I'm feeling better today.

[malibu]

Today, I quit smoking. I feel really good about it. I expected to be a total crabass and I'm not. I'm in a really good mood. This might finally be it.

Also, I took the advice in my other Debbie downer thread, and I contact Overeaters Anonymous. (I buried this in the flamefuls on ML as well.) I shouldn't be, but I'm very embarrassed about it. They haven't responded yet, but I took that step. I have a very unhealthy relationship with food, and it's been too many years now that I know I can't handle it myself. I've tried, and I fail every time. So, between that and therapy, I hope to finally overcome my food problems. Curious if anyone has any experience with OA?

Also buried in the flamefuls - we have like, zero dollars to spend on anything frivolous, but I bought myself a Fitbit Flex on my Amazon credit card. It came today, I had it delivered to my work because I was so excited. It's on, synced, and doing whatever it does. I am quite interested to see what it says about my sleep stats. I don't feel like I sleep well and that I wake up a lot. Will be interesting to pop open the app tomorrow and see what it tells me.

[flex]

Oh I'm so proud of you! Be gentle with yourself over smoking AND possibly working with OA. It's a lot to handle all at once and I don't want you to be too hard on yourself. Does that make sense?

At any rate, GOOD FOR YOU for taking positive steps instead of merely thinking about them. I believe this is the first day of the rest of your life. : )

[malibu]

I hope so, flex. Oh, and H got a call about a job finally. Crossing my eyes, fingers, and toes it turns into something with an income!

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I'm sitting here smiling! That's a great update.

[btay]

So happy to read this update! Go team!

[lexxasaurus]

It took a lot of tries for me to 100% quit smoking and I've struggled with food for over half my life. I completely understand how hard those can be to handle and you're tackling them both! I'm so happy to hear that you're really taking care of yourself, and I wish you the best! It's nice to hear you feeling so positive.