Not sure if this is the best way to do this, but I'm going to give it a try.
I've made mistakes on this board. Huge ones. Really obnoxious, rude, inappropriate ones. I wish I could blame it on being young or growing up sheltered or whatever, but I can't. Fact it, I'm pretty opinionated by nature, and it's gotten me into hot water several times, IRL as well as on here.
I'm working to fix that. I believe that we're all works in progress and I know that I'm not perfect (far from it!!) and I want to improve my online social skills. To that end, I have to take ownership of my past behaviors and apologize, and see what happens next.
I deleted my recent posts (from the L&L thread) as I learned a lot from that thread and my comments are now, at this point, rather embarrassing. Would you believe me if I told you that that thread was my introduction to the idea of catfishing as a "thing"? I'd heard of the Manti Te'o situation, but the idea that people fake themselves online was beyond my awareness, particularly to that extent.
So I'm sorry. I'm going to make every effort to become less opinionated and bossy, and a bit more compassionate and kind. Or, well, to display my compassionate, kind side. Because I am that way, I just don't express it well, particularly online. I like a lot of you, and would love the opportunity to get to know you better, and for you to get to know me.
I hope you can let me try again.
ETA: I posted this on the wrong board initially, so I'm hugely embarrassed for yet *another* reason, but I'm still going to try posting it here.
Cue 9 pages of ML telephone about what you said in the deleted posts.......
Something about giving L&L the benefit of the doubt about her stated time and not wanting to post her photos, etc. Also, about the meanness that I felt was going on within the group online and how people didn't feel that they were welcome to join the "in group" and that kind of stuff. Now I see, with 20/20 hindsight, that you guys saw through her the entire time and were suspicious and were acting on those suspicions, but at the time, I was more clueless than anything.
As I look through your replies, I am realizing that it was clearly a bigger deal to me than it was to you guys. Hm. Sorry about that. Maybe this was unnecessary. Probably was.
Oh, after your summary I'm guessing no. You will continue to be a pain in the ass. You only like us if we bitch about people and we are correct? LOL.
Nope, not what I meant. I've been lurking this whole time and I honestly think that most of you are super cool and I'd love to get to know you better. I feel honestly horrible for being a brat and I'm doing my best to learn from my mistakes and move on, and this was part of it. I think in AA, they say something about making amends, and this is my version. So, take that as you will.
I have all the books I could need, and what more could I need than books? I shall only engage in commerce if books are the coin. -- Catherynne M. Valente
It is, yes, but I'm human and I make mistakes (lots of them, apparently) and I try to repair and move on. That's what I'm doing here. It'll be embarrassing for a day, maybe two, and then it won't be.
I have all the books I could need, and what more could I need than books? I shall only engage in commerce if books are the coin. -- Catherynne M. Valente
On a day when there are 2 threads about a catfisher, 3 threads about orange drink, 1 long ass randoms, AND 1 long thread about poor lost puppies; you choose to post a vague thread where people have to guess anyway?
Rookie mistake, you could have slipped in and started posting and no one would have known.
What don't I get? That most of you don't remember me and don't give a shit as to what I did? Or that what I did wasn't a huge deal? Or that now I'm memorable when before I wasn't? I get all that. And maybe this totally backfired, but oh well. I tried to do what I felt was right. If you can't see that and forgive and not laugh, but see a person who is really trying to make friends and do the right thing, then... not a lot I can do about that. I can't change you. I can only change me.
What don't I get? That most of you don't remember me and don't give a shit as to what I did? Or that what I did wasn't a huge deal? Or that now I'm memorable when before I wasn't? I get all that. And maybe this totally backfired, but oh well. I tried to do what I felt was right. If you can't see that and forgive and not laugh, but see a person who is really trying to make friends and do the right thing, then... not a lot I can do about that. I can't change you. I can only change me.
You seem to be really angry. Maybe you should have some orange drink.
What don't I get? That most of you don't remember me and don't give a shit as to what I did? Or that what I did wasn't a huge deal? Or that now I'm memorable when before I wasn't? I get all that. And maybe this totally backfired, but oh well. I tried to do what I felt was right. If you can't see that and forgive and not laugh, but see a person who is really trying to make friends and do the right thing, then... not a lot I can do about that. I can't change you. I can only change me.
You seem to be really angry. Maybe you should have some orange drink.
I hate that stuff. It's worse than Tang, and I haven't had Tang since I was a kid. I'll stick to my Diet Pepsi, thanks.