(((()))) Step 1 is to find an Al Anon meeting near you and go. I know it sounds cliche but it is the best thing I ever did for myself when I was dealing with an alcoholic spouse. Also do your best not to engage when he is drunk. No good comes of an arguement with a drunk alcoholic. If you need to discuss things with him, try and catch him before he has had anything. It's tricky but trust me, it will make for a much calmer household. Third, I would start looking into an alternative situation for childcare. Easier said than done but you need to make sure your children are safe, and if he is blocking out entire conversations then he is not someone who should be responsible for anyone but himself right now. Take a lot of deep breaths and above all make sure you are taking care of yourself. We are here if you ever need anything. PM me any time