I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop

[alzi]

I don't know what my problem is. I have not let myself be excited about being pregnant. I almost expect something to go wrong. I wasn't overjoyed at my first ultrasound. I was genuinely surprised to see the hb.

I am dreading waiting until the 27th for the next one bc I am so afraid they will discover something wrong.

I go to the bathroom a million times a day expecting bleeding.

I don't know to snap out of this. I hate being such a mess.

[cleo29]

Dude, rent a doppler. Best money I ever spent. I got mine through babybeats.com After two miscarriages, I needed to be able to check on the baby myself and it did bring peace of mind.

hang in there, I know it's scary. ::big bear hugs::

[ElizabethBennet]

I was the same way. I went to the bathroom all.the.time convinced I would find blood. I don't have any advice because my anxiety was pretty bad throughout my pregnancy though it did lessen a lot when I started to feel her move. I don't think you're reaction is all that uncommon, hopefully it will lessen for you soon ((hugs))

[saraandmichael]

its difficult in the beginning. just try your best to relax and remind yourself how great it is to do things whenever you want to and sleep and rest and be lazy.

[snorky]

I feel like this is totally normal and it does get better. Once you start showing and especially once the baby starts moving, you'll find something completely different to worry about obsessively!

[peekay]

I second the Doppler, we loved the reassurance. Sorry you are feeling this way, I felt the same way. I actually found the third tri nerve wracking as well because it was getting so close. It wasn't until I was pushing that I said to H "omg we're having a baby!". Hang in there!

[cleo29]

Aug 10, 2012 19:47:44 GMT -5 peekay said:

I second the Doppler, we loved the reassurance. Sorry you are feeling this way, I felt the same way. I actually found the third tri nerve wracking as well because it was getting so close. It wasn't until I was pushing that I said to H "omg we're having a baby!". Hang in there!

Yes, because then you start realizing that the baby will have come out. lol I remembering panicking at the thought of labor.

[melindafelinda]

Everyone I talk to tells me they felt the same way. Even my super hippie sister who is totally relaxed about everything. I hope you start feeling more secure soon!

[speckledfrog]

I felt the same way. The only time I wasn't worried was from about weeks 21-25. Other than that I always had some level of "this is just too good to be true."

[snorky]

Oh, and I got those wandfo or whatever tests and used them through my second trimester just to make sure I was still pregnant and the helped to assuage some of my anxiety. They were going to expire before we tried for the next baby anyway, so I figured why not?

[alzi]

Aug 10, 2012 19:52:11 GMT -5 snorky said:

Oh, and I got those wandfo or whatever tests and used them through my second trimester just to make sure I was still pregnant and the helped to assuage some of my anxiety. They were going to expire before we tried for the next baby anyway, so I figured why not?

I thought after a certain time you have too much hcg to turn the test?

Also, with a missed miscarriage your body still acts pregnant. Yes, I think about these things. I'm that crazy.

[Deleted]

i was also a basketcase. interspersed with really giddy and then also terrified.


if it REALLY continues and you're just not able to relax or enjoy yourself without any identifiable cause (like lots of spotting), talk to your OB. i have a friend who had prepartum depression, which is not something i think a lot of people think about. she was able to get help and enjoy a good portion of her pregnancy.

[speckledfrog]

It's not crazy. It's completely normal.

[alzi]

Thanks guys. It's nice to hear that I'm not insane.

[janiejones]

Don't feel bad about it, it is what it is.
I still feel that way. I was in a haze of excitement the first 3 weeks, then it was all despair and fear. My cold heart melted a little Tuesday seeing the baby move on the U/S, but I'm frightened things aren't going to work out.
(hugs)

[emsumm]

Yup, same way. I constantly was convinced that they were going to find only one baby at each ultrasound, and I counted the minutes until the next one.
I really did start feeling better after about 20 weeks, though. Once you can feel the baby, you can reassure yourself that everything is fine. That is really comforting.

[daisyheadmaizie]

Very normal. Once the baby starts moving I feel a lot more confident, and it gets easier to start feeling like the baby is real.

Also, I think that being on here and the Bump, etc gives us so much more information on miscarriages, infertility, and so on that you are just more aware of what could happen and that sometimes heightens anxiety.

[alzi]

Aug 10, 2012 20:02:04 GMT -5 daisyheadmaizie said:

Very normal. Once the baby starts moving I feel a lot more confident, and it gets easier to start feeling like the baby is real.

Also, I think that being on here and the Bump, etc gives us so much more information on miscarriages, infertility, and so on that you are just more aware of what could happen and that sometimes heightens anxiety.

I soooo agree with this. Not that it would be better to be naive about this stuff, but it might be nice.

[peachykate]

Totes normal. Up until the day of my c section I was worried about seeing blood when I wiped.

I decided against getting a doppler because even the doctor couldn't always find it at first and I was worried that if I got one and couldn't find the hb I would freak myself out. I also agree with cville, I did have prepartum depression and I wish I hadn't let it go for so long before going back to therapy. I think there is a fine line between regular worrying and not being able to enjoy the pregnancy at all.

[alzi]

Aug 10, 2012 20:23:04 GMT -5 tators said:

Alzi- I think were almost exactly as far along as each other. I have spotted twice and I still freak. However, I think I saw you on the bump.. maybe march board. Get off there. All it does is make people worry!

ugh I know I hate that place. I don't know why I bother.