pity party happening in here. it's stupid, you've been warne

[Stingyshark]

I'm so self-conscious about my PP body; I don't even want to go to the gym..which is kind of counter-productive, i guess. Kind of need to go to the gym..

I'm not digging for compliments.. 

I know I JUST HAD A BABY, i'm fully aware of that, but that doesn't make it any easier. 

I have a TM & weights downstairs, but the display on the TM got struck by lightening, so I have no idea how far/fast I've gone, which annoys the shit out of me. My garmin took a shit, and this never ending mother fucking road construction makes it difficult to run outside, oh and it's raining.  I could come up with at least 100 more excuses why I shouldn't go to the gym.

[kams]

I understand. That is a totally normal way to feel. She is still so young, there are so many changes happening with her and with you, and it's a clusterfuck of frustration & emotions during the first few months.

Your body will be back. Maybe it will be a bit different. (& maybe not), but it will return to the fit & powerful body that it was before. Quite likely even more so. I know it's cliche, but it just spent 9 months growing to accommodate and nourish her - it sometimes takes a little while to adjust back.

[Stingyshark]

Thanks kams

It's totally stupid since I had this awesome complication that made recovery even more difficult. I just discovered I have full range of motion in my foot... Like yesterday I figured it out while I was sitting in bed nursing Paisley. So I should cut myself some slack.. But no.

[Susie]

I haven't done anything as impressive as grow a human, but I have had to bounce back from a place of feeling out of shape, flabby, and poorly about my body for various reasons. It is really hard to do, but I always feel better when I have a plan in place - like ok, self, I know we're not good with where we are, but we're on this path, we have a plan, and in X period of time it will be better and different, and that is ok. That helps me tolerate the interim better, knowing that it's not forever, and I *am* doing something to make that so. I don't know if that would help you. Sort of like being on a training plan, except not necessarily with a race at the end. It also helps me to have a plan so I don't think too hard about what I should do each day. I see run on the plan, so I go, there's no "gee, do I actually feel like running today? Do I want to show myself at the gym?" Less opportunity to talk myself out of it.

*hug*

[msturtle143]

Totally normal. I wasn't smart enough and had unrealistic expectations of what I would feel or really even look like postpartum. My energy was just zapped, between sleepless nights and problems/frustrations with breastfeeding. 
Not easy but don't be too hard on yourself. I still wish I took that advice to heart sooner.

[kams]

Feb 21, 2014 17:02:23 GMT -5 Stingyshark said:

Thanks kams

It's totally stupid since I had this awesome complication that made recovery even more difficult. I just discovered I have full range of motion in my foot... Like yesterday I figured it out while I was sitting in bed nursing Paisley. So I should cut myself some slack.. But no.

You really should. (((Stingy)))

[venice2007]

I haven't had a kid but just want offer hugs. I've been there when I've been down on my body. It's so hard and we as women are so hard on ourselves. You are strong and will be back in no time. :-) just in time for our wonderful Tampa bay summer lol :-P

[Stingyshark]

Feb 21, 2014 17:24:56 GMT -5 venice2007 said:

I haven't had a kid but just want offer hugs. I've been there when I've been down on my body. It's so hard and we as women are so hard on ourselves. You are strong and will be back in no time. :-) just in time for our wonderful Tampa bay summer lol :-P

Lol yeah..I'm not ready for it to be hot again! My wackadoo hormones already make me hotter than usual

[venice2007]

Feb 21, 2014 17:31:34 GMT -5 Stingyshark said:

Feb 21, 2014 17:24:56 GMT -5 venice2007 said:

I haven't had a kid but just want offer hugs. I've been there when I've been down on my body. It's so hard and we as women are so hard on ourselves. You are strong and will be back in no time. :-) just in time for our wonderful Tampa bay summer lol :-P

Lol yeah..I'm not ready for it to be hot again! My wackadoo hormones already make me hotter than usual

Today was just bad bad bad. I'm super bitter already lol it's just been soooooooooooooo nice :-) go away summer lol

[mrshandy]

I've been there and it just takes time. Take it easy on yourself. Maybe focus on your diet and that will make you feel better until you can get back to your old self.

It will definitely come back ! Have faith!

[ohyouknow]

It is so hard after a baby. Your body will start to go back to normal on its own, just be patient. I've had 3 babies and it takes 6 months to be really be back to normal.

[coconutbug]

Newborns and babies in general are exhausting. It took me a long, long time to get back into the swing of things and to feel up for regular workouts again. Cut yourself a lot of slack and just do the best you can, whenever you do feel up for getting back to the gym. I'm getting tired just thinking about how tired and hormonal I was back then. But it does get better and you will get back to it...it just may take a little time. ((Hugs))

[jamalynn]

Yes, I know it's hard. You pop the kid out and want your body back immediately. I had DD in the fall so outside running with her was out. I gave myself the gift of exercise videos to motivate me without having to leave her, like going to the gym. Good luck! I will happen.

[hannahb]

It's hard. I get it and have been there (still am there a little). It does get better. You've had a rough recovery and I can totally understand getting down and being hard on yourself. I will mention that if you continue to feel bad about your body and unmotivated then talk to your doctor. I'm not saying that you have PPD but I did/do and my negative body thoughts were a part of that. (So were frequent crying and anxiety)
On a different note, how is your foot? Yeah to getting back your range of motion! How's the sensation and strength?

