I've been in and out of here so much the last week that I don't even know if anyone posted a check-in last Wednesday on the 4th. If so, thank you!!
Things are fine on my end. I'm having sporadic runner's knee issues that aren't painful per se, but do bother me on occasion and my coach wants me to see a doctor pronto. I hope it's something I can continue to run through, as that's what I've been doing these past few weeks with the help of a knee support that works pretty well. Lots of RICE too but I can't really do RICE when I'm at work.
Also, the Fat Tuesday thread about fat being incurable resonated with me. It really does suck that I will never have it "easy." I have yo-yo-ed quite often in the last 10 years. Here's my weight history (I'm 5'11" in case you're wondering):
2001 - 195 pounds 2002 - 135 pounds 2006 - 173 pounds (gained in 1.5 years) 2008 - 150 pounds 2010 - 183 pounds (gained in 1.5 years) 2012 - 143 pounds (140-145 seems to be my "happy weight" range)
The two major weight gains above corresponded to major life events - in 2005 I moved to an area I didn't know and was lonely and miserable and eating my feelings, and in 2009 I injured my foot and couldn't run for months, which then turned into two years of no activity (which was my own fault).
So what's the difference for me now? I feel like I finally have a true grasp on things because I *finally* accepted that this is how life has to be for me - I need to continue to be active for the rest of my life and I need to eat healthy the vast majority of the time for me to even have a fighting chance to stick with this weight loss. I refused to accept that before because I just thought it wasn't fair that I got the short end of the stick, genetically and metabolically. But it is what it is. The worst part is always when people voice their opinions about what I'm eating, because I'm "already skinny and don't need to eat like I'm trying to lose weight." Um, I have to eat this way to MAINTAIN my weight, and no one who has never been overweight will ever understand that. I just continue to try to let the comments slide off my back. Luckily, I've grown accustomed to craving fruit as snacks and I no longer need to eat sizable portions to feel full anymore, but that took a lot of adjustment. A LOT.
Post by secretlyevil on Jul 11, 2012 8:37:40 GMT -5
Hey Marie! I did post on the holiday. I was on early and didn't want to miss so I went ahead and posted.
Nothing new this week to report on the stats. weight and measurements pretty much stayed the same.
Boxing is going really well. Especially after crossfit, it's nice to be looking forward to a workout instead of feeling like I'm forcing myself into it. I may need new cross trainers. Anyone have any recommendations?
Disneyland Half is quickly approaching and I don't feel ready for it or for the goal I've set for myself. I think I need to do a few solo runs to get in the mindset. My training partner is not a runner and she's training with me so I can help her get faster but I feel like I'm not really getting anywhere myself. going to the form clinic at my LRS the first week of August.
I made the zucchini brownies for the 4th; no one could tell zucchini was in there. The recipe itself needed a little work but I was secretly very satisfied to see H eating zucchini. Of course, he didn't like them because I put walnuts in them. He's such a five year old.
Tracking and eating is going eh. Still focusing on eating mostly healthy. This morning MFP pointed out that I hadn't logged anything for three days.
I am doing MUCH better on the weekends and during the workday with food and stopping when I am full. But the evenings are killing me - I am just making crappy choices left and right. So that is my focus right now. Need to figure out why I am doing that.
Other than that, I finally have a good gym routine going, which is awesome. I am getting stronger and doing more, so progress on that end is good
I just started WW last week and this week is going shitily as expected but I'm still learning a lot and frankly its nice to only go at a pace of 1 week at a time and having a chart to show you where you are in the grand scheme of things. I also didn't explode back to my Christmas weight which I had feared had happened from May to now so maybe that means I'm not giving myself enough credit.
My weigh-ins are on Friday so I can't give an update until next week.
Thanks for sharing your weight history, Marie - it really hits home for me b/c those are the weights I see yo-yoing before my eyes. I also like to see people with goal weights near mine b/c often times it's hard to wrap your head around 140-150 being thin for you when it's heavy for people much shorter than you.
Food poisoning has negated any bad eating I did while we were at the lake all day Monday, so I guess that's a positive? I'm back to trying to eat normally today, if a little blandly.
We are leaving to go out of town for a week on Saturday morning, and while I am looking forward to it, I am going to try to a) still work out every day at the hotel gym and b) eat as well as possible even though we're going to be eating out a lot. I'm also going to try to keep my drinking to one night when we go out without the kids. We're spending a week in the fabulous locale of West Lafayette, IN (where we went to Purdue together), so I know it will be difficult to not eat and drink like I am in college again.
I've fallen off of MFP. And walking. 100 degree heat is not conducive to outdoor activity.
And logging "2 cups of jello, a snack bag of salt and vinegar potato chips, and some almonds" seems...pointless.
Ya'll were right about this eating while KU'd thing. I'm hoping it calms down in 5 weeks so I can get back on track with eating real food. I think the most frustrating thing (besides jut feeling like crap) is the constant changes. Last week I just wanted meat, this week I can't even look at meat and all I want is vinegar and sour stuff.
I'd like to think that the total aversion to all food is going to help me stay within a reasonable weight gain, but junk food occasionally sounds awesome (see potato chips above) so...we'll see I guess. What will be, will be.
