What does "manic" feel like?

[SwimDeep]

I know I haven't been here in a long time, but there really isn't a better place on GBCN to ask this question.
(Important info: Yesterday and today I have been very careful to take all my Rxs as prescribed, so I'm actually feeling much better now.)

What does a manic episode feel like to you? How often does it happen? I need to know if it's different for different people because I'm trying to figure out if I might be bipolar.

I think I had a manic episode this past Sunday. I was very energetic throughout the day - I can't even remember all the things I managed to do. I was happy, peppy... and then when it got towards dinnertime I got so angry. Out of nowhere I started fighting with my H about whether or not people should have a right to free Internet access. And then I just started going off and saying awful, hateful things. I couldn't stop It was the first time in almost a year that I've intentionally hurt myself.

Monday morning I woke up feeling hungover - headache, mopey, low energy...I got out of bed long enough to try to apologize to H before he left for work, and then I went straight back to bed until almost noon. When I got up, I realized I hadn't take Sunday's medication.

Would missing one day of medication cause something like this to happen? I feel like I had been doing so well to stay balanced and healthy...and in one evening I nearly tore everything apart.

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I don't know much about bipolar, but just want to give you a hug!

[SwimDeep]

May 5, 2015 16:10:43 GMT -5 @courtneyloves said:

I don't know much about bipolar, but just want to give you a hug!

Thank you

I told my MIL about what happened, and she said I should recognize how important the medication is to my mental health and I need to be much more careful about making sure I take it. She even offered me a daily pill sorter. I already have a sorter, though...that's the only way I could have known I missed the dose.

I just hate that I hurt my H while I was in that state. And it feels like an excuse to say "sorry, I forgot my meds"

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I hate when I hurt my H, too. That interim between a fight and "normal" is the worst!  There must be a better word, but yucky seems just right.

Since you are feeling better, just give it some more time. You apologized right away. Maybe the outburst was just due to missing medication. Be diligent about taking your meds and see if it happens again. I know if I miss my AD's, I really notice it.  Some people in AA don't believe in/support taking AD's, but I am grateful these meds exist.  Before medications, the treatment for bipolar, depression, etc was not pleasant. 

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