Sad today

[mel]

I'm feeling really sad today. I think it's because I am planning on selling my old engagement ring today. Back story: been divorced from my ex for a year and a half. Came off my meds cold turkey last August and started a new relationship. Got engaged in January and was super excited and so was my family. Went back on my meds and realized I was making a mistake after starting wedding planning. Called off engagement in March but kept the ring. Now I'm selling it for money for my upcoming trip to Antigua.

Now I did have feelings for this person but it just wasn't right and rushed but for some reason selling the ring has been kind of hard. I guess it's just one more reminder that I'm alone and wondering who would want me. Who would want someone that's messed up like I am? I'm just feeling very alone today and trying to picture what my future looks like and it's hard. It's hard to even see past today.

[SwimDeep]

It sounds like you've been through a lot in just the last couple of years. I don't know if this will be helpful, but when I can't look forward past today I try to remind myself there are a lot of days I've somehow managed to live through. Even when I can't stop focusing on negatives, ultimately they were all days that eventually ended with me still breathing.

Antigua is a beautiful, incredible place to visit! I loved it When are you going?

[SwimDeep]

You have beaches like this to look forward to

[mel]

I ended up getting $850 for the ring. Not bad at all and will definitely give me spending money. I leave for Antigua on August 3rd so not much longer then I get a break from reality! 17 days.

[cinnamoncox]

I hope you're feeling a bit better. Please be easy with yourself ok. It sounds like you've had a shit time of it the past few years and I think you should try to remind yourself that you've made it through some tough times and you're strong. Stronger than you think or give yourself credit for.
Have fun on your trip. It sounds heavenly.

[btay]

I hope you have fun on the trip, I am still holding on my e - ring becuase I'm not ready to let go yet