid it would be another failure and I wonder if it would be so much harder to go through all the dissapointment again and maybe we should just move on.  I don't know..

[KaraOrNot]

HoneySpider - Good luck! I also get confused when I see lolo on MM.

lola - hopefully this is your month, but I hear you on taking a break. I am so, so over TTC. We didn't try at all last month and it felt really good.

jewel and belovedbride07 - FX for both of you!

G22 and changedname - sorry about your cysts.

bronxgirl - to tag someone, put @ in front of the user name.

It is snowing here. I am jealous of everyone who has nice weather right now.

H went to pick up dinner tonight, so in exchange, I agreed to take out the dog tonight. I am really regretting making this deal. I don't wanna go out in the snow.

My birthday is next week. I told H not to buy me anything, because I am picky and like to pick out my own gifts. I have spent way too much money on my gifts, but I still want to buy a new purse.

[ilovecandy]

lola- not flameful at all.  I am partially looking forward to H being gone because it means a break from TTC.  

[mae141]

lola I totally know how you feel. I've had screaming fits about not wanting to do this anymore. I never in a million years thought I'd do IVF. But I also realized that if I don't try everything I can, I will regret it. I hope you feel better soon.

[G22]

lola, there's no rule that's says you can't take breaks with TTC. Unfortunately there is no rule book with this. You only know how it affecting you. Its not wrong to want a break from everything for a while. You do what feel right. We all have hit that wall eventually. *hugs*

Guys, my cyst was gone today. I'm freaking finally starting IUI. I start my femara today. I've never been so excited about taking meds! Hopefully mae141 is just the beginning of the baby boom around here!

[ilovecandy]

Good luck G22

[HoneySpider]

Woohoo! GL G22

[azurely]

That is awesome G22! Good luck!

I'm hopeful that we have a mini baby boom here soon too Congrats again to mae141, hearing about BFPs from fellow TTTCers gives me hope!

[lola]

Well, I'm spotting which means AF is going to be in full force by the end of the night. Clomid round one was a bust.

I talked to my H at lunch today about taking a few cycles off, and he's totally game. We also talked about IVF, when the next few rounds of Clomid don't work. We're on the same page about not wanting to go that route. I don't think either of us are ruling it out forever, but we're not interested in it right now.

I feel better knowing that we're on the same page. I think I'm going to stick with acupuncture for a few more cycles. He was just so convinced that he knew what the problem was and that in three rounds we'd be pregnant. I feel like I can handle that. I'm not sure about anything else. I might go back to Clomid after a round off, or I might wait for two or three more. I'm going to call my doc on Monday and talk to her.

That's all for my update.

G22 - my fingers are crossed for you! I hope Mae's success rubs off on a few of you!