Saturday Randoms!

[abcdefu]

Good Morning!

Of course I would be awake at 6:00 AM on my day off.

I've been having a difficult time with anxiety and nightmares since my accident. That day I went a different way than normal because I had to stop at the store. So now when I am driving I have really terrible panic attacks when I have to chose which way to go. I fear that I am going to make the wrong choice and get into an accident. I know it sounds super crazy, but it is really effecting (affecting? I'm terrible with these) my life. I know I don't have any control over it, but that knowledge goes out the window in the moment. I have a psychiatrist appointment on Wednesday, so hopefully I can talk it out or something.

In better news, I am kicking ass at work. I've been super busy, but I love it! I usually get a raise around this time of year, but I'm not sure that is going to happen since I have missed a lot of work due to surgery, doc appointments, and the accident. I am keeping my fingers crossed and just trying to get as much work done as possible, even bringing home 5,000 pages of reports to read this weekend.

[Eureka1984]

I'm so sorry abc. I'm sending big hugs!

I saw my therapist on Thursday and I've learned that my anxiety is triggered by not having a sense of security. I feel anxious all the time and worry about everything like the floor is going to give out. It's unhealthy. I'm taking a big step by putting it out here. I want to make progress and work through it.

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My friends live in a basement apartment and the top part is occupied by a bunch of college students who through huge parties. The music is crazy loud you can here them yelling, the out stomping around, out on the porch until after three am. It was awful. The police and landlord don't really care to do anything about it. I have a terrible headache and I'm exhausted now.

[bg]

abcdefu i hope your appointment helps calm your anxiety. but i like that you included positive news too!!

Eureka1984 it sounds like you're taking the right steps.

@pdx18 that would drive me crazy - how do they live with that all of the time??

Today's a work day for me. I'm also going out to lunch and maybe going to yoga.

[achase123]

I got my nails done (gel) and it was only $17. I love having someone else do it and it lasts so much longer. I used to use the sally Hansen at home gel kit!


Not sure if Xh is going to make his visit. I ordered him to take a drug test yesterday and gave him two facilities HERE that test on Saturdays. Of course he didn't do it and said he might be late for his visit and he really doesn't have to do it (even though it's stipulated in he CO). It's annoying to me that the supervisor coddles him though. Apparently she told him the CO doesn't say he has to get it done. A) butt out lady, this isn't your business at all. B) when did she receive a law degree?

[redshoejune]

I have been working on some new things this weekend: asking for what I want and putting myself out there a bit. Last night a guy friend texted me and I just went ahead and asked if he wanted to get together. He said yes at first but then backed out so it didn't work out, but I was still glad I asked instead of just thinking about it.
Last week I reached out to an old friend I haven't talked to in about 5 years. Tonight I felt like hanging out so I asked her to get together this weekend and we're going to have lunch tomorrow!
I also texted another guy friend today because I wanted to tell him something - in the past I would have worried a lot more about what he would think of the message, should I bother him, etc.
Still not dating anyone or putting myself out there in that way, but maybe I won't become a hermit after all.