[agswife]

1. Your girl is ADORABLE!
2. Totally normal.
3. Have you thought about downloading an app so you can use your treadmill? Before going back to the gym PP, I did at home work outs and walked/ran on my treadmill (it was winter, too.)

Remember, it took 10 months for your body to change, so be gentle as it works to get back!

[runblondie26]

I'm sorry Stingy. I'm sure you you look great and would totally shock people if you told them you have a 2 month old.

It does get better, it just takes a little time. Keep the faith!

[sadlebred]

First of all, your kiddo is SO cute!!

Like everyone else said, it's hard but give yourself a break! Think about the cute kiddo!

[blndsnbrdr]

I'm sorry Stingy...but at the same time, I am so glad you're be honest about this! I'm so sick of reading about bloggers/whoever bouncing back from pregnancy for an omg perfect body/life/everything and quite frankly, its annoying!

I know you'll work your way through this! And you know you will too, it'll just take time. Until then, bring on the honesty, whiney or not!

[andrealynn]

It is definitely NOT stupid. Hang in there. It gets better. You'll find "you" again.

[Stingyshark]

Feb 21, 2014 23:01:15 GMT -5 blndsnbrdr said:

I'm sorry Stingy...but at the same time, I am so glad you're be honest about this! I'm so sick of reading about bloggers/whoever bouncing back from pregnancy for an omg perfect body/life/everything and quite frankly, its annoying!

I know you'll work your way through this! And you know you will too, it'll just take time. Until then, bring on the honesty, whiney or not!

Instagram is REALLY bad. I've had to delete some people that I followed because it was really getting me down on myself. 

[jene]

Hugs, I have no advice to offer, I will most likely be dealing with the same feelings in a few months.

[taratru]

I feel ya. Here's the good news: after you're back at it, you'll be stronger and faster than you ever were.

In the meantime, the rest is normal. I won't tell you to stop bearing yourself up, because I do the same thing, even now. I've started using that as my motivation, though not only does it get me out the door, it makes me happy to know I'm shutting that doubting voice the hell up.

[taratru]

I feel ya. Here's the good news: after you're back at it, you'll be stronger and faster than you ever were.

In the meantime, the rest is normal. I won't tell you to stop bearing yourself up, because I do the same thing, even now. I've started using that as my motivation, though not only does it get me out the door, it makes me happy to know I'm shutting that doubting voice the hell up.

[water*drop]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. It's totally normal, though, and you will come back from it. It just takes time. Try to cut yourself a break. I don't know how old your baby is, but when DD was younger, I tried to remind myself to be happy with any workout at all, no matter how slow or easy or infrequent, because lack of sleep and just having a baby in general is kind of exhausting. As DD got more predictable, my motivation came back and I got back to regular training schedules and working really hard...but even now, if DD is sick or not sleeping well or whatever, I definitely consider any workout at all a success.

[osulori]

It's not stupid. I'm struggling with some of the same feelings re: going to the gym...I just don't wanna. The weather has been generally shitty, and you'd think that since I have a baby that generally sleeps well that I'd be all about running before work. Nope. Don't wanna. Right now, I'm getting out there 1-2x week (who am I kidding though, it's usually 1x and that's only because my friend makes me) and agreed to be a backup pacer for a half marathon on 5/3 so I need to get my ass in gear and get my mileage up. But again...don't wanna. So cut yourself some slack. It's taken a while, but I'm finally starting to and I feel a lot better as a result.

On a side note, did you say you have full ROM in your foot again? YAAAAAAAAAAAY!

[Brit]

Lots of hugs, hang in there. It is tough, but everything will come together, just give it some time.

[breezy8407]

I'll be honest. My two were over a year old before I felt somewhat back to normal. I needed the time to workout (not easy with newborns) and I needed to be getting consistent sleep. I just had no energy or time up until then. It sucked to feel that way, I remember it well. I still have days where I get down on myself because things are different now. You WILL get back there.

[blndsnbrdr]

Feb 22, 2014 5:58:05 GMT -5 Stingyshark said:

Feb 21, 2014 23:01:15 GMT -5 blndsnbrdr said:

I'm sorry Stingy...but at the same time, I am so glad you're be honest about this! I'm so sick of reading about bloggers/whoever bouncing back from pregnancy for an omg perfect body/life/everything and quite frankly, its annoying!

I know you'll work your way through this! And you know you will too, it'll just take time. Until then, bring on the honesty, whiney or not!

Instagram is REALLY bad. I've had to delete some people that I followed because it was really getting me down on myself. 

IG is kind of scary. My cousin-in-law just regram'ed some scary restrictive posts! Its the first time I've seen it from her, but still...scary to think she is following those people.

(she is in early HS, I'm allowed to be protective/weird about this!)

[katinthehat]

I say this with love, but are you seeing or talking to your doctor about PPD? After your bed rest, birth experience, recovery, BFing issues and all of that, it might help you feel a little better to just talk it out with someone. I had pretty bad PPD after my first and self image issues were a big part of all that mess.