Yes. I feel all sad and depressed and it sucks leaving family even though I know I'll see them soon for the next holiday. Something about being at my childhood home--it's always hard to leave and come back to my "adult" home where im in charge of everything and my H is at work a lot. In my case a few gigantic cookies and some of my few remaining summer shandys helped make me feel better last night
Post by ellipses84 on Nov 30, 2014 12:44:30 GMT -5
I need a holiday from my holiday, lol. We had a lot of fun, and it's my own doing that I did not get to sleep in on any of the days. DS has been waking up early, we got up early to go to a parade and black Friday shopping and babysat overnight for friend's whose kids wake up earlier than mine. I'd also been working 60-80 hour weeks for the 3 weeks leading up to this, so I think I'm just exhausted.
I have been eating and drinking WAY too much. WAY WAY too much. I had friends over last night and was aghast at the number of empty bottles in my trash this morning. I feel disgusting and in need of a good cleansing workout.
I really miss my family. They are AMAZING, and I’m very close with my parents and sister, so leaving there after our Thanksgiving visit has me feeling very homesick. I looked forward to that visit so much, the anticipation kept me going through 4 miserable weeks at work. Now, I’m returning to miserable weeks at work and have no trip home as my carrot. Sigh.
I sometimes dwell on why I ever left home. (I went out of state for college and then to a third state to find a job. Met my H here and we stayed here. This is his home, anyway.) I keep reminding myself, I wouldn’t have E if it weren’t for this. Sure, I’d probably have met someone and married and probably had a baby, but not E. And E is my everything. And my H is pretty awesome, too. haha I should mention I wouldn’t want to trade him!
Y'all. We are driving to see friends an hour away and I just remembered that last night I spilled bourbon on the jeans I'm wearing. I'm sitting in the car wondering why I faintly smell alcohol when the memory suddenly hit me.
I have discussed this here before but I also have an unhealthy habit of comparing / jealousy. I am working on it but this time of the year brings out the worst in terms of me being convinced everyone else has more friends, perfect families, overall better life. And I know it is so stupid to get like this!
I get like this too. Like, I'm 34 why am I not living in a giant house decorated from Pottery Barn yet? (Though watching friends of ours move into a giant custom build decorated from Pottery Barn and knowing they are walking a financial tightrope helps a little.)
Post by yellowbrkrd on Nov 30, 2014 13:47:43 GMT -5
Yes. I am sick, the house is a wreck, and M is cranky. I am dreading going back to work tomorrow because we have a TON of things going on in the next month or two and I have NO motivation. I feel like a failure. I wish I could SAH and hang with my kid so we can bake and do crafts, even though I know it would never work out as nicely as I dream.
Y'all. We are driving to see friends an hour away and I just remembered that last night I spilled bourbon on the jeans I'm wearing. I'm sitting in the car wondering why I faintly smell alcohol when the memory suddenly hit me.
I am a mess.
At least it's not poop?
Because...uh...I imagine that could possibly happen...
I over-did it physically the last few days. Tday prep, actual Tday, Christmas decorating + brunch for my parents, then errands AND mattress shopping yesterday. Now I feel really tired and having BH contractions. Blah.
I also think by about the 3rd week of Dec I'm going to end up channeling Lois from Family Guy.
Lois: You all think Christmas just happens? You think all this goodwill just falls from the freakin' sky? Well, it doesn't! It falls out of my holly jolly butt! So, you can cook your own damn turkey, wrap your own damn presents! And while you're at it, you can all ride a one-horse open sleigh to hell!
Yes. I feel all sad and depressed and it sucks leaving family even though I know I'll see them soon for the next holiday. Something about being at my childhood home--it's always hard to leave and come back to my "adult" home where im in charge of everything and my H is at work a lot. In my case a few gigantic cookies and some of my few remaining summer shandys helped make me feel better last night
Twin! H is working crazy hours and I'm wishing I had stayed at my parents'. :/ They fawn over G, are awesome grandparents, and spoil me. It sucks to be back on my own. Blah. I am staying longer than H is for Christmas, though.
I have discussed this here before but I also have an unhealthy habit of comparing / jealousy. I am working on it but this time of the year brings out the worst in terms of me being convinced everyone else has more friends, perfect families, overall better life. And I know it is so stupid to get like this!
I tend to get really jealous. What I started doing that helps... If I want to be jealous of something, then I stop myself and think about their whole life. Sure, they are really skinny. But their husband sucks and their kids are awful. Or if someone goes on a fabulous vacation, but I know that they are drowning in debt and she's having an affair because she hates her husband. Or whatever. So this has helped me to be less jealous overall. Because I don't let myself be jealous of the small things unless I would want their whole life. And honestly, so far I haven't found anyone that I am jealous of their whole life! It helps me appreciate what I have.
I'm feeling blah both emotionally and physically for so many reasons. On top of that, I feel guilty that I'm not peppier since this will be DD's first Christmas, but at least she won't remember. I am really hoping that 2015 will be better to us than 2014 was.
I have discussed this here before but I also have an unhealthy habit of comparing / jealousy. I am working on it but this time of the year brings out the worst in terms of me being convinced everyone else has more friends, perfect families, overall better life. And I know it is so stupid to get like this!
Totally normal to do, but it is SO unhealthy. I get it, because I do it too.
Not right now, but I will in January. DH was off all of last week and that definitely messed with our routine. I'm glad he's heading back to work tomorrow.
@starry remember that alcohol is a depressant. I usually drink and eat way too much this time of year too, and can really tell a difference if I cut back on the booze for a few nights. Exercise is good.
And, just think, only 22 more long nights, then the days start getting longer!
I have discussed this here before but I also have an unhealthy habit of comparing / jealousy. I am working on it but this time of the year brings out the worst in terms of me being convinced everyone else has more friends, perfect families, overall better life. And I know it is so stupid to get like this!
I get like this too. Like, I'm 34 why am I not living in a giant house decorated from Pottery Barn yet? (Though watching friends of ours move into a giant custom build decorated from Pottery Barn and knowing they are awalking a financial tightrope helps a little.)
I do this too and I'm 40!!!! How pathetic is that? As a fact, most of our friends DO have nicer homes and I do get down about it. Though I don't want to work more hours or change our plans to pay off our house sooner. And I have good days and bad days--good days, I am all zen about how I wouldn't trade my life for anyone else's and I feel content and happy. Bad days I wonder why most of our rooms need painting, trees need to be cut down, rooms need to be remodeled, etc. etc. And my weight--don't get me started. I have needed to lose ten pounds for over a year...