Hold on a sec, let me wipe the potato chip crumbs off my hands...damn snack machine and cash money in my wallet
Other than what apparently has been a two day need to binge on snack food at work, things have been pretty good here. We're finally getting a blessed break from the humidity which makes running a ton easier-I'm going to attempt another outdoor speed workout this evening, and hoping it goes better than the last one did. I went to another TRX class on Saturday-still more pain afterwards, but not for as long as after the first class I took. I really like it, even though it kicks my ass and makes me look like the world's most wimpy person.
And now that I'm out of dollar bills, I should stay out of the snack machine and back on a better eating track again. My sister's wedding is one month from today (thank you jeebus, this wedding cannot be over fast enough) so I'm going to be watching what I stuff in my mouth a little more closely.
Wawa, props that you're even trying to log food during first tri. Honestly, eat what makes you feel good and don't beat yourself up.
I'm doing well with just fruit (mostly) for snacks and yogurt and fruit for breakfast. And I'm going to yoga in half an hour! I tried to do a cardio ball class the other day, but LilShirley decided gym daycare was for suckers, and they paged me fifteen minutes in because she wouldn't stop crying. Whomp whomp.
The sugar cravings have subsided, and I am doing more cooking (that pasta veggie bake I posted in the vegetarian guest thread last night was awesome. Only eight ounces of pasta in the entire baking dish--the rest is veggies, cheese, and sauce.)
What's been helping me is the fact that we know that never getting fat is the key, and I want to model healthy habits for the baby. Keep on trucking, ladies!
Things have suddenly gone into a total tailspin for me, but it's ok, and I'm handling it. I was half-heartedly tracking on MFP last week because we did a long weekend down at the beach, so I wasn't too serious about it.
Monday H and I went out for a bike ride. I called it quits at 22 miles, he wanted to go longer. I got a call about 20 minutes later: "Can you come get me?" He met a stick he didn't see going about 20mph and shattered his collarbone. Cue ER visit, frantic drive home yesterday to get to an ortho here, and surgery is scheduled for Monday.
Did I mention we were supposed to leave this Sunday for our 2 week trip to Scotland and Ireland?
So yeah - all my plans are being totally rearranged, but it's fine. I'm bummed, but obviously getting him taken care of is the priority, and we can do London and Ireland next year instead. And this means I can do 3 more weeks of swim practice and riding before my surgery. Woot.
Since he can't exercise, I'm going to be watching our diets a little more closely. I need to try some new recipes - he wants to incorporate some vegetarian recipes, which is fine with me.
And since I'll be home and not traveling, I can get back to logging on MFP and not slack off with that.
I'm preparing to move and was out of town last weekend, so haven't hit the gym in awhile. Am going to get back to it tonight no matter how much packing I have to do.
I have a 5K next weekend that I'm not all that prepared for, but it's one where they spray paint on you so it'll be fun and silly.
Marie, I'm kind of feeling the way you are as far as the weight thing is concerned. I fluctuate from 130 to 150, and am at the 135 range now, where I'd like to stay. I just can't stay there if I eat and drink whatever I want... every time I get down to 130 I always think "okay, weight loss is done now, so I can go back to eating an entire frozen pizza for dinner!" But now I get that I have to be stricter. I wish I could eat whatever I wanted like some people, but I can't, so oh well.
Marie, you're 5'11??? In your pics, you look *tiny*. Anyhoo...
My same ankle that I injured in the marathon is acting up again. It's from running on the camber of the road. So I need to find completely flat roads/trails, run on the wrong side of the street, or go to a treadmill full time - none of which will happen. So, I'm struggling. I went down to 4 days of running per week and still need to go join a new gym so I can lift.
Eating is ridiculous. I hate summer because I'm home all day and I eat when I'm bored. I have no will power. And I drink wine or beer every day, whereas during school I only drink on the weekends. I have plenty of wiggle room in terms of being okay if I gained a few pounds, but I don't want to start that backslide, ya know?
Also, I'm putting this here for accountability, I'm going to start swimming next week. I have *got* to get some form of cardio in, and my foot is killing me anytime I try to start walking/running.
Also, I'm putting this here for accountability, I'm going to start swimming next week. I have *got* to get some form of cardio in, and my foot is killing me anytime I try to start walking/running.
Also, I'm putting this here for accountability, I'm going to start swimming next week. I have *got* to get some form of cardio in, and my foot is killing me anytime I try to start walking/running.
Also, I'm putting this here for accountability, I'm going to start swimming next week. I have *got* to get some form of cardio in, and my foot is killing me anytime I try to start walking/running.
I went to the land of carbs last week, and I'm still recovering.
Me too. Delicious, delicious carbs.
This week I'm not going to get back on the healthy wagon as we are about to travel for DH's work. Since i'm bfing it should be okkkkk as in I might stay the same weight, but I certainly won't lose any.
Thanks for the nice comments, everyone. Eclaires - if it helps, when I was at 135 I looked like Skeletor. I stuck to that weight for a while but realized even 5-10 additional pounds from that makes a world of a difference in a good way.