trust your body

[mae141]

It seems like I'm constantly getting "trust your body" advice. The doula said this a bunch a childbirth class, my midwife has said it, and I keep reading it. While I feel like my body is growing my baby just fine, I kind of cringe every time I hear it. How am I supposed to trust my body, when I couldn't get pregnant or keep a pregnancy? I actually have never felt better about my body than I do right now, and I could stare at my bump for hours, but I'm so used to it deceiving me. Does anyone else have this issue, or am I just being too sensitive? 

[Cheesecake]

I feel it too. My body has been a tremendous fuck-up about everything except keeping this baby safe. And it's been that way since I.was a teen. After 20 years of knowing I can't trust my body, it's extremely difficult to change that up.

Instead of trusting my.body, my mantra to myself has been 'eventually every baby has to come out, there's never been a 68month baby still stuck inside'. That gives me more comfort than trusting my body.

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