I have the feelers and they hurt

[wowhead]

I'm having a really shitty day.  Tomorrow is the 2 year anniversary of the death of my bff.  He was the closest thing to a brother I ever had.  We talked at least 5 times a week for 12 years.  I miss him so very much and there hasn't been a day in the last 2 years that I haven't thought about him.

This morning I woke up from a dream about him and my heart broke all over again.  I held it together long enough for a quick work meeting then laid on H's chest and cried.  H told me last night that he really wanted me to go with him to a birthday party/board game session today and I had every intention of going.  I can't stop crying and I made him go without me.  Now I feel even worse because I let him down and he said he feels like he abandoned me.  I want to go  to bed and hide from the world for the next 48 hours.  

Can I have some hair pats/funny gifs/cute pics?  I need some help digging out of this emotional black hole.

[RoxMonster]

((hugs)) I'm so sorry. That has got to be so hard to lose a friend who is so close.

I would do whatever makes you feel best today. If that is curling up in bed crying, then do it. Don't force yourself to go out today if you don't want to.

[julez]

I'm sorry. Be kind to yourself. ((hugs))

[polka]

I am so sorry

You shouldn't feel bad for being upset about this and wanting to stay home. Just take care of yourself.

(((Hugs)))

[Jermys]

Go to here and soon the day will be over and you'll be wondering what happened. www.quickmeme.com

[Dezi]

I'm sorry you're hurting. Don't feel bad for not going with your H, I'm sure that's the last thing he would want. Take care of yourself and if curling up in bed would make you feel better, do it.

[awick14]

Dec 21, 2013 16:00:11 GMT -5 Jermys said:

Go to here and soon the day will be over and you'll be wondering what happened. www.quickmeme.com

Last time I went there I lost about 3 hours of my day.

[pinkeggs]

Major hair pat and hug. I'm so sorry.

[shostakovich]

Big hugs.  Snuggle up in a blanket and take a visit here: www.buzzfeed.com/expresident/cutest-things-that-happened-this-year

A sampling:

[snickers]

Don't feel bad, take care of yourself.
Hugs to you.

[Booze Raccoon]