I am having a rough day and I didn't expect it at all. I don't miss xh as a person at all, but we spent 10 years building traditions for the holidays, and I haven't really replaced those with new ones, so it feels a bit empty. It's also lonely and makes me sad because while I have my mom I have no other family (no siblings, no grandparents) Holidays and other times are just a reminder that when she is gone I will be completely alone in this life. I hate feeling so debbie downer today and really wish I had paid the crazy amount of money to either go see Dallas or have him come here.
I am having a rough day and I didn't expect it at all. I don't miss xh as a person at all, but we spent 10 years building traditions for the holidays, and I haven't really replaced those with new ones, so it feels a bit empty. It's also lonely and makes me sad because while I have my mom I have no other family (no siblings, no grandparents) Holidays and other times are just a reminder that when she is gone I will be completely alone in this life. I hate feeling so debbie downer today and really wish I had paid the crazy amount of money to either go see Dallas or have him come here.
Post by redshoejune on Dec 25, 2015 21:26:08 GMT -5
I am so exhausted I wish my kids would fall asleep already even though it's still pretty early here. They kept me up most of the night last night. I'm trying to appreciate it since I won't have them next year but 3 hours of sleep and driving to two get togethers is too much. And I'm supposed to hang out with this friend of mine tomorrow to get our kids together and I'd like to invite them over to do art here, but my house is not ready for outsiders to see it and I am way too tired to improve it much. Christmas was really good, but I'm glad it's about over.
I just got home from my mom's and all I want to do is get comfy on the couch and watch TV, but I cannot find my remote. I'm hoping I didn't accidentally throw it out with the wrapping paper/box garbage. So, I guess I'll be watching Netflix then.
"Everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can come together." ~Marilyn Monroe
Post by imalwaysme79 on Dec 25, 2015 23:13:29 GMT -5
We spent the day cleaning our place, doing laundry and packing. Fun stuff! It's going to be so cold in Las Vegas while we are there. The highest high is 51 (and 46 on Sunday!)...brrr.
"Everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can come together." ~Marilyn Monroe
Thanks for the hugs ladies. I ended up having a friend come over and we sat and chatted and drank champagne for most of the night, was definitely a good distraction and girl time. Lush is having their big annual sale today, so I will go get some retail therapy in later today.