I know:(. I'm pretty much in tears every time I think about it. I want to comment on the post but there are no words. I honestly don't know I could get through it. I appreciate my time with A but this just makes it so much more real.
Today is the funeral. One of the girls on our birth month PIPed the obituary. So freaking sad. Today they are having a day of silence to remember. I just don't know. It's awful. community.thebump.com/cs/ks/forums/thread/67184435.aspx
This has made me think. The parents must go first. It is natural. That is the way it has to be. So A will survive my death, and it could be in the blink of an eye. So I am going to write her a letter that she will only see if that happens. That sounds totally morbid but I don't mean it to, I mean it in the most loving way possible.