For those who were following my story a little...

[winston]

IVF#3* is officially a giant failure. We're knocking back the beer and hanging tight until we figure out the next plan. We have some frozen embryos to get through, though we don't have much faith in them at this point. We've brought home 10% of the embryos we put in my uterus. We've lost 80% of the embryos that became babies. After ridiculous amounts of testing, the official diagnosis is 'bad luck'. Hurrah.

*History in Cliff's Notes:
IVF#1 = twins, one surviving (healthy toddler!), one miscarried
FET#1 = miscarriage
FET#2 = BFN
IVF #2 = twins, one M/C at six weeks, one terminated at 14.5 weeks due to triploidy (100% fatal - 69 chromosomes instead of 46)

[Mrs.Beagle]

I am so sorry.

[gretchenindisguise]

I'm so sorry. I don't know how I'd deal with all of that frustration.

Have another beer.

[anlo]

Big hugs. I wish you the best going forward with whatever you decide to do.

[imoan]

I'm so sorry you have to go through this.

[sneetch]

I am so sorry.

[alzi]

i am so sorry to hear this:( thinking of you...

[eatsrainbows]

I am so sorry, that sounds like a lot of heart break. Hang in there and treat yourself well.

[Deleted]

I am so sorry.

[mkesweetie]

Oh, God, I'm so sorry.

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry. That sounds really emotionally taxing.

[Kit]

I'm so very sorry.

[winston]

Thanks so much, ladies. It's definitely been a rough go. We know we've been exceptionally lucky in the IF world, to even have one kiddo from all of that.

Still. It's hard, and we can't shake the feeling that our family just isn't complete yet. She was never supposed to be an only child, and that missing person is almost tangible.

I'm starting to get nervous about how this will play out. I know that we're probably down to our last couple chances, and that idea just makes me feel so sick.

Rex, I'm to head in on CD2 to start planning. It'll be complicated if we try to go ahead this month, because my RE will be on vacation for the last half of the month. If I have cysts from last cycle I'll likely need to be on BCP for a month or two. So of course I'll have cysts.

[Jalapeñomel]

I'm so sorry. I have not experienced IF in such extent, but I can imagine how painful it must be.

[eddy]

I am sorry. Enjoy your beer.

[BravoBravo]

({) winston (})

[karmasabiotch]

I'm so sorry. IF sucks.

[mudslide]

I'm sorry.

[mudslide]

I'm going for margaritas tonight. I'll have one for you.

[kdmac]

I`m so sorry

[blueshirt2003]

I am so sorry. **hugs**

[Deleted]

I'm sorry

[iamgrace]

I'm sorry.

[underwaterrhymes]

I'm so sorry.

[peachykate]

I'm sorry, winston.