Monday Randoms

[bl]

My friend that I am in the wedding of asked me if I could extend my work trip (we work for the same company) in July and stay until Sunday, and she would schedule her bridal shower for that weekend just so I can be there.  Apparently the grooms mom hears so much about me and she wants to meet me (kind of flattering, kind of odd).  It was perfect timing because I was already looking into changing the dates of the flight for the Sam Smith concert.  The flight is $10 more, but I won't need a rental car anymore, so it will actually save money.  Please keep your fingers crossed my boss says yes when I talk to her, it really would work out perfect. 

Jurassic World was so good, glad I got to see it with pantsoffdanceoff!

[sweetchix]

I'm still not sure about WG. We haven't hung out outside of work in over a month. I used to get butterflies in my stomach (the good kind) and a big smile on my face when he would text me/I would see him. Now my stomach drops because I don't know if it's going to be a good day or a bad day (as far as communication between us). He still flirts when we see each other at work, but never follows up anymore. I know you're all going to say forget about him, and I know I need to. But it's just so damn hard when you're in the situation. This sucks

[verycontrary247]

I slept like crap last night and don't want to go to work today. That is all.

[tiffany81]

Yesterday was rough. I miss my dad and I wish my son had a better dad. And I've realized that I was maybe displacing some of my emotions on to a married guy friend. I had to step back and assess how inappropriate that was. Ugh. I need a fresh week.

[doriswe]

Jun 22, 2015 7:21:56 GMT -5 sweetchix said:

I'm still not sure about WG. We haven't hung out outside of work in over a month. I used to get butterflies in my stomach (the good kind) and a big smile on my face when he would text me/I would see him. Now my stomach drops because I don't know if it's going to be a good day or a bad day (as far as communication between us). He still flirts when we see each other at work, but never follows up anymore. I know you're all going to say forget about him, and I know I need to. But it's just so damn hard when you're in the situation. This sucks

You know I love you, but you know this isn't healthy for you...and hasn't in quite a while. You deserve better than this and there is more than one penis in the world, my dear! ((sweetchix))

[dreamcrisp1]

I got my dog Saturday morning and I already adore him. He is so wonderful!!! I hated leaving him this morning. It makes me so sad!

That guilt goes away, right? I'm gonna try to go home on lunch and walk him/give him some love. I hate the idea of him alone. But I know it's something that they're used too.

His name is Max! He's the cutest thing ever.

[sweetchix]

Jun 22, 2015 8:20:00 GMT -5 doriswe said:

Jun 22, 2015 7:21:56 GMT -5 sweetchix said:

I'm still not sure about WG. We haven't hung out outside of work in over a month. I used to get butterflies in my stomach (the good kind) and a big smile on my face when he would text me/I would see him. Now my stomach drops because I don't know if it's going to be a good day or a bad day (as far as communication between us). He still flirts when we see each other at work, but never follows up anymore. I know you're all going to say forget about him, and I know I need to. But it's just so damn hard when you're in the situation. This sucks

You know I love you, but you know this isn't healthy for you...and hasn't in quite a while. You deserve better than this and there is more than one penis in the world, my dear! ((sweetchix))

I know. I really do. I know I deserve better. I think I've been hanging on still because of what I thought we could have had and there is a small piece of hope that we can still have that. I'm not making excuses, I'm just being honest.

Although I know I should just stop cold turkey, I don't think I can. The thing that bothers me is that I want closure. If he wants to be done with this, then he needs to tell me, not continue to string me along. I hate the idea of this just fading away not knowing what happened. Don't I deserve that at least? I feel that I do.

He's also been hanging out with this other woman at work. He's been going to lunch with her now nost days since he goes early mon-wed. She's married so I don't think there is anything going on (although that doesn't mean there isn't), but that still doesn't stop the jealousy.

Funny thing is, the last time we talked on the phone and I asked him what was going on with us and that it felt that he was distancing himself from me, he said nothing has happened and that he didn't think anything was different. Well, I'm sure feeling the difference. He doesn't even seem to look at me the same way anymore. Ya know the way Danny looks at Sandy at the end of the car race scene in Grease? WG used to look at me like that.

ETA: that felt nice to get all that out.

[sweetchix]

Also, I fucked up yesterday and forgot to wish my SD a happy Father's Day and he sent me this massive text this morning saying how hurt he was and that he sees where he stands in my life. I called him back to apologize, but got his voicemail. I left a message telling him how sorry I was and that it wasn't intentional and that I really do appreciate everything he does for me and DDs. I haven't heard back yet

[sweetchix]

Jun 22, 2015 8:55:21 GMT -5 TR said:

Jun 22, 2015 8:34:51 GMT -5 sweetchix said:

I know. I really do. I know I deserve better. I think I've been hanging on still because of what I thought we could have had and there is a small piece of hope that we can still have that. I'm not making excuses, I'm just being honest.

Although I know I should just stop cold turkey, I don't think I can. The thing that bothers me is that I want closure. If he wants to be done with this, then he needs to tell me, not continue to string me along. I hate the idea of this just fading away not knowing what happened. Don't I deserve that at least? I feel that I do.

