Never should have said it!

[honeybadger]

I jinxed myself.

The other day I said how happy I was about how confident I felt about the move to our homestate and the next year. It has been ONE shit show after another, which we've handled. And then today my Caliber started acting up. J has been working on it since 9 am, multiple trips to autozone, trying different things to figure out why a certain sensor is being thrown. It's looking more and more like we are going to have to break down and just have it towed in to get looked at. This happened in March and cost $1k.

Then, today Isaac told me he didn't want to move if we didn't have to. And asked if we could stay in LA until we have to move to Alaska. Everyone is telling me the year will be "so much easier" with family around but when I sat down and RE-THOUGHT everything for the umpteenth time, I'm freaking out now. Worried that being around both sets of families for the year, nowhere near military support, etc will end up being annoying as opposed to much help. Obviously, there is the benefit of having family a quick drive away if I need help between 2 kids and 2 dogs but, it isn't like there aren't options near a base. Maybe I am just putting the brakes on because I'm exhausted and the move is coming up this week and I am sick and tired of shit with the move popping up causing extra stress, costing extra money, etc, etc.

I just don't want this shit to start cracking the confidence I've built up towards breezing through this next year. And I feel it starting to shake me. Bleh.

[prettyinpink]

Deep breaths. You have absolutely thought this through and made the best choice for you and your kids while your H is gone. Its just stress doing its nice job of trying to destroy an otherwise confident woman. Everything will be okay. Sending big hugs!

Eta: to change context of a statement.

[bettydraper]

I blame stress. Having been in a similar sitch, its very easy to second guess every move. Anxiety is at an all time high, I mean you're moving (twice next year-one to ALASKA), your hubby is leaving for a year, you're having a baby, etc. Its ok to be a bit frazzled.

I think both options are great. Given that you will have a brand new baby in a very short time, I think you'll enjoy the help. It will be great and you'll be glad you and your kiddo's had this time with your families!

I'm sorry you're running into all kinds of issues. You've been keeping up on our move...ya. Murphy's Law loves military families Keep your head up and I'm here if you need me!

[honeybadger]

Thanks girls!!

[drunkpeggy]

I second A...you have a lot on your plate, it's completely understandable to question your decision and get frazzled. BIG HUGS.

[basilosaurus]

You're allowed to freak out. It's a situation that would give the strongest person pause. But, you can do it. You made these decisions when you were feeling more rational and less stressed, so trust the thought that went into it.