It's been a rough night.

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I don't want to go home. Being at my mom's is the worst and it's a constant reminder of how everything has gone to shit this year.

I got all choked up in the store tonight seeing all of the baby stuff. I would have been half way through my pregnancy had I not had a miscarriage. I miss something that I never had and I keep thinking about how badly I want it even though I didn't think I did until I got pregnant.

Then on fb this afternoon I saw that my H had been tagged in a status and some pictures that another girl had posted. I seems like a silly thing to be worked up about, but we haven't told anyone that we're divorcing or at least I haven't, and it's embarrassing to me that everyone is seeing this and making assumptions or asking questions that I'm not ready to answer.

I want a drink.

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I'm so so sorry. Get a drink.

Your H is a douche. But you know that.

[lime]

I'm so sorry. (((vaba)))

Do you have any support IRL, other than your mom that you can lean on?

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Oct 28, 2013 21:06:50 GMT -5 @lazerus24 said:

I'm so so sorry. Get a drink.

Your H is a douche. But you know that.

I just stopped for two bottles of wine. Gotta have one for each hand.

[sparkythelawyer]

How much longer are you stuck at your Moms?

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Oct 28, 2013 21:23:26 GMT -5 sparkythelawyer said:

How much longer are you stuck at your Moms?

I don't know.  I've been here for a month, but it feels like an eternity.  I haven't started looking at any apartments yet because I was hoping to be able to save a little money by being here so that I wouldn't have to worry about rent for a few months once I find somewhere to go. 

[Bree Van de Kamp]

A thousand hugs....I do already have a child, but you and I miscarried around the same time, and my heart is with you, love.

[bonquiqui]

I am sorry.  It really will get better in time.  I know that seems so cliche right now, but it really will.  Hugs

[sparkythelawyer]

Oct 28, 2013 21:28:32 GMT -5 @vaba said:

Oct 28, 2013 21:23:26 GMT -5 sparkythelawyer said:

How much longer are you stuck at your Moms?

I don't know.  I've been here for a month, but it feels like an eternity.  I haven't started looking at any apartments yet because I was hoping to be able to save a little money by being here so that I wouldn't have to worry about rent for a few months once I find somewhere to go. 

Are you working?  You're in Chicago, right?  (as am I).  What neighborhoods are you hoping to stay in?  
You can probably get a studio for pretty reasonable depending on where you are trying to end up.  Its not fabulous, but it gets you out of Mom's, and gives you a little piece of the universe that's "yours"

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I am in the suburbs now. I already know that I need to look outside of the town that my mom lives because it's too expensive here. I think if I got a little closer to work it would be more affordable. I don't want to name specific towns on here, but I can PM you.

[sparkythelawyer]

You have mail, Vaba.

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Sorry @vaba. I agree that things will be more than better after awhile. You just have to hang in there for the time being. It sucks. It really does.

You will be surprised how much better you will feel a few months from now. So surprised.
I bet you this time next year you are glad it happened (the divorce). Hard as it is to believe.

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Oct 28, 2013 21:30:57 GMT -5 Bree Van de Kamp said:

A thousand hugs....I do already have a child, but you and I miscarried around the same time, and my heart is with you, love.

I'm so sorry. I didn't know. 

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(((hugs)))

[Bree Van de Kamp]

Oct 28, 2013 22:22:41 GMT -5 @vaba said:

Oct 28, 2013 21:30:57 GMT -5 Bree Van de Kamp said:

A thousand hugs....I do already have a child, but you and I miscarried around the same time, and my heart is with you, love.

I'm so sorry. I didn't know. 

Thank you...you're sweet.

But, this is totally about you. It needs to be about you. You need to take some time for yourself, even if no one else is trying to make that happen for you. It sounds like you feel really suffocated where you are right now. Can you take a few days away? Anywhere? Even a spa day? It could really help.

((hugs))