How about a check-in?

[phoenixrising]

Just thought I would check in and see how everyone is doing...

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I had my first ever appointment with a psychiatrist yesterday. When I had my major episode of depression in March and went to my PCP for a med change, she asked me to make an appointment with a psychiatrist because she was concerned that she was not going to be able to do enough to manage my needs. So two months later, I had a ONE-AND-A-HALF hour appointment with the psychiatrist. She took a REALLY THOROUGH intake, upped my antidepressant, gave me a few things to think about, and set an appointment to see me again in two months. She said that she definitely thinks it was appropriate to have me come to her instead of having my PCP manage my depression and my BED. And I will stay on the med I am on for BED as well, so all is well there.

On the therapy front, we are starting to get a little deeper into some stuff, which feels both uncomfortable and necessary. My therapist has asked me to read about a couple of things, and in reading them, I am seeing a lot of myself (stuff having to do with attachment theory mostly), which is giving me a lot to think about. And I am starting to see that there is stuff beyond BED to work on and that I probably can't address my food issues without addressing this other stuff too. So I feel overwhelmed and maybe a little hopeful? Like perhaps I am not a hopeless case (which is how I sometimes feel)? 

So that's me...anyone else?

[malibu]

You're not a hopeless case at all! Good for you, major high fives for taking such great steps to improve your mental health. That's wonderful.

I'm down 53 pounds, 30 or 35 to go. H is still drinking. I just found a bottle recently. He's back to sitting around doing nothing, which frustrates me to no end. He only sporadically takes his ADs, so obviously he isn't getting any better on that front. Because I'm so focused on being active, I've been able to pull away from caring much. DD (4 1/2) and I spend a lot of time outside together. I'm almost at the point of thinking fine, you want to sit there like a lump on the couch? I'm going to go make memories with our child. You won't have that when she's grown up. We just sort of exist in the same house together. He stays up half the night and falls asleep on the couch. It's rare we share the same bed anymore, which honestly, I don't really care anymore. He snores so bad I can't sleep, so it works. We generally get along, there's still love there somewhere, but I'm kind of done putting in the effort. If he wants to make things better, it's on him.

[elenetxu]

Hey there,

As I said in another thread, I have a bad habit of avoiding this board when things are going well lest I remind myself that I've got a problem.

Things are going well with DH now. After he quit his last psychiatrist he has come to the realization that he does need help and we have found another doctor to work with. She's young, easier to understand, and from DH's area and they seem to have clicked. I am quite optimistic.

I've had an easy pregnancy up until the last month. I was abruptly and unexpectedly put on medical leave due to my blood pressure. (This was during a calm period with DH but a rough period with a lot of work; 13 hours of class on Tuesdays!) I was hospitalized for six days until the docs were able to find medicine that worked. I'm back home and on "liberal" bed rest which basically means I have the doctor's orders to be as lazy as possible.

So, overall, things are good here. We're anxiously awaiting little one's arrival but I'm hoping he stays in there until week 40! I'm nowhere near ready yet!

I hope you guys are all doing well!

[Deleted]

Good to hear from everyone! Thanks for your updates.

I am okay I guess, but I'm struggling with side effects of falling one week ago. My H and I were in the Midwest. As I came out of a bakery, my vision was blocked by my box of donuts! My ankle is sprained, I have a lot of joint pain and bruises. Ended up with a concussion from hitting the sidewalk. All I wanted to do was go home. I seem to be extra tired and emotional. And discouraged. Hopefully, this too shall pass, right.

My sobriety is coming along one day at a time. Recently I took on a new sponsee and we are having great sharing as we read the big book! Right now I'm in Seattle watching the grandbabies. How I loved snuggling with the older one tonight, listing ten good things about his day. A tool about gratitude that I learned in the program of AA, but he doesn't have to know that!

malibu I'm sorry to read that your H persists with drinking. I do admire your attitude shift. How great that you and your dd continue to get out there.

[sigir]

Awesome job w the attitude shift Malibu but I hope your dh comes around soon!

I found a other psych and am doing much better. My new psych was amazed by what the old quack was doing. He said he would never give anyone w addiction issues lorazepam and it can be as addictive as heroine. Old quack had me on one a day, w the option to go up to three, and let me tell you I was def falling into a bad pattern w using it too much.

Things are crazy and hectic bc dh is taking a night class all summer and two of the thrwe kids just started daycare but honestly as tough as it is, it's more peaceful w him not here sometimes. It's been so busy I have not had much time to check in, I am sorry about that!