My anxiety is still bad. It was at a peak before the a/s for sure. I agree that so much of it has to do with knowing what we went through the get here. I had some BH last night and went in today basically because I'm so anxious from that. I hope with more regular movement and after viability it improves.
maryellen that is a LONG 4 week roller coaster of emotions! I'll think good thoughts for you for tomorrow.
I agree, with TTTC you know what can go wrong. At my u/s at the RE they look for so much more and are way more cautious than my OB ever would be. Not that the OB is bad but they are just not dealing with people who are pregnant under extreme circumstances.
Plus, because it was so damn hard to get pregnant in the first place, the likelihood of "replacing" the pregnancy is low. I know that you know better than anyone, loira, that one pregnancy isn't replaceable with another, but I definitely have a 'this is my only shot at reproducing' fear.
I think this is understandable. One of the things that got me through losing V was the idea that maybe we'd have another baby someday. It was only after my 2nd m/c after V that I feared she might have been our only shot at it, so I sort of get it (although it doesn't compare to having to go through treatments etc just to get pregnant).
I'm 30 weeks this week. Each week I think, holy crap how am I this far along?! But now that we are down to the last 10 weeks or less, I'm really thinking it. I got my BOB stroller this week and really can't wait to use come next spring!
We went to birthing class yesterday. I knew a lot of the stuff they covered, but it was interesting still. And my H learned how to swaddle a baby doll. LOL he was so proud of himself. Part of the class was touring the Labor/Delivery wing at the hospital here. Even though we won't be delivering here, it made me excited to tour our hospital in Germany to see where we actually will be delivering.
DH was seriously so proud of himself for his swaddling skills. He WAS objectively good at it, but more importantly I think it was something he could take charge of in the beginning when so much of the work revolved around feeding, which he obviously couldn't help with much at all.
I'm 30 weeks this week. Each week I think, holy crap how am I this far along?! But now that we are down to the last 10 weeks or less, I'm really thinking it. I got my BOB stroller this week and really can't wait to use come next spring!
We went to birthing class yesterday. I knew a lot of the stuff they covered, but it was interesting still. And my H learned how to swaddle a baby doll. LOL he was so proud of himself. Part of the class was touring the Labor/Delivery wing at the hospital here. Even though we won't be delivering here, it made me excited to tour our hospital in Germany to see where we actually will be delivering.
DH was seriously so proud of himself for his swaddling skills. He WAS objectively good at it, but more importantly I think it was something he could take charge of in the beginning when so much of the work revolved around feeding, which he obviously couldn't help with much at all.
H was pretty good too, so hopefully those skills translate to a squirmy baby too I will gladly let him do it when he's around.
Post by dollyllama on Aug 28, 2015 15:40:25 GMT -5
Appointment went great. Dr tried for a second on the doppler to get hb and decided to do a quick u/s and baby was in there being a wild child so we watched forever and it was cracking me up!