Five years ago this week my sister was admitted into the hospital, and she never left. This time of year always upsets me, but something about hitting that five year mark really is upsetting me. She lingered for a while and passed on July 27th, and I made the mistake of going to the blog we kept about her so we didn't have to keep returning phone calls. Now I can't stop crying at my desk. She would have loved her nieces so much, and they would have adored her.
Post by notoriousmeg on Jun 19, 2014 10:20:39 GMT -5
I'm so sorry. April was 5 years since my brother passed, and I often think of how much he missed out on - getting married, having kids, meeting my son. I'm also so sad for my son that he will never know his uncle who would have adored him. It just sucks. Hang in there.
We just passed the three year anniversary of when my Dad got sick and went into the hospital. He never came home either. I find myself visiting his CaringBridge page occasionally, which is a guaranteed sobfest for me. I think about him all the time and how much I wish he was here to see my kids grow up.
Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday that he was still here, and sometimes it feels like it's been forever since he passed away. I get so scared that as the years pass, I will keep forgetting details about him and that scares me.
Post by flamingeaux on Jun 19, 2014 10:38:50 GMT -5
I'm so sorry for your loss. And you're not bringing the board down. Good and bad things get shared here all the time. This time it's your turn to bring the heavy stuff. Feel what you need to feel. If your worried about losing your memories of her, perhaps you could start writing things in a journal, that you remember. My dad has started doing a video journal, and will record him and some of his remaining brothers talking about things they did growing and the places they lived. It's been very special to see some of that. It would also be a good way to share her with your girls, when they're older.
Post by amberlyrose on Jun 19, 2014 10:46:02 GMT -5
I'm so sorry Every once in a while, I'll google MIL's name just to find the comments on her online obituary or see if I can find another one of her papers. Sometimes we just need to feel closer to them in any way we possibly can.
Post by runforrest on Jun 19, 2014 10:52:23 GMT -5
I'm so very sorry for your loss.
This past January was 5 years since we lost my dad unexpectedly, and I agree that the 5-year milestone was really hard, especially now that he would have had 6 grandkids to spoil.