FFFC

[jojoandleo]

I don't really have any, but as this board has been slow, I feel the need to start it.

I guess I have the fact I have pretty much been silent about the Oregon shooting. I am normally the type to get all political and post and fight with the gun nuts, but I just don't have it in me anymore. I have fought the fight for so long and been basically called a moron by gun nuts for so long, I just can't do it. Which, helps exactly no one. I've just ground my teeth and scrolled past the "guns don't kill people, people kill people" bullshit.

[bg]

Probably flameful -- after having a week basically 'off' from DH (his parents were in town and he wasn't emotionally able to handle telling them about the issues he's been dealing with -- anxiety/depression -- and us seeing each other) this week has been rough. Therapy/meds don't seem to be helping his as much as I thought they would.

Excited to have a final dissertation plan though -- now I just need to do it.

[calle28]

I hate that as a society, we have become used to and numb to mass shootings.

I guess my confession is that while of course I was very sad when I heard the news of the shooting, I wasn't shocked at all.

[glynn]

Mom just popped over when I was at home on my lunch break. She wants to give all the kids $15,000 (Huge Surprise). I told her to hold mine until the divorce is final hopefully this month.

In another note the guy I have been talking to and have not actually met yet almost got me off in the less than 10 minutes it took me to drive to work this morning. I have been flustered all day......

[calle28]

Oct 2, 2015 12:05:58 GMT -5 glynn said:

Mom just popped over when I was at home on my lunch break. She wants to give all the kids $15,000 (Huge Surprise). I told her to hold mine until the divorce is final hopefully this month.

In another note the guy I have been talking to and have not actually met yet almost got me off in the less than 10 minutes it took me to drive to work this morning. I have been flustered all day......

Were you guys talking on the phone? Details girl!

When are you guys meeting?

[Deleted]

Oct 2, 2015 12:05:58 GMT -5 glynn said:

Mom just popped over when I was at home on my lunch break. She wants to give all the kids $15,000 (Huge Surprise). I told her to hold mine until the divorce is final hopefully this month.

In another note the guy I have been talking to and have not actually met yet almost got me off in the less than 10 minutes it took me to drive to work this morning. I have been flustered all day......

Have her give you $10k now and $5k next year, as gifts, to avoid paying taxes on the $5k.

[Deleted]

I wrote a postcard to a former-lover-still-friend last night. He called a week ago and has been on my mind since, particularly some of the things he said during that conversation. In the age of instant gratification, I'm hoping I forget about it until later this month when he's back in the States.

[gozf]

Today would have been my 11th wedding anniversary, and I am having feelings! Even though our divorce was totally amicable and mutual, and we both feel better off, and we're still friends, I always get weirdly emotional on our anniversary. Probably because it was such a nice wedding, and we were so young and hopeful, and it's just a shame things didnt work out with us.

Also, it's cold and rainy and I have the PMS.

[jojoandleo]

gozf! I have missed your typing!

[gozf]

Oct 2, 2015 14:46:04 GMT -5 jojoandleo said:

gozf! I have missed your typing!

I miss this place! This new job has me BUSY! And when I get home, I'm spent. I like what I do here, but I'm definitely still adjusting to the pace.

I miss YOU. How's *your* new job?

[jojoandleo]

Oct 2, 2015 14:49:31 GMT -5 gozf said:

Oct 2, 2015 14:46:04 GMT -5 jojoandleo said:

gozf! I have missed your typing!

I miss this place! This new job has me BUSY! And when I get home, I'm spent. I like what I do here, but I'm definitely still adjusting to the pace.

I miss YOU. How's *your* new job?

I love it and it makes me nervous.  LOL.  I still feel like I have no idea what I am doing.  LOL.

Are you and Thor still together?  How is that going?

[gozf]

Oct 2, 2015 14:50:47 GMT -5 jojoandleo said:

Oct 2, 2015 14:49:31 GMT -5 gozf said:

I miss this place! This new job has me BUSY! And when I get home, I'm spent. I like what I do here, but I'm definitely still adjusting to the pace.

I miss YOU. How's *your* new job?

I love it and it makes me nervous.  LOL.  I still feel like I have no idea what I am doing.  LOL.

