I lost my kitty yesterday

[lucky428]

I am beyond devastated.  I don't even feel like I can breathe or do anything besides climb in bed and cry.

She has been suffering from chronic kidney disease since 2012.  We had been managing it with subq fluids and renal LP.  She was better than ever -- happy, vibrant, energetic... She was frisky and played like a kitten.  My husband got a job in MN and moved in March.  He took her because she was on antibiotics and he is better at giving them to her.  My worst fear about this move was I would never see her again.  They discovered a UTI right before her move and it turned out to be resistant to antibiotics.  She went downhill fast.  She couldn't lift her head easily. She stopped meowing and purring.  She became a skeleton and the Savvy we knew and loved was gone.  We only had one choice.  My husband was with her until her last moment.

My worst fear with the move was that she would pass away before I got to MN (I move next week.)  I last saw her on March 29th.  She passed away on April 29th.

I'm so heart broken and I can't believe I will never see her again.  She was only 9.  My only comfort is knowing she is now at peace and doesn't have to feel sick anymore. 

Anyway, if you have any advice on how to grieve, it would be appreciated.  I ordered this frame www.etsy.com/listing/104660642/cat-picture-frame-personalized?ref=shop_home_active_1 and I ordered an Instagram poster of pics of her and her brother.

I know I don't post much.  Thank you for listening.

Here is my beautiful girl during healthier times. 

[So_Fetch]

She is beautiful. I'm so sorry for your loss. I think it's good that you are able to take some comfort knowing that she's not sick anymore. I lost my kitty on March 5th, and it was terrible. She also had health problems, so I know she's no longer in pain. But it sucks being left behind broken-hearted. I don't really have any tips for grieving. You just have to do what feels right for you. Be kind to yourself. The frame is pretty - I framed a pic of my Minnie too. It will get easier with time, but it still sucks. ::hugs::

[clo]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Unfortunately, there isn't a whole lot of advice that I can offer except that it takes time. There are times when it is going to feel like a punch to the gut all day, and other times when it won't hurt quite as bad.

[niemand88f]

I'm so sorry for your loss (hug)

[lucky428]

Thank you ladies. I appreciate it.

[jenndarrin]

I am usually a lurker, but I just needed to say that I'm so sorry for your loss.

[mcmel]

I'm so so sorry

[lucky428]

Thank you so much. It's so nice to be able to vent to people who get it. Yes, she's not my human child, but she was such an important member of my family. I have one human child and two fur kids and I consider us a family of 5, not 3. And now we are 4 and it feels so incomplete.