Good thing I didn't wander too far...

[BNL2]

Second beta levels came in today and they were only 105, up from 99 a week ago. This isn't a viable pregnancy and I don't know what comes next. They want me to come in Friday for another blood test but I don't know why. I don't really know anything right now. My minds not working.

[KaraOrNot]

I am so, so sorry to hear this. Hugs.

[mae141]

I'm really sorry

[G22]

I'm so sorry

[bronxgirl]

I'm so sorry. I had a similar situation in December. I hated going in for the final blood test. I cried the whole time. I'm thinking about you and sending cyber hugs. Hopefully the best is yet to come.

[Deleted]

So sorry, big big hugs.

[speyedr]

I'm so sorry, lots of hugs your way.

[azurely]

Oh BNL2, I am so so sorry for your loss

Hugs to you and your H!

[BNL2]

Thanks everyone. I can't stop crying which is odd for me. I hate disappointing DH every month. I know it's literally not my fault, but I'm always the one who has to say it didn't work. I'm a failure and a dream crusher. This shit sucks.

[G22]

Oh sweetie, you are not a failure! It is not your fault or anything you can control. Cry, scream, vent, whatever makes you feel better. But please know your not a failure. Many((hugs))coming your way!

[azurely]

May 7, 2013 19:27:35 GMT -5 BNL2 said:

Thanks everyone. I can't stop crying which is odd for me. I hate disappointing DH every month. I know it's literally not my fault, but I'm always the one who has to say it didn't work. I'm a failure and a dream crusher. This shit sucks.

Ditto G22. You are NOT a failure. Don't beat yourself up, and please try to relax tonight. Let yourself cry if you need to. I cried for hours after finding out I was having a second m/c--all the way home from the dr's office, most of that night, and off & on the rest of the week. Crying can be healing, so do what you need to do.

[degal99]

BNL2, I'm so sorry to hear that. ::hugs:: And, seriously, you are not a failure! If you need to cry, cry! But you are not doing anything wrong!

[belovedbride07]

I'm so sorry, BNL2. ~hugs~

[speyedr]

You are not a failure and there was nothing you could have done differently to prevent it from happening. Cry all you need to...I still cry 3.5 months after the fact in certain situations and it is incredibly therapeutic.

[HoneySpider]

I am so, so sorry Lots of hugs and we are all here for you!

[orangeblossom]

I'm really sorry.

[discogranny]

I am so sorry BNL. You are not a failure, nothing you did caused this. Hugs. Be kind to yourself.

[Cheesecake]

I'm so so sorry to hear this.

Sent from my Xperia Z, please don't mind typos!

[womet]

I am so sorry. {{{hugs}}}

[changedname]

Oh no, BNL. So sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself.

[lola]

I'm so sorry, BNL. Sending you so many hugs and good thoughts. ((((((((BNL2)))))))

[ilovecandy]

I am so sorry. ((hugs)) and you are not a failure.

[dana2006]

((((BNL2))))

[BNL2]

Thank you all for your support. I made it through work today with limited crying. Talking to my mom has helped some, although I usually just end up bawling like a baby. I'm so grateful for this board. It's the only think keeping me from being completely hopeless right now.

[jewel]

I so sorry BNL

[melindafelinda]

I'm so sorry.

[genet313]

oh no.  i am so, so sorry.  take care of yourself bnl.