Sunday randoms

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May 31, 2015 20:55:48 GMT -5 @pdx18 said:

May 31, 2015 20:34:41 GMT -5 @blueyes623 said:

@pdx18, sorry he never responded.  That was shitty and it makes me mad for you.  Dating for 2 months deserves some sort of closure. Even if he bailed on you and texted you that he didn't feel it was working..it would have been better than ghosting.  (not that it's right), but people ghosting after one date--ehh.  But this?  Baffles me.  It's not you, it's him.  He's a dickface. 

Yea I totally agree. I actually would be totally fine with a text message break up. I guess he does t want his things back. The whole thing just makes you feel pretty worthless. Like I'm not even deserving of a text? I've pretty much bounced back now, but I don't think I will date again for a very long time.

 Sweet pdx, you are worth sooooo much more.  Dont give up on dating. Take a break if you need it though.  

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May 31, 2015 21:16:21 GMT -5 @blueyes623 said:

May 31, 2015 20:55:48 GMT -5 @pdx18 said:

Yea I totally agree. I actually would be totally fine with a text message break up. I guess he does t want his things back. The whole thing just makes you feel pretty worthless. Like I'm not even deserving of a text? I've pretty much bounced back now, but I don't think I will date again for a very long time.

 Sweet pdx, you are worth sooooo much more.  Dont give up on dating. Take a break if you need it though.  

You know though it's been five years. I already had major trust issues. And I let myself trust him. I just don't know that I will ever get to the point where I will actually be able to believe someone won't just up and leave me (I know this is ridiculous) but it's how I feel. And you know when I was dating him I'm not sure I was any happier in life than when I was single. But now I have to be sad and rejected in such a terrible way. Net net I'm not sure if dating is with it for me.

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Unrelated to his assholishness
@pdx18, saying that you have trust issues...were you really able to let your guard down and trust him? Or any guy? The reason I ask is because I had trust issues too thanks to my xh.  Many of us probably did/do. It took me a while to really be able to trust someone. And for a guy to "prove" that they are trust worthy.
And if you did actually trust him, I totally understand why you feel disheartened by the whole thing. 
I don't know where I'm going with this. Or really have any advice except for really being comfortable with yourself and maybe counseling (which I think you've done/are doing).  You just seem like a great person that's been dealt some shitty cards in dating.  
And about not feeling happier dating him than being single--well he was not the right guy. Dating is hard and I feel like until I was in a really settled relationship with a good guy, I always had doubts and felt like a guy would just pick up and leave for someone else. For a while, I did feel like something was "wrong" with me.  Maybe I was too heavy, maybe I wasn't pretty enough or fun enough.  But I just was finding the wrong guys. Am I with the right guy now?  It sure seems like it and I sure hope so, but I still think love is a gamble. 
Sorry for the long ass ramble. 

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Thanks @blueyes623. I've just never had a really satisfying relationship. It's sort of like I don't know what I'm missing, so why go through all the heartbreak you know? I mean I would say I trusted this guy as much as you could in two months (hahah). I was really giving it my all. I totally agree he clearly wasn't the right guy. But it's the way it ended that sucks. I think that's the issue for me. Not the these things end, just that they keep ending in such a mean way you know? I'm sure I'll get over it but for now I'm just not ready to risk it.

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@pdx18, you're such a great person. I'm mad at that douche for allowing you to trust him and then bailing. You are so beyond worth amazing things. Sometimes the world is just shitty. And it just sucks because it seems to always happen to good people.

Ps. I love your new hair!

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You girls are too nice! My new job will have me attending a ton of social events and the like so hopefully that will expose me to meeting more people in real life. I would be open to dating someone if I stumbled upon it. I just don't feel like being intentional about it.