Can I give an update?

[hubes]

I'm really proud of myself. For the past week (and especially yesterday) instead of getting all stressed out/crazy/bitter/drama-filled, I've been able to step back, relax and just do things. You know, like an adult (even FIL has commented on my mature decision-making the past few days).

I have definitely decided that I am absolutely done with job number two in early January. I'm planning to alert my boss on Thursday, so he is aware. I'm powering through the next couple weeks, and hopefully it will be easy sailing until January.

As far as my primary job, I'm still in the decision-making process. I really loved working with the kids and the families last week. I was mostly independent and it was fantastic. I got a lot of compliments and thank yous, which was nice. I appreciated hearing it, and I'll miss the kids so much. Actually, were it not for the soul-sucking office, this would be one of my dream jobs.

I don't think I can deal with the office climate much longer though. It's not hostile or anything, but I can't deal with not knowing what is expected of me until I have failed to do it correctly. Half the time, I feel like I'm here to just check things off the list, the other half of the time, I'm given free reign to fail (and I always fail, trust me).

Another thing that I am proud of, is that there was a situation where I was blamed for something that was not my fault, at all. (My supervisor said she would do work on advertising, and didn't do it, even when I checked with her twice to make sure she was going to take care of it. When the event failed, suddenly it was my fault that I didn't advertise the event). Something like that would have punched me in the stomach and still had me worked up. I calmly corrected the person who told me that I had messed up, relayed the event to my husband, and did not let it get me down.

I'm not expecting accolades, but I just felt like sharing.

[speckledfrog]

Hoobs that sounds like a wonderful update. I'm glad to hear you are feeling better about things. I'm sorry your office is sucking so much ass. I had a job like that once and it's truly awful. Keep up the good work!

[wrathofkuus]

If I knew how to do that thumbs-up emoticon, I would.

[cheesierthanchedda]

Nice! Keep up the positive thinking. It definitely helps.

[montereybride]

Jul 31, 2012 14:36:04 GMT -5 wrathofkuus said:

If I knew how to do that thumbs-up emoticon, I would.

:Y: That one's from kuus

:Y: This one's from me

[speckledfrog]

Jul 31, 2012 14:36:04 GMT -5 wrathofkuus said:

If I knew how to do that thumbs-up emoticon, I would.

colon uppercase Y colon = :Y:

[ering1115]

I haven;t been following for too long but, AWESOME! It takes a lot to know when to say no at work and how to stand up for yourself.

Good luck the next few weeks.

[kellbell191]

Good job! I'm glad things are getting better for you

[iamgrace]

[flex]

Good for you!!! Good for you for taking action and not sitting back to stew in your own juices. Keep up the good work, hoobster!

[hubes]

Jul 31, 2012 14:44:57 GMT -5 @gracie6414 said:

Hoobs I think this is great, positive work. !

I couldn't handle a work environment like your office environment. I mean, hell, I was the kid accusing my sister of purposely holding back part of the instructions and rules to monopoly JUST to ensure I'd always lose. LOL. I like to know exactly what is required to a task correctly, so that I can ensure I do it correctly, and make it better if I can.

I get you. And I'm glad you aren't letting the negative eat away at you. This is a great step!

The first year was great, I got my assingments and was pretty much clueless the entire time.

Now, I have no idea. I feel like the game keeps getting changed on me.

I can operate if I know what the expected outcome is, I can operate if I'm given free reign (with the expectation that I will succeed, not fail) and I can even operate under a checklist system (even though the little rainbow pooping puppy in my heart dies a little bit each day). I cannot operate when I don't know the rules.

I don't know why the rules keep getting changed. That bothers me too.

[cbwm1]

This is great progress!! I'm proud of you.