Post by hannamarin on Jun 21, 2012 18:53:38 GMT -5
I dont act on my paranoias, .i just think bad thoughts. Right now, she is lying in bed with her eyes open strumming her fingers. Weird. She must be having a seizure or something. Earlier, her head kept bobbing down like she was falling asleep, but she was wide awake and playing...she must be having a stroke There are more. That was just today
Post by hannamarin on Jun 21, 2012 19:47:31 GMT -5
Okay, it doesnt take over my thoughts. It just passes in and out. And it doesnt hinder my life in any way. And I think when I go back to work and am preoccupied, I will worry less. But yes, in general, I tend to plan for the worst case. I have a meeting with my boss in a couple weeks and there is a small part of me that is worried that I am fired.
Could be PP-OCD/anxiety (babyrabies.com has a few good anecdotal entries on her journey), could be nothing. If those types of thoughts continue I'd talk to your OB to start.
I think things like that, but they do tend to consume me. I was on meds for a few mos and I'm thinking of going back on them. Now that dh has leveled out,I realize that I'm way more anxious than I should be. My visions always revolve around dropping the baby. Like "if I walked away from the changing table right now, it would be terrible. Would she die?". On lighter note...... I've got nothing.
Post by hannamarin on Jun 21, 2012 20:59:07 GMT -5
My friend told me today she wont let her husband drive long distances with their toddler without her. In case there is a bad accident, she insists that they all die together.
I dealt with similar thoughts that ended up being PPD/PPA that I left untreated for almost a year. I'm on Zoloft now and it has helped so much. I still have a few thoughts, but they are fewer and further between.
Yeah, I pretty much go to sleep each night straining to hear his little breaths, freaking out that each pause means he's died :S or that when he's snoring (Lordy the little guy takes after his dad) that his throat is closing up due to an allergic reaction from something I ate.
I dealt with similar thoughts that ended up being PPD/PPA that I left untreated for almost a year. I'm on Zoloft now and it has helped so much. I still have a few thoughts, but they are fewer and further between.
I've always been a pretty big worrier, even pre-DS. I don't think it takes over my life, so I just deal with it. DS is 21 months and I still check the monitor during the night to make sure he is ok. If I notice he hasn't changed positions in hours then I will go in his room to make sure he is breathing.
I also will ask DH random things like "DS hit his head at the playground 8 hours ago and was immediately fine, do you think it's possible he has a concussion and I shouldn't have put him to bed?" I know these questions are ridiculous, but I just have to say them out loud to get it out of my head and not worry. I blame my parents, they were incredibly overprotective and worriers, it must be hereditary.
I'm right there with you. I use the Angel Care Monitor until they move around the crib too much to make it worthwhile. I still check my 3 year old to make sure he's breathing.
To be honest, I'm going to be evaluated to see if I need to be medicated. I do feel more anxious than I think I should.
With DD who's 2.5 , I've learned that I need to stay away from horrific stories of children being abused etc. That is my worst nightmare and after reading about a story on PC&E last year I couldn't sleep for MONTHS. Everytime I looked at DD, I thought of that story so it was consuming me for awhile.....almost TOO long. Every once in awhile if I hear a story about child abuse (especially of the sexual kind) it takes me a LONG time to get over it.
With DS (who's 4months) my issues have been more about dropping him. They are fleeting fears but he's a head bobber right now and sometimes when I'm holding him he'll throw his head back and it will catch me off guard. I wonder what if I didnt have such a great grip on him and what would happen to him if he hit the floor. I don't DWELL on these thoughts but they do come and go at least once or twice a week.