This is in no way flameful. I went through the same thing and had so many freak outs over if my relationship with my now H was normal. I think questioning yourself and going over any red flags and just being more mindful of how your relationship is progressing means that you've learned from your mistakes and your parent's mistakes. I hope that makes sense.
Yeah it does make sense. Sometimes when I think about it I just feel so... broken. Like I have no idea what I *should* be thinking and feeling in this situation because I'm so used to just reacting to an abusive scenario and trying to cope.
But now there's this guy who doesn't humiliate or berate me, who does nice things for me, loves me, and even knowing all my shitty past STILL wants to marry me? WHAT DO I DO WITH THAT??
You're not broken - you're just right! I'm sure everyone at some point isn't sure how they should feel or what they should be doing, but it sounds like he loves a lot and will have a great marriage.
Everywhere I go someone is telling me about their effing stomach bug. My DCP told me all about it on Monday. My admin assistant came into work (!!!!!!) even though she was sick. I sent her home. Jack got sick last night and H has felt off.
I. Legit can't go anywhere that is not germy right now and if one more person tells me about what is coming out of their butt I will have a full on anxiety attack.
Also, it goes without saying I can't afford to get sick myself so this is really awesome.
I loathe the OP of 2u2 because she annoyed the snot out of me on TTTC.
I also think it's childish and gross that a grown ass adult woman thinks she needs to thank someone by means of sex. Sometimes it just irks me that women think that the only way they can say thank you or accept something, is if they use sex. How about "thank you" or "thanks so much, I will pay you back when I get paid" Just because you have a vagina doesn't mean you let it do all my thanking. I think it is more the use of "properly" as though verbally isn't good enough.
Also, I don't know that I want kids anymore. I kind of really like my life right now and I love my dog and I just don't know that I want kids. At all.
My Grandpa had a big family birthday party at a nice restaurant on Saturday. Since I cut them out in December, I didn't go. My grandma can be such a cruel, mean, and manipulative person. I kind of wish she would pass away before grandpa so I can have a few years of a meaningful relationship with him. My sister called me everything in the book, as well as calling me selfish. She's so mentally unwell, but it still hurt. I'm angry at the other family that went because they didn't do anything to prevent her from driving home while drunk and stoned. I really hate dealing with family asshattery.
@laz, your new avitar is throwing me off. You look great! It looks like you got a haircut.
It is totes perfect365'd!
The hair was just up. But whenever I wear my hair like this and a pic is taken people always ask if I cut my hair and give me tons of compliments. Maybe I should cut my hair??
I want to throw this fax machine across the room. WHY IS IT SO DAMN SLOW.
Because it's a fax machine. HTH!
I paid one of my bills this weekend and the incorrect amount was deducted from my checking account. Allegedly to get my money back faster than 8 days I have to prove the payment was deducted from my account. This is the biggest bunch of BS.
The hair was just up. But whenever I wear my hair like this and a pic is taken people always ask if I cut my hair and give me tons of compliments. Maybe I should cut my hair??
Everywhere I go someone is telling me about their effing stomach bug. My DCP told me all about it on Monday. My admin assistant came into work (!!!!!!) even though she was sick. I sent her home. Jack got sick last night and H has felt off.
I. Legit can't go anywhere that is not germy right now and if one more person tells me about what is coming out of their butt I will have a full on anxiety attack.
Also, it goes without saying I can't afford to get sick myself so this is really awesome.
I hate being paranoid over this.
I hate when people feel the need to story tell about this shit.
No. Stop. It's unpleasant to hear about and I'd rather just be unpleasantly surprised if I get it. Dreading it is worse than blissful ignorance.
Confession: I'm in a cycle of being tired of my single status. And I feel like I'm not trying hard enough, but when I was trying hard with online dating, it affected my self esteem and wound up feeling crappy about the whole process. What am I doing wrong? ::sigh::
"Why would you ruin perfectly good peanuts by adding candy corn? That's like saying hey, I have these awesome nachos, guess I better add some dryer lint." - Nonny
I went to my gym today and talked to one of my coaches. She really talked me down. She and I are pretty similar and she didn't love the baby stage either.
MIL just took the baby and dog for a walk and I'm going to go sleep. Hooray!
Post by margotmacomber on Apr 28, 2015 14:05:23 GMT -5
I want to go back to my old job instead of WFH mostly because I feel like sitting all day is making me put back on all of the weight I lost when I was supervising a used clothing store and doing manual labor all day.
I was on GotP the same time as Onodata and I thought I was the only one who found her tiresome but apparently not. I remember she was posting incessantly about inane concerns and getting all kinds of responses but then over time the number of responses to her drama began to dwindle. Then one day she posted about how she was freaked because one of her students had a cold and she was worried about being sick while pregnant. Not one single person responded (because duh? Are you going to be pregnant in a bubble?) and then she didn't post again for like, 3 weeks.
I went to my gym today and talked to one of my coaches. She really talked me down. She and I are pretty similar and she didn't love the baby stage either.
MIL just took the baby and dog for a walk and I'm going to go sleep. Hooray!
I just want to hug you, f'real. I can't promise you won't have wistful moments of spontaneous outings, but it gets so. much. better. You can do this! And sleep helps SO much.
Post by fangoriagurkel on Apr 28, 2015 14:19:59 GMT -5
TrickyBob (and others) Thanking by sex isn't a tit for tat thing. I could substitute making a meal or an equally nice gesture but I just bought new breasts a couple weeks ago so I am all about the sex right now.
Post by captainobvious on Apr 28, 2015 14:23:55 GMT -5
Ladies days? Let's just be grown ups and call it our period.
An employee just emailed me from whatever account is linked from their iphone. It says "Fatso" in the name section. So my email now has a list of names - John Smith, Fatso, Jane Doe, etc. This is making me laugh more than it should.