Back from u/s

[maryellen]

The RE did the u/s instead of the PA.  

They saw saw a heartbeat but it was slow - 108
baby is measuring 1.7, so 5.5 weeks instead of 6.5
my yolk sac is enlarged.  I don't know how enlarged as I couldn't ask any questions by this point.  

She told me I will most likely miscarry and gave me an Rx for the pain if/when it starts.  

What do I do now??? I am supposed to leave for Oregon with DD tomorrow through mon to visit my sister.  DH thinks I should still go.  My sister understands either way but says she will take care of me if anything happens.  And I just don't know what to do except curse the universe and cry.  

Of course if there is something horribly wrong I want this to end sooner than later.  But wtf man.  This is a cruel f'n joke.  

[cactuscookie]

Oh maryellen, I'm so sorry. I've been thinking of you all morning.

Can you change your tickets to Oregon and go at a different time? I don't know, it might be good for you to get out of town and be somewhere different right now, but it might also be good for you to be at home to mourn on your own. Only you can decide.

So many hugs. I wish you'd gotten better news this morning.

[dollyllama]

I'm so sorry maryellen, sending you so many hugs.

With our most recent loss, it took 8 days from the u/s for things to progress and my levels had been dropping before that but it's tough to know if you'd rather be home or away from home. Each loss has been so emotionally different. I hope you're able to decide easily what is best for you.

[bcarp30]

I'm so sorry to hear this. It's similar to what happened with my last m/c. I had a bad u/s where baby measured a week behind with a slow heartbeat. Had a follow up the next week and still no growth with an undetectable heartbeat and took cytotec to start the process instead of waiting a week later. I bled lightly for another week before actually passing tissue and miscarrying. All of my m/c have been natural but this last one I wanted to take Cytotec because of my DD. I didn't want to wait around wondering when it would happen.

I would think you could still go to Oregon and it might be nice to get away. Could you go and come back earlier?

[maryellen]

Thanks everyone. With my first m/c everything was fine on Tuesday at my u/s and then I started to bleed on Friday. I had a d&c on sat. I don't know what to do. DD has been so excited for this. I'm not nervous about being at my sister's house. I'm scared about the times when I am alone with her. When we fly home we have a 45 min flight, a 3 hr layover and then a 6 hr flight. I'm thinking about how scared she would be if something happened to me. I really don't know how to make a decision.

[ginkgoleaf]

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I don't have any advice besides to do what you think will be best for you. You could try rescheduling the trip or maybe a trip would take your mind off it? Thinking of you.

[ssg73]

I am so sorry. It sucks. Big hugs.

[starburst]

I'm so sorry.

[loira]

I'm so sorry. It's just not fair. ((hugs))

[boiler717]

I'm so sorry Mary Ellen.

[KB]

This is so awful. I'm so sorry MaryEllen.

[ivy]

I'm so, so sorry Mary Ellen. I think I'd be more comfortable at home

[G22]

I'm so sorry I'm not sure what I'd do. If I could guarantee I would not start bleeding on my traveling day, I'd probably still go, but I know that's not possible probably. It would suck to start the process and be in an airport or on a plane.

[bcarp30]

How old is your DD? Would she understand if you tell her mommy isn't feeling well and you push it back a month? Was your RE willing to schedule a d/c for you since that's what you did last time or does she want you to wait and see what happens? Again, I'm so sorry you're dealing with this.

[whodey]

I'm so sorry maryellen, a m/c is just heartbreaking. If it were me, I'd prefer to stay home and mourn my loss instead of having to put on a happy face, but maybe being w your family will give you some comfort. You have to do what feels best for you - send you lots of hugs

[lms]

I'm so sorry@maryellen.

[pooh8402]

I'm so sorry. Big hugs to you. I don't know what I'd do either.

[Bumblebee]

I am so sorry, Maryellen.  Thinking of you and your family as you grieve this loss.