He's also been hanging out with this other woman at work. He's been going to lunch with her now nost days since he goes early mon-wed. She's married so I don't think there is anything going on (although that doesn't mean there isn't), but that still doesn't stop the jealousy.

Funny thing is, the last time we talked on the phone and I asked him what was going on with us and that it felt that he was distancing himself from me, he said nothing has happened and that he didn't think anything was different. Well, I'm sure feeling the difference. He doesn't even seem to look at me the same way anymore. Ya know the way Danny looks at Sandy at the end of the car race scene in Grease? WG used to look at me like that.

ETA: that felt nice to get all that out.

I know how this feels. And I couldn't do it, I insisted my guy admit it was over. However. I think his actions are speaking pretty loudly. Of course he's going to keep you as an option if you let him. Why wouldn't he? So it will most likely be up to you to stop it. YOU can tell HIM, "I'm done. This isn't what I'm looking for. Have a nice life."

Ya know, I have actually had this conversation in my head. I did plan on talking more about us next time we met up, and was ready to possibly end things, but he never seems to have the time to see me anymore (which is why we haven't seen each other in a month).

It all makes all logical sense that I need to end things. In my head. My heart, on the other hand, can't seem to let go. This is what I get for waiting 3 months before asking what he's looking for, although I'm pretty sure I'd still jump in even if I knew from the beginning. Because I apparently like to tortute myself.

[bl]

sweetchix hugs because I am sure actually being in it is so much harder than us giving advice from the outside. I say this with love, but if you haven't seen him in a month isn't that him really telling you where you stand? You say you deserve closure, but really you deserve better treatment than this. I hope you can get to a place where you feel good about breaking this off, because it doesn't sound like he will be man enough to do it.

[riverpestie]

Hugs to those who need them!

[sweetchix]

Jun 22, 2015 9:08:08 GMT -5 bl said:

sweetchix hugs because I am sure actually being in it is so much harder than us giving advice from the outside. I say this with love, but if you haven't seen him in a month isn't that him really telling you where you stand? You say you deserve closure, but really you deserve better treatment than this. I hope you can get to a place where you feel good about breaking this off, because it doesn't sound like he will be man enough to do it.

Oh I agree, his lack of time for me speaks loudly, which is what prompted my phone call to him asking what's going on.

I just added a "do not text" next to his name to help me cut off communication that way. It helped me when I went trough this with NB so I'm hoping it will help me with WG as well. The hardest thing will be that we work together and our departments tend to do a lot of things together so I will still see him on a regular basis.

[cuddlyevil]

Jun 22, 2015 9:04:46 GMT -5 sweetchix said:

Jun 22, 2015 8:55:21 GMT -5 TR said:

I know how this feels. And I couldn't do it, I insisted my guy admit it was over. However. I think his actions are speaking pretty loudly. Of course he's going to keep you as an option if you let him. Why wouldn't he? So it will most likely be up to you to stop it. YOU can tell HIM, "I'm done. This isn't what I'm looking for. Have a nice life."

Ya know, I have actually had this conversation in my head. I did plan on talking more about us next time we met up, and was ready to possibly end things, but he never seems to have the time to see me anymore (which is why we haven't seen each other in a month).

It all makes all logical sense that I need to end things. In my head. My heart, on the other hand, can't seem to let go. This is what I get for waiting 3 months before asking what he's looking for, although I'm pretty sure I'd still jump in even if I knew from the beginning. Because I apparently like to tortute myself.

This, right here is your closure. He's telling you where you stand in his life--if he's not willing to make time for you, then it's really all you need to know. I am sorry, it sucks and he's a jerkass for not having the balls to be honest with you.

[mommadukes]

Jun 22, 2015 9:17:53 GMT -5 cuddlyevil said:

Jun 22, 2015 9:04:46 GMT -5 sweetchix said:

Ya know, I have actually had this conversation in my head. I did plan on talking more about us next time we met up, and was ready to possibly end things, but he never seems to have the time to see me anymore (which is why we haven't seen each other in a month).

It all makes all logical sense that I need to end things. In my head. My heart, on the other hand, can't seem to let go. This is what I get for waiting 3 months before asking what he's looking for, although I'm pretty sure I'd still jump in even if I knew from the beginning. Because I apparently like to tortute myself.

This, right here is your closure. He's telling you where you stand in his life--if he's not willing to make time for you, then it's really all you need to know. I am sorry, it sucks and he's a jerkass for not having the balls to be honest with you.

agree 100%

[sweetchix]

Ok, feel free to yell at me here ladies...

Before I added the "do not text" to his contact info, I texted him because we were ordering Chinese and I've always asked him if he wanted some in the past, and because again, that little sliver of hope still holding on. So, he just knocked on our door (both our departments are behind closed doors because of confidential information). I answered and he was looking me up and down and told me he owed me big time to make up for not seeing me lately.

I'm still going to lay of on the texting and see what he does.

