Someone talk me down...

[brandienee]

I dropped DH off at the airport for his deployment today. I was doing so good there. Just a few tears and a nice goodbye, it wasn't a huge emotional thing.

Now that I am home... I am a huge mess. I just keep thinking how he was here less than 12 hours ago and now he wont be home for 7-8ish months. I want to puke. My BGP's have run off somewhere and I can't get out of this pity party.

It doesn't help that he hasn't really been home much this year. Coming and going with his normal deployments, going to Boston for School, and the TDY's for this short tour deployment. I am just tired of saying "Hello/Goodbye" all the time, at least have him home for more than a few weeks before he goes somewhere again. Ugh. This sucks hard.

Thanks for getting through this...

Have a glass.

[basilosaurus]

I think you're allowed to give yourself a bit of time to have a pity party, eat bad food, drink too much wine. If you're still moaning after a few days, then you need to hunt for the BGPs, but immediately departure is the best time to excuse bad habits

[baconlettucetomato]

Aug 15, 2012 19:39:39 GMT -5 basilosaurus said:

I think you're allowed to give yourself a bit of time to have a pity party, eat bad food, drink too much wine. If you're still moaning after a few days, then you need to hunt for the BGPs, but immediately departure is the best time to excuse bad habits

Ditto this. *hugs*

You know where to get a hold of me if you wanna chat.

[brandienee]

Thanks ladies. His previous deployments/TDY's weren't this hard for me. If this lasts through the weekend, I am calling Military One Source.

I wish I could eat a bunch of junk food, but when I get like this I can't tolerate eating. Stress messes with my stomach.

[letsbeawkward]

I am sorry Brandi. It really does suck, don't feel guilty for feeling that way. You don't have to bust out your bgps just yet. Give yourself some time to be sad and adjust to what life will be like for the coming months. It will get better.

[prettyinpink]

Hug hugs hugs. Its okay to be sad, give yourself a few days.

And you know how to reach me if you want to talk.

[pennylane]

Its okay to be a mess for a couple days. But you're tough, and you'll get through this.

When H left last year, I spent a couple days doing things that are my comfort go to's: comfort food, books, movies. I watched a couple seasons of Gilmore Girls, started a new book and made my favorite food. And then it was back to business.

[bigmamma]

GET DOWN RIGHT NOW!!!! (okay... going back to read OP)

[bigmamma]

Girl! We all have our moments when they leave. I pout like a child for at least 3 days. I don't do dishes, I am grumpy, I stay in my PJs... and the kids look at me like I'm crazy when I tell them THEY need a bath :-)

You'll be alright. Your BGPs are in the laundry basket. Throw in a load of wash, grab some suspenders... a glass of wine and a straw. When you are done sucking up your wine you'll be ready to embrace the suck for a few months!

YOU CAN Doooooooo EEEEEET!

[bettydraper]

Ditto everything pp's said. Big hugs, you've got us sister!

[iluvmytxrgr]

I'm sorry, girlie. I know it sucks. It's ok to have a pity party for a bit. I do every time. Cheap wine, chocolate and poptarts are my go to for a couple days. Last time, the 5 year old came in after 7 pm to ask if I forgot to feed them all. That was a bit oh shit moment.
Pull your self up by your pj strings in a few days and get back to living life. It's the only way to make the time go by faster. You know where to find us when you need a shoulder to cry on or a boot to the butt. <<hugs>>

[iluvrice26]

Biiiiiiiiiiig hugs!!!! I hope that helps a little!

[brandienee]

Thanks ladies. I am doing a little better after a glass of wine and some dinner.

I went through a similar breakdown a couple of weeks ago that lasted for days. I couldn't eat or sleep, I lost 5 pounds... it was bad. Thank the Lord for my awesome ILs who were able to snap me out of it. It made me learn that I don't ask for help often enough and I can't do everything by myself, so you may see me hanging out here more.

I am seriously thinking about going back to counseling. At this point, it can't hurt.

[kcd0531]

{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} Enjoy that wine; as everyone else has already hit the nail on the proverbial head I'll just leave that be.

If you feel like going back to counseling is something that will help you go for it. You do what is right for you.

[honeybadger]

I don't have anything new to add that everyone else hasn't already said. I just wanted to say that I feel ya and hope you can get back to "normal" (whatever the eff that is, anyway) soon!Hugs.

[JakJak]

I just wanted to say hang in there and ((hugs)) do something special for yourself this weekend, go get a massage. I hope you feel better soon!

[beachykeen]

Hang in there ((hugs)) I give myself about a week to pull out of the funk. I do the same thing, thinking how yesterday we were *just* doing this...or two days ago he was here. Once I get about a week out, I can let it go. I get the last of his laundry put away, pull myself up and settle into the new routine.

[bigmamma]

Aug 16, 2012 0:16:20 GMT -5 brandienee said:

Thanks ladies. I am doing a little better after a glass of wine and some dinner.

I went through a similar breakdown a couple of weeks ago that lasted for days. I couldn't eat or sleep, I lost 5 pounds... it was bad. Thank the Lord for my awesome ILs who were able to snap me out of it. It made me learn that I don't ask for help often enough and I can't do everything by myself, so you may see me hanging out here more.

I am seriously thinking about going back to counseling. At this point, it can't hurt.

:Y: AWESOME!!!!

Have you checked out a MFLC?