Post by sofamonkey on Jul 24, 2014 20:47:26 GMT -5
Aw, I am sorry you are stressed. Typically, the ICU is more patient attentive because they have a lower ratio. But rational info doesn't help irrational (and inevitable) thoughts. Good luck tonight & I hope healing goes well. ((hugs))
Hey, did you ever talk to someone, after DS1 and DS2 were all sortEd out?
I did, for a couple of visits. She was really odd. Told me a story about a patient of hers whose son died about the same time as ds2 was in the hospital. She told me the other lady was lucky, in a way, since her worries about her son were over, but mine were going to last forever since he's still alive. I thought WTF and didn't go back.
Hey, did you ever talk to someone, after DS1 and DS2 were all sortEd out?
I did, for a couple of visits. She was really odd. Told me a story about a patient of hers whose son died about the same time as ds2 was in the hospital. She told me the other lady was lucky, in a way, since her worries about her son were over, but mine were going to last forever since he's still alive. I thought WTF and didn't go back.
Listen, she was clearly a crackpot unworthy of your time. But what would you tell someone else? To try another person? Because living with this isn't good for you OR your boys in the long run? Yeah. Do that.
I had a similar irrational meltdown when DS 2 was in the NICU for a few days and I was absolutely convinced that he had pulled off his little eye shield and was going to go blind from looking at the bili lights. I knew I was being nuts, but the anxiety and panic didn't go away until I was back on the unit with him.
Hope you're feeling a bit better now that you've seen him and that you can get a good night's sleep.
ETA: and definitely ask your doctor for a referral to a new therapist. You know you'd tell anyone here to do just that if they'd been through what you have with your kids. Take care of yourself!
Post by sofamonkey on Jul 24, 2014 21:19:28 GMT -5
I hope this isn't too weird, since I am new & all. But I am thinking of you & I keep hoping (wishing) that a huge bag of M&Ms find their way to you. <3
UGH, Hospital food and snacks are the worst! The only redeeming food at ours is a fruit, yogurt and granola parfait that they sell for breakfast-but they sell out quick.
I hope that your DH can take a break and make a run to get some snacks. Do you have anything light and breezy to read or a game to play while you stay with him tonight? I hope that you can relax, now that you are with DS. I understand how scary it is to leave for rounds and hope that you can pick up some breakfast during them in the morning so you feel productive, at least.
Lots and lots of thoughts and prayers for you, DH and your DS.
I hate the panic of trying to get to your child,no matter their age, being a mom is just a lifelong job. I'm glad he is doing fine and I hope you get some candy!
Post by mrsukyankee on Jul 25, 2014 2:13:27 GMT -5
I wish I lived near you so I could be your therapist. I'm not a crackpot and I would never tell you an idiotic story like that. I'm sorry you had such a bad therapist experience. Look for a good CBT person and find out what their training is (they should have had more than a few weekend courses).
(((hugs))) being a momma is one of the hardest jobs, especially when you have no control over what's happening to your kiddos. But, I know you're one of the best!!
Hey, did you ever talk to someone, after DS1 and DS2 were all sortEd out?
I did, for a couple of visits. She was really odd. Told me a story about a patient of hers whose son died about the same time as ds2 was in the hospital. She told me the other lady was lucky, in a way, since her worries about her son were over, but mine were going to last forever since he's still alive. I thought WTF and didn't go back.
So, condolences on your living son? What a lunatic. I'm sorry about your panicky thing with your sone last night ... I hope he's more and more on the mend by the hour. You, too!