Also, I want to say thank you to all of you offering hugs and advice. I do hear you, and agree with everything you're all saying. I will accept "I told you so's" if and/or when my heart gets shattered if I continue to be stupid and not end this as I should.

[glitzyglow]

My interview was this morning. I am in the top 3 and will know this week whether I am their pick or not. Please universe, plllleeeaassseee. I think it went well, but I don't want to get my hopes up, either.

It's amazing I made it through the interview because my stomach is tore up today. I had to stop at a gas station to buy Pepto, Imodium, and Gaterade. Whether it's due to stress or not, I don't know, but I'm home now and my stomach is still aching.

[bg]

Good luck glitzyglow!!!

Today I have a million administrative stuff to do and then golf and sushi. I also really need to finalize my job search materials. Somehow I need to get in the habit of working at night again.

[cam13]

I'm not sure if it's because I'm super tired or just PMSing but lately, everyone is getting on my damn nerves. Like I just got so snarky with my sister because she mentioned to me that I should get my oil changed soon. Gawd, the audacity of that bitch. I'm giving myself the side eye at this point.

I have a meeting at 1, I have to snap out of this soon. Ugh

[winecat]

Jun 22, 2015 10:50:57 GMT -5 glitzyglow said:

My interview was this morning. I am in the top 3 and will know this week whether I am their pick or not. Please universe, plllleeeaassseee. I think it went well, but I don't want to get my hopes up, either.

It's amazing I made it through the interview because my stomach is tore up today. I had to stop at a gas station to buy Pepto, Imodium, and Gaterade. Whether it's due to stress or not, I don't know, but I'm home now and my stomach is still aching.

I like your good interview not your stomach issues.  Lots of good job juju! 

[jigsy]

I signed up for weight watchers. I think the accountability of the meetings will help me stay on track. I hate how much weight I've gained.
In the past, I always brushed off my curvy figure with "well, my bmi says I'm a good, so I'm good.." But now I'm solidly in the overweight Bmi. And I know, I know, bmi isn't everything, but it's not nothing either. I just want to be able to be in a full body picture and not want to cry.

On a happier random...I gave Mr.Jiggles a bath yesterday, so he smells so good and is so soft, I'm just cuddling him

[Mrs.Rad888]

Jun 22, 2015 9:25:42 GMT -5 sweetchix said:

Also, I want to say thank you to all of you offering hugs and advice. I do hear you, and agree with everything you're all saying. I will accept "I told you so's" if and/or when my heart gets shattered if I continue to be stupid and not end this as I should.

I don't think this will happen, we've all been right where you are. Hugs.

[sweetchix]

Jun 22, 2015 21:42:06 GMT -5 Mrs.Rad888 said:

Jun 22, 2015 9:25:42 GMT -5 sweetchix said:

Also, I want to say thank you to all of you offering hugs and advice. I do hear you, and agree with everything you're all saying. I will accept "I told you so's" if and/or when my heart gets shattered if I continue to be stupid and not end this as I should.

I don't think this will happen, we've all been right where you are. Hugs.

Thank you

[abcdefu]

I have my 6 week follow up appointment with my neurosurgeon tomorrow. I haven't see him since April, which is the longest I have gone due to various reasons/complications. I'm still hoping that the 3 pockets of fluid that were seen on my last MRI, turns out to be nothing.
I already know he is going to yell at me about my weight, because he did last time and I have only lost 5lbs since then. jigsy I tried to do weightwatchers, but didn't sign up. I think I need a bigger commitment and actually pay for it. Did you sign up for meetings or online?

[jigsy]

Jun 22, 2015 22:26:22 GMT -5 abcdefu said:

. jigsy I tried to do weightwatchers, but didn't sign up. I think I need a bigger commitment and actually pay for it. Did you sign up for meetings or online?

I signed up for the meetings. This is stupid, but online, I feel like I should be better, so I'm not 100% honest, so I just KOKO without ever changing in real life. Which is just dumb, because online people don't care how I'm doing, it's inly hurting myself.

So I'm hoping that paying for and going to meetings will help. I mean, really, all I should need to do is decide to change, then change, right...but it's a lot easier said than done.

[abcdefu]

Jun 22, 2015 22:38:34 GMT -5 jigsy said:

Jun 22, 2015 22:26:22 GMT -5 abcdefu said:

. jigsy I tried to do weightwatchers, but didn't sign up. I think I need a bigger commitment and actually pay for it. Did you sign up for meetings or online?

I signed up for the meetings. This is stupid, but online, I feel like I should be better, so I'm not 100% honest, so I just KOKO without ever changing in real life. Which is just dumb, because online people don't care how I'm doing, it's inly hurting myself.

So I'm hoping that paying for and going to meetings will help. I mean, really, all I should need to do is decide to change, then change, right...but it's a lot easier said than done.

I'm in the same boat! I do so well during the day and then at dinner time I'm like "Gimme all the carbs and then frozen yogurt for dessert! Oh why the hell isn't the scale going down?!" I also need something to keep me accountable.