I was once again awake at 4:30, 3rd day in a row! I would really like to know why my internal alarm clock thinks this appropriate. ANd I am not going to be that early either.
I'm irritated that Women's ice hockey isn't shown here before midnight, so I keep falling asleep when I try to watch it.
My friend who I had Valentine's Day plans with texted me last night wanting to change them to Thursday, or move them to early on Friday because she has to drive out of town that night. I ended up crying about it and feeling completely ridiculous. I know now what my crying was really about, but in the moment I just felt hurt and wanted to tell her not to bother rescheduling our "date."
Hope you get some sleep sparksfly. Is everything okay? Unusual stress?
Everything is fine, no new and unusual stress. Just sucks losing those 45 preciously beautiful minutes of sleep. Brightside, I get to work super early and get more stuff done, but I want my sleep damn it!!!!!!!!
::hugs:: tiramisu Valentines Day is stupid anyway. Go out with your friend on Thursday and find a new friend for Friday.
That's what sucks, I already specifically made plans for Thursday with another friend because I already had plans for Friday. This friend still wants to do dinner and a movie, just leave by 8pm, which I agreed to.
It's been hard because it felt like everyone has better things to do than hang out with me, so of course they'd ditch me for more interesting plans (in this case an out-of-town dive). I know that's not exactly it, but that's what it triggered. Still have stuff to work on in therapy!
It's turning into a project day for me! Yay busy days at work!
The boys have been hellbeasts lately. Not really sure why.
Have you talked about the divorce with then yet?
Not yet. DD is getting the talk first and then the boys will get a talk.
I think they're just dealing with major cabin fever and by the time they get home to me they're all "I NEED TO RUN AND THROW SHIT!!!". They're both used to time outs (DS #1 is even responding to "If you get up before I say so, your time out is doubled" which is a total win for me) and if they're too bad I just turn everything off and send them all to bed.
Valentine's day is ridiculous, particularly when it's on a Friday. Don't let this get you down, tiramisu. It's all timing. It's a 3day weekend. It has nothing to do with you. Your friend's love you and you will reschedule because, even though you are feeling hurt and fragile right now, you won't in a few days and you will a. Regret not rescheduling and b. Realize that it was a little silly.
You are going to have a good time and you will look and feel and be completely fabulous, just like always.
tiramisu Have fun on Thursday and try not to be too disappointed in your friend. Take yourself for a pedicure or something on Friday, or go out solo in some fabulous lipstick and wait for all the boys to come to you.
Thank you. I know it's not. It was just crappy timing for a plans change. I shouldn't be surprised, she always does this (changing plans so she can dive). Shark week is just the wrong time for me to handle this.
I'm also annoyed because I was feeling amazing after yoga and then this happened and I cried. But I'm already scheduled for the same yoga class tomorrow.
Not yet. DD is getting the talk first and then the boys will get a talk.
I think they're just dealing with major cabin fever and by the time they get home to me they're all "I NEED TO RUN AND THROW SHIT!!!". They're both used to time outs (DS #1 is even responding to "If you get up before I say so, your time out is doubled" which is a total win for me) and if they're too bad I just turn everything off and send them all to bed.
Awe, that's hard. Any indoor play area they could go? Or even a large mall they could walk around in?
I always take my kid to a store when he drives me nuts. We.go window shopping at the mall. Or we go to the dollar store (dollar tree) and he can pick out some coloring books/ craft supplies and usually a balloon. Only cost me $5, lol.
I didn't cancel, we're doing dinner early enough that she can leave on time. I'm cooking at her place for her and her roommate. Now I just have to figure out what to do with the rest of my night.
I realized another thing probably contributing is work. I've been dreaming with a lot of dark and heavy emotions for two days in a row, sometimes I'm not able to release all of that energy and it sticks with me for a bit.
Post by cuddlyevil on Feb 12, 2014 10:12:32 GMT -5
I'm going to buy a big thing of random trinkets from oriental trading company and set up a sticker/reward chart. DS #2 would be happy if he just got quarters to use at red robin (he is obsessed with it).
But we've instituted a "if it's 7:45 and you're all being butts, everything gets shut off and pjs are put on. Then it's time to brush our teeth, get a story and off to bed." rule. It's hard when we get home just before 7, but it's been working. It just takes time. I am trying to adjust things so they're used to just me doing the routine.
I took half a sanity day at work yesterday and went to my BFFs house and hung out for the afternoon. It was fun.
STBXH has been friending all the womenfolk on FB. This morning he asked what needs to be done to get the divorce moving. Apparently he wants me to file asap. LOL... his true feelings are starting to show, I see. Whatever. Go get it dude.
ETA: Also, the Humpty Dance will be stuck in my head for the remainder of my life...
I took half a sanity day at work yesterday and went to my BFFs house and hung out for the afternoon. It was fun.
STBXH has been friending all the womenfolk on FB. This morning he asked what needs to be done to get the divorce moving. Apparently he wants me to file asap. LOL... his true feelings are starting to show, I see. Whatever. Go get it dude.
ETA: Also, the Humpty Dance will be stuck in my head for the remainder of my life...
At least I'm not the only one!
One of the ladies at work gave me props for joining meetup and connecting with a group so I can make more friends. She was like "that's the way to do it". And I giggled.
STBX is getting itchy for me to move out and us to file too. I can tell.