Monday Randoms

[bl]

I just want to sulk and bitch right now. Dallas called me at 4am (I was texting him so he knew I was already awake) and said he had good news and bad news. Good news is his job offered him a promotion, bad new is in order to get it he has to fly to Oregon on Thur for 5 days of training. We had flights booked to see each other this Friday-Tuesday that will not have to be cancelled and we probably won't get another trip in before our next scheduled one over Valentines day. I am super happy for him, but still really bummed.

[1confused1]

Bummer bl Can you change your flight and meet him in Oregon?

I joined Weight Watchers today. I need to do something about my weight and I know I won't be able to do it alone. I hope I can stick it out.

[jigsy]

That is a bummer. Can you just reschedule the flights? I mean for after your V-day trip? Plus...that is only a month away! I find that time flies when you are really looking forward to something.

I'm at work, but still don't have much to do. I sent a few emails and now I just have to wait for responses, lol. I did update my resume though. My goal is to have a new job by April since my lease is up in May and I want to move, but want to not have a crazy commute if it can be helped. I also decided that this is the year that I am going to get more education. I am looking at getting a certificate in Project Management, which will allow me to get the certification. I am still doing some research, but this feels like a good route. I don't know that I want to get a whole degree at this point, and I like that project management can be in a variety of fields. But I am also trying to look at some other things as well. I wish I knew what i wanted to be when I grow up.

[glitzyglow]

I am laying around, icing and elevating the ankle. I made a boxed cake mix last night with premade frosting...whyyyyy did I do that?! All I want to do is eat cake. At least it's out of the pantry now and won't tempt me anymore once it's gone.

My mental state is not where I want to be. I'm feeling very self-pitying as of late and I don't like, but I can't seem to break free of my self-wallowing.

[RamblingRose]

Jan 4, 2016 16:43:40 GMT -5 glitzyglow said:

I am laying around, icing and elevating the ankle. I made a boxed cake mix last night with premade frosting...whyyyyy did I do that?! All I want to do is eat cake. At least it's out of the pantry now and won't tempt me anymore once it's gone.

My mental state is not where I want to be. I'm feeling very self-pitying as of late and I don't like, but I can't seem to break free of my self-wallowing.

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[bl]

For his training it will be 12 hours days, so I doubt there will be much time for fun. On the bright side it is southwest, so I will get a credit for the flights to be used for later. We already have stuff for Feb and May booked, so we will use the credits for a trip in either March or April.

1confused1 good luck on the weight loss! jigsy good luck on the job search. glitzyglow try not to be too hard on yourself, you've got a lot going on and I find anytime I am physically side lined I feel a little down.

[glitzyglow]

RamblingRose, right?! UGH.

bl, thanks. I've felt so good for the past few months and I feel like I slammed into the brick wall of life recently and I don't know what to do about it.

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Come to Oregon! You can hang with me bl!

[LoveBug]

I thought it would have been harder to go back to work today but it wasn't that bad. I felt productive. My BF and I booked our trip for July and I'm so excited. I love having things to look forward to. Hopefully the weekend gets here fast!

[bg]

I signed the divorce papers today. It was sad, but after I almost felt empowered as well. It was really weird. I haven't heard from stbxh since before thanksgiving and I don't really want to contact him but we need to discuss some of the splitting up of our things. Blah.

1confused1 you can do it!
jigsy good luck -- I'm in the same boat.
glitzyglow try to stay positive. could you start a new project or hobby? change things up a bit?

[TR]

Final divorce hearing is Friday. Wheels are in motion to have all finances untangled. I'm looking forward to everything being settled and being officially and legally single. I know it isn't a HUGE deal, but it feels a little...weird or wrong or something to have a serious BF, but be technically married.

[stephreloaded]

Jan 4, 2016 16:43:40 GMT -5 glitzyglow said:

I am laying around, icing and elevating the ankle. I made a boxed cake mix last night with premade frosting...whyyyyy did I do that?! All I want to do is eat cake. At least it's out of the pantry now and won't tempt me anymore once it's gone.

My mental state is not where I want to be. I'm feeling very self-pitying as of late and I don't like, but I can't seem to break free of my self-wallowing.

How bad is your ankle? I sprain it about once a year and it takes me several weeks to feel better.

Does you bot feeling that well might be related to the end of the holidays and the start of the new year? I feel that sometimes, when you look back and you feel you didn't accomplish as much as you wanted toit starts to wear you down.

[stephreloaded]

Jan 4, 2016 17:07:51 GMT -5 bl said:

For his training it will be 12 hours days, so I doubt there will be much time for fun. On the bright side it is southwest, so I will get a credit for the flights to be used for later. We already have stuff for Feb and May booked, so we will use the credits for a trip in either March or April.

1confused1 good luck on the weight loss! jigsy good luck on the job search. glitzyglow try not to be too hard on yourself, you've got a lot going on and I find anytime I am physically side lined I feel a little down.

I feel like if I were going for a training, I would like to focus only on that.

[glitzyglow]

Jan 4, 2016 19:45:59 GMT -5 stephreloaded said:

Jan 4, 2016 16:43:40 GMT -5 glitzyglow said:

I am laying around, icing and elevating the ankle. I made a boxed cake mix last night with premade frosting...whyyyyy did I do that?! All I want to do is eat cake. At least it's out of the pantry now and won't tempt me anymore once it's gone.

My mental state is not where I want to be. I'm feeling very self-pitying as of late and I don't like, but I can't seem to break free of my self-wallowing.

How bad is your ankle? I sprain it about once a year and it takes me several weeks to feel better.

Does you bot feeling that well might be related to the end of the holidays and the start of the new year? I feel that sometimes, when you look back and you feel you didn't accomplish as much as you wanted toit starts to wear you down.

I don't know how bad it is because I really didn't get a clear answer from the doctor's office, despite calling and talking to several people. Two people said I had two small fractures, but they weren't confident in their own answer, which is why they agreed to send it to the radiologist. The next person I talked to said the radiologist said my xray was clear...I asked if that meant no breaks and she said she wasn't sure. ^o) I've left several messages to no response. I even called again today and they were all, "Oh, just stay off of it and if it still hurts in a few