TTC Ramblings

[stephlove]

Thinking about TTC is a mindfuck, you guys. 

Last month, H and I decided that in about a year, we'll start TTC. So, to be proactive, I tried to sign up for short-term disability during our benefits open enrollment term. (22 year old self thought I was invincible when I got this job, and that I would never need STD) Well, I was denied STD benefits, my period goes AWOL, and I spend this week freaking out about being pregnant and going bankrupt because of it. Now that I finally got the courage to go buy a test, and had been preparing myself all day to take the test tonight... AF shows up, six days late. 

Now I'm starting to regret even putting babies on the brain for the near future because it's just messing with my head. And we're not even TRYING right now. I'm going to be a complete basket case when that time comes. 

I'm thinking this may be a sign that I'm really not as ready for this as I thought I was. 

[Deleted]

Why would you be denied STD?

[calledout]

Why were you denied STD? Doesn't open enrollment mean that all eligible employees get to sign up?

[stephlove]

I had to submit an application, and I checked the status the other day and it said DENIED. So I asked about it, and was told I would be receiving a letter in the mail with the explanation of the decline. I hope it's something I can fight. I just assumed I would be approved when I submitted the paperwork, it never even crossed my mind that they could deny me.