discomfort guilt, anyone else have it?

[Cheesecake]

I'm 32 weeks tomorrow and the discomforts are really starting. I had an irritated/infected intravertebral disk last week and spent all evening last Friday in L&D to be checked out because I had BH contractions that felt really weird and it turns out that I had an UTI too.
The probable reason behind my T-TTC were my crappy kidneys, I have a genetic disorder (PKD) combined with kidney stones. Baby has gotten so big now that he can't really help leaning into the worst of the 2 kidneys all the time and that hurts. There are moments that I can hardly, physically, get up between the pain from the disk and the kidney.

Both problems aren't because of the pregnancy, the the pregnancy does make it worse. nd whenever I realize that, or even say it out loud, I feel so damn guilty. Towards my baby, who is so very very wanted and loved, and towards the T-TTC ladies who would give everything for these discomforts.
And it's true, I am happy to be able to have these discomforts, and I totally expected the kidney pain to be there - maybe even sooner/worse than this. I love the fact that I can feel my baby, even when it's painful.

It's kind of hard to explain to other people - who haven't gone through T-TTC. Does anyone else have this?

[daisy24342]

Yes.....I completely understand. I have been feeling that way a lot lately. I'm at 37 weeks amd I'm SO over being pregnant, bitching about a lot of symptoms. I always swore I would never complain, or at least I'd keep to myself and my husband, but I find myself having a hard time filtering and being all " oh I feel great".

I just was having this convo with a friend going thru IUI for her second child. Like you, I am truly glad to be experiencing this and I wouldn't change it for anything. But venting for me helps the discomfort.

[mae141]

I felt that way around 7 weeks when I was so sick I couldn't stand. I truly questioned what I was thinking and how I was going to make it 9 months. It was weird to think that after wanting it so bad.

I'm 25 weeks now and I'm feeling okay and I actually think I look cute at this point, so I just feel lucky right now. I'm sure that will change in a few more weeks, lol.

[kershnic]

I'm not there yet because I'm not really having discomforts... but I think it's ok to complain to the right people about it. You wanted (and are getting) the whole experience - which for most women includes a good bit of bitching about being uncomfortable.

[Cheesecake]

Thanks ladies. I'm glad it's 'normal' and I feel validated in my need to complain once in a.while.
I'm still keeping up the everything is awesome to the outside world very well - and really, it is. I mean super healthy strong baby inside me, yay! It's just DH who sees me cry and complain when things hurt and he's super supportive.

I guess it doesn't help that I have a huge belly (lots of amniotic fluid and a non-small baby) and people started asking me how long 'til my due date around 19-20 weeks. At least by now I can tell them I'll be on leave in 4 weeks
And since I only go to the office 4 days a.week and work.from home the 5th today marks not only just 55 days until EDD, but only 15 more days in the office. Squee!!!! (Dutch law mandates ypu Start maternity leave 4 weeks prior to your EDD.)

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