This is eating me up inside

[bronxgirl]

I have nothing new to say, I'm just so frustrated and sad.  I'm really scared that we're not going to be able to have another baby and it makes me so sad.  What makes it even worse id that DD's best friend's parents are now trying for a second and they talk aout it all the time.  It's going to be super hard if they get PG and we don't.  I know this sounds really stupid and petty, but I keep thinking about how unfair it is b/c they're kinf of ambivalent about it and we want it so much. DD wants a baby sister and I know she'll be a good big sister.  Her BFF doesn't want any siblings and I think ( for various reasons) she's going to have a rough adjustment, which makes me think even more "it's so unfair".  Uggh.  Anyway, thanks for listening.

[G22]

I'm sorry bronx I doubt anyting I say could make you feel better, but I get it. I've been there and felt so upset at the unfairness of life. ((Big hugs))

[Deleted]

I've got nothing but hugs. Hang in there.

[lola]

I'm sorry Bronx.

[bronxgirl]

Thanks so much, everyone. It's so good to have a place to talk about it. I feel like my day has gotten worse. I was just at lunch (at my job) and my annoying CW'er announced they're PG with their third kid (actually, his 4th) and kept blathering on about it and how they always get PG right away, blah, blah, blah. I finished my food as fast as I could and got out of there. And now I am additionally in a crappy mood (non-TTC related) about a ridiculous rule my boss put into place, although that's a whole other post.

[HoneySpider]

Ugh, that sucks all around - WTF is wrong with people saying things like that? I mean, I hope even if it's easy for you, you have half a brain and realize it's not like that for everyone!

Lots of hugs - hang in there.

[changedname]

Hugs Bronx. It never rains but it pours. Like pps have said, hang in there - you are not at the end of the road...

[bronxgirl]

Apr 30, 2013 12:38:22 GMT -5 HoneySpider said:

Ugh, that sucks all around - WTF is wrong with people saying things like that? I mean, I hope even if it's easy for you, you have half a brain and realize it's not like that for everyone!

Lots of hugs - hang in there.

This guy does not have half a brain in any respects.  He annoys the hell out of me all around.  On the positive side I am going to the Yankees game tonight.  Unfortunately I can't buy any beer b/c it's ridiculously expensive.

[HoneySpider]

Apr 30, 2013 13:17:00 GMT -5 bronxgirl said:

Apr 30, 2013 12:38:22 GMT -5 HoneySpider said:

Ugh, that sucks all around - WTF is wrong with people saying things like that? I mean, I hope even if it's easy for you, you have half a brain and realize it's not like that for everyone!

Lots of hugs - hang in there.

This guy does not have half a brain in any respects.  He annoys the hell out of me all around.  On the positive side I am going to the Yankees game tonight.  Unfortunately I can't buy any beer b/c it's ridiculously expensive.

Ah, stupid people breeding easily. Life isn't fair.

Bring a flask

[degal99]

I'm sorry about all the stressors and idiots today. ::hug::

[speyedr]

I have a CW that I just found out is expecting her third. It is so hard where I work because I work with a lot of young married women who are all pregnant or just had babies. I totally get the feeling and It is so hard and really not fair!

[statlerwaldorf]

I'm sorry. DD has really been wanting a baby brother or sister. She even asked Santa for one for Christmas. Plus it seems like most of her age group have a younger sibling by now if they were the first child (she's 4).

[anonymess]

(((hugs))) We definitely understand around here, bronx. Vent away!

[KaraOrNot]

Hugs, bronx.

[bronxgirl]

Apr 30, 2013 14:57:53 GMT -5 mofongo said:

I'm sorry:( Did you have any trouble conceiving your dtr? What do the doctors think is causing the problems?

My daughter was conceived during our second round of IUI.  I naively expected the same thing to happen this time.  Officially I am unexplained, although I had uterine polyps earlier that may have interfered with implantation.  I had those removed and then was very briefly PG from the 2 IUIs after the surgery, but both ended in chemical PGs, one at 4 wks and one at 5 wks.  I also don't know how much my age plays into it.  I've been getting my period for 30 years.  Maybe I ran out of functional eggs?

[kershnic]

I'm sorry, Bronx. Dealing with the jealousy is one of the worst parts I think. I used to love looking at other people's babies and reading about parenting things....and now I hate it with a passion. I feel like IF has changed who I am and it makes me sad.