I don't know what I'm looking for, I just need to type it out.
My brother called me this morning just as I was leaving for work. My dad went to give her her pills this morning and she had passed away sometime overnight. She had a number of health issues and had gone to the ER last week, but they discharged her and she had been planning to do daily PT. I last spoke to her on Thursday - we facetimed so she could see dd. She told me dd was her motivation and she was going to do whatever it took to get in a better place so she could see dd grow up.
We we were rebuilding our relationship, which had been really strained for as long as I can remember. She was an amazing grandma and dd was the light of her life. I feel numb and I don't know what to do. I can't process this and I don't want to feel this pain. I don't know what to do.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's ok not to know what to do beyond mourning. Please be kind to yourself right now. Big hugs. Let me know if you need anything.