I'm nervous, might have to be induced early

[Cheesecake]

So warning, long story.
Last week at my check-up, I had bloodwork done to check for cholastasis. The next day I was supposed to be called with the results, but it was crazy busy, so that didn't happen on time. I called them by the end of the afternoon and thw nurse said she'd make sure I'd get a call back.
30 minutes later someone other than my own doc called me to discuss results.
Cholastasis was negative (yay), but then she started about my creatinine.

Now the reason I'm seeing my doc, is because of my kidney disease. So far this pregnancy, my kidneys have behaved awesome (for me) and there hasn't been anything to worry abput.
Now the lady who called me said she was worried about my super high creatinine and that this might mean my kidneys are starting to fail and that she's ordering more bloodwork to be done before my next appointment.

Cue me getting super worried.

Yesterday I had the check-up with the extra bloodwork and as usual my blood pressure checked. Not surprising my BP was through the roof because I was so nervous about my kidneya shutting down. My doc looked at all the results and told me there's nothing new or hogh about my creat, that -for me- it's all still perfect. But, a BP that high is dangerous.

So I had to come back today to have my BP re-checked and while it was much moee normal, the doc is not super happy with it anymore, so he told me that if on Tuesday my BP isn't back to completely low, he'll schedule an induction.

I really really don't want to be induced. I want the baby to come on his/her own time, finish growing as long as possible inside me. I want a completely med free birth. I'm supposed to deliver at the hospital, but withput iv's and definitely without painkillets. I'm glad they're available for women who do want that stuff, but that's not me. I sincerely hate all kinds of narcotics, they make me violently ill, so I really don't want an epi, or other stuff and I don't want pitocin.

This is going to be my only pregnancy, my only delivery. With my health issues it's just not safe to ever get pregnant again, so I'm just so disappointed that I might have to have a crappy experience, mainly because someone didn't think and just worried me with terrible news causing my BP to become troublesome.

I know the ultimate goal is a healthy baby, and I know my doc is only.acting in my and my baby's beat interest, but I really really never even imagined induction, unless I went to 42 weeks - and it's just really not something I want.

I was actually looking forward to being pregnant 3 more weeks, maybe longer. I know most people want the baby out asap and don't like the last weeks, but I actually enjoy being pregnant, having my baby inside me. I just feel kinda robbed...

Kudos of you made it to here. And TIA for letting me vent.

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[justwaiting]

Aww, I am so sorry that you have to go through that. Can you talk to your doctor and see if he is willing to go another couple of weeks? Maybe keep a log of you BP when you go to the store or something and see if maybe it was just high because you were worked up. In any case I hope it works out for you. Keep us posted.

[Cheesecake]

Thanks!

My doc knows I prefer everything as natural as possible and is a huge proponent of that himself. He said we'll decide for sure on Tuesday. That was him being lenient. Most docs would've likely kept me there and induced me yesterday

I'll definitely let you know if I have any news!

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[kershnic]

It's understandable that you have a vision for this and want it to go a certain way, and are upset that it may not. This is a huge life event. That said, you've gone through everything you've gone through with the goal of having a healthy baby, not the goal of having a perfect birth story. Your doctor is not taking this decision lightly or basing it off of one high bp reading that was caused by stress. I think it's important to keep advocating for yourself if your doctor is not paying attention to the whole picture, but it sounds like your doctor is taking it all into account and choosing a path that will get you where you want to be - healthy mom and healthy baby. Bask in being full term and take care of yourself.

[daisy24342]

Keep us posted! Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

[changedname]

I'll be hoping for good news for you Cheesecake!

[andthentherewere10]

I'm sorry. I'm hoping for the best for you!

[Cheesecake]

Thanks everyone for the support. While I still would love to go on my own, I am over the shock by now.
DH and I were talking about it and saying that the whole pregnancy has gone so amazingly well, is what's likely going against us now. It's all risk percentages and the fact that it's such a big, strong baby makes the risks that come with being induced smaller than the risks of developing pre-e or something.

And the way I am feeling right now, I wouldn't be surprised if I don't even make it to my next appointment... Who knows, baby will do what he wants, I'm sure.

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