Struggling with work

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I'm not doing a very good job with my serenity right now.  I'm in the middle of a big project which is due Wednesday at 4:30 p.m.  Heck, at least there is an end date.

Struggling with feeling overwhelmed and maybe I'm not smart enough for this job.  I know others have discussed this recently here.  I'm so anxious every morning at work.  By afternoon, I get in the groove and calm down.  Today my anxiety was over the top.  Sat in my office and had a good cry.  Alone.  Then put on my happy face again. 

This whole anxiety thing has got to be fear, right?  And fear is not trusting God.  And so there you have it. 

Not wanting to drink or anything, but just feeling a lot of emotion right now. 

Thanks for listening.

[lime]

((courtney))

What kind of outlets do you have for your anxiety?

Some stuff that works for me: taking a break to get a glass of water/cup of tea, taking a small walk, getting out of the office for lunch even if I don't eat but just to have some "away" time from the place.

Exercise after work or having plans with friends to meet after work gives me something else to look forward to and focus on.

[malibu]

I understand completely. I'm at the tail end of a project I've been working on for two years, and everything is kind of happening all at once as things are coming to a head.

I forget, do you take ADs/AAs for anxiety?

Can you head out and take a walk every few hours or so to clear your head/calm down a little?

[SwimDeep]

@courtneyloves - I understand too. I talked to my therapist today about all the extra anxiety I've been feeling lately. I have a big project due at work too this week, but at least I don't have a hard deadline on it (just an ASAP deadline).

(((hugs)))
You got this!!!

[malibu]

Lately, I've determined that being an adult sucks.

ETA: for spelling

[mel]

Hugs! I'm sorry that you are dealing with such bad anxiety at the moment. Hopefully when you finish the project it will let up some. My therapist always tells me that there is no anxiety in the present moment. That anxiety comes when we start thinking about the past or the future so she always has me do breathing exercises to focus on the here and now. Maybe that would help? Also exercise seems to help be a physical release for me too. Have you tried a physical outlet for the anxiety?

I hope you start to feel better soon!

[flex]

I've been dealing with an issue at work for almost 18 months. We've finally reached a resolution with the Employer. Thank goodness! But instead of feeling elated, I'm exhausted. It really left a bad taste in my mouth but at least it's over with now for the most part.

I finally let go of the stress about this last December. It was eating me alive from the inside. I finally asked my Higher Power to take over because I was not in control of the situation. After I made the decision to "turn it over" the burden was lifted. Whew!

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Sept 15, 2014 23:16:46 GMT -5 lime said:

((courtney))

What kind of outlets do you have for your anxiety?

Some stuff that works for me: taking a break to get a glass of water/cup of tea, taking a small walk, getting out of the office for lunch even if I don't eat but just to have some "away" time from the place.

Exercise after work or having plans with friends to meet after work gives me something else to look forward to and focus on.

LOL lime. I took your suggestion and started to head out of the office building yesterday for some fresh air.  Fortunately, I checked the door handle, don't know why, and realized the door was locked.  Stepped back inside because I couldn't risk being locked out the rest of the day! 
That is a good idea, though.  Today I'm going to take my building keys to work with me. 

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Sept 16, 2014 11:38:40 GMT -5 malibu said:

I understand completely. I'm at the tail end of a project I've been working on for two years, and everything is kind of happening all at once as things are coming to a head.

I forget, do you take ADs/AAs for anxiety?

Can you head out and take a walk every few hours or so to clear your head/calm down a little?

Yes, I do take ADs, but this stress is situational and way beyond my normal level of stress.  Agree with everyone who suggested exercise and walking.  I need to do more of that. 

I finished the project yesterday, 24 hours ahead of the time it was due.  Unfortunately, like flex said, I wasn't all giddy or anything.  Barely a blip of excitement.  I think my co-workers were happier for me than I was!  Mostly just relief and exhaustion ensued.  Today I can get back to my normal duties. Yay! 

Someone said at an AA meeting the other night -- nothing ever goes away until it's taught you what you need to learn.  Stressing out and anxiety are such useless activities.  Is that what I'm supposed to be learning here? 

Thanks for the support everyone! 

[flex]

Sept 17, 2014 10:21:51 GMT -5 @courtneyloves said:

Sept 16, 2014 11:38:40 GMT -5 malibu said:

I understand completely. I'm at the tail end of a project I've been working on for two years, and everything is kind of happening all at once as things are coming to a head.

I forget, do you take ADs/AAs for anxiety?

Can you head out and take a walk every few hours or so to clear your head/calm down a little?

Yes, I do take ADs, but this stress is situational and way beyond my normal level of stress.  Agree with everyone who suggested exercise and walking.  I need to do more of that. 

I finished the project yesterday, 24 hours ahead of the time it was due.  Unfortunately, like flex said, I wasn't all giddy or anything.  Barely a blip of excitement.  I think my co-workers were happier for me than I was!  Mostly just relief and exhaustion ensued.  Today I can get back to my normal duties. Yay! 

Someone said at an AA meeting the other night -- nothing ever goes away until it's taught you what you need to learn.  Stressing out and anxiety are such useless activities.  Is that what I'm supposed to be learning here? 

Thanks for the support everyone! 

I think what that person was saying that we need to be taught to learn to let go of something that is eating us alive.  

Along those lines, I've heard this in a meeting: "if you keep fighting something, eventually it's going to slap you in the face.  It's best to stop fighting it before the slap comes."  

I think that that it's a natural process to process something by thinking about it over and over until a resolution is made or we just get plain tired of thinking about it.  But us addicts keeping thinking and fussing about it until it drives us nuts.  Ugh.

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Sept 17, 2014 10:34:34 GMT -5 flex said:

Sept 17, 2014 10:21:51 GMT -5 @courtneyloves said:

Yes, I do take ADs, but this stress is situational and way beyond my normal level of stress.  Agree with everyone who suggested exercise and walking.  I need to do more of that. 

I finished the project yesterday, 24 hours ahead of the time it was due.  Unfortunately, like flex said, I wasn't all giddy or anything.  Barely a blip of excitement.  I think my co-workers were happier for me than I was!  Mostly just relief and exhaustion ensued.  Today I can get back to my normal duties. Yay! 

Someone said at an AA meeting the other night -- nothing ever goes away until it's taught you what you need to learn.  Stressing out and anxiety are such useless activities.  Is that what I'm supposed to be learning here? 

Thanks for the support everyone! 

I think what that person was saying that we need to be taught to learn to let go of something that is eating us alive.  

Along those lines, I've heard this in a meeting: "if you keep fighting something, eventually it's going to slap you in the face.  It's best to stop fighting it before the slap comes."  

I think that that it's a natural process to process something by thinking about it over and over until a resolution is made or we just get plain tired of thinking about it.  But us addicts keeping thinking and fussing about it until it drives us nuts.  Ugh.

Indeed!  My H always says "why can't you just accept things?"  It does all get down to not fighting things and accepting things as they are. 

[felicia]

Agree with mel - my therapist has said the same thing about focusing on the present, not the past or the future.

I'm horrible at it, which is why one of the myriad reasons I'm in therapy, but it really is the truth.

I hope things start getting better now that you're done with that project.

[Deleted]

Appreciate your words, felicia. Living in the present takes almost a conscious effort for me, how about you? It's way too easy for me to worry about the future. One thing my sponsor tells me is this -- be where your hands are. That's kind of a cool way of thinking about being in the present.

[felicia]

I think that's why it's so important to try to live in the present, because it DOES take a conscious effort to do so. It requires you to completely focus on it and not let your mind drift to "well I used to..." or "maybe in a year...". It's incredibly tough.