Are you and Thor still together?  How is that going?

We are! It's good! We are very, very boring. It's a bummer - his schedule was changed, and now I feel like I never see him anymore. Technically, he's off the same number of nights, but him working Fridays is really cramping our style. That was the night we would socialize with other people, and now it's gone.

[Eureka1984]

gozf just be kind to yourself. No matter what, I still get emotional over my anniversary time too.

[gozf]

Oct 2, 2015 15:08:28 GMT -5 Eureka1984 said:

gozf just be kind to yourself. No matter what, I still get emotional over my anniversary time too.

Thank you for telling me this. I'm sorry you get emotional too, but it's comforting to hear I'm not alone.

[cuddlyevil]

I got weepy at my sister's wedding today. I want someone to look at me the way they looked at each other.

[frontbutt]

Oct 2, 2015 14:54:46 GMT -5 letsgetweird said:

I have a date tonight!

How did it go? Let me live vicariously through you lol

[achase123]

Not really flameful but I've been having a difficult time with the break up. I feel kind of bipolar. One second I'm fine the next I'm so sad.

[calle28]

That's pretty flameful letsgetweird!!

I'm sorry achase123. Have you guys been communicating?

[achase123]

Oct 3, 2015 12:09:32 GMT -5 calle28 said:

That's pretty flameful letsgetweird!!

I'm sorry achase123. Have you guys been communicating?

Some. He was asking me yesterday how things were going with visitation this weekend. I seriously vacillate between not wanting to hear from him unless he wants to buck up and discuss us and getting upset that I haven't heard from him haha!

[calle28]

Have you decided what you want?

[achase123]

Oct 3, 2015 12:22:34 GMT -5 calle28 said:

Have you decided what you want?

I just feel like I'm going back and forth. One second I think it's worth saving. The next I'm really angry. Mostly I know I want a partner that I can feel like we're on things together and that its not all about what HIS needs are in that moment at the expense of mine. I feel like I'm so in grief sometimes that it's hard to really reflect, kwim? This isn't like me. Normally I would've had an eff you stance and not looked back instantly. I think it was just so swift and things had been so good it's tough to not remember that.

[calle28]

There's no rush, just keep taking your time to sort out your feelings.

[frontbutt]

Oct 2, 2015 23:09:21 GMT -5 letsgetweird said:

Oct 2, 2015 19:33:44 GMT -5 frontbutt said:

How did it go? Let me live vicariously through you lol

OK I finally have a decent flameful I'm willing to post.

I ditched him. I went to the bathroom and left. It was a total bust. I did text him that I felt sick and had to go.

We went to a wine bar and then to a play in the park. I never should have agreed to such a long first date ugh.

Oh snap!

Sorry he sucked. How did you guys meet? I'm looking for ways to meet people other than tinder/okcupid/match/etc.

[somersault72]

Oct 2, 2015 14:23:54 GMT -5 gozf said:

Today would have been my 11th wedding anniversary, and I am having feelings! Even though our divorce was totally amicable and mutual, and we both feel better off, and we're still friends, I always get weirdly emotional on our anniversary. Probably because it was such a nice wedding, and we were so young and hopeful, and it's just a shame things didnt work out with us.

Also, it's cold and rainy and I have the PMS.

Our 11th anniversary would have been 9/25 and I was having some feelings that day, too. I understand what you mean.

[glynn]

Oct 2, 2015 12:36:40 GMT -5 calle28 said:

Oct 2, 2015 12:05:58 GMT -5 glynn said:

Mom just popped over when I was at home on my lunch break. She wants to give all the kids $15,000 (Huge Surprise). I told her to hold mine until the divorce is final hopefully this month.

In another note the guy I have been talking to and have not actually met yet almost got me off in the less than 10 minutes it took me to drive to work this morning. I have been flustered all day......

Were you guys talking on the phone? Details girl!

When are you guys meeting?

Yeah over the phone..... it is bad/good. We did that night over the phone both of us. I have never...... I am very excited to me him and a little scared at the same time. In other news I got my Depo shot today so that is good. I told him he could not do that anymore kinda only half serious. I was bothered all weekend..... He is working out of state and I have the kid so hoping to meet this weekend if he does not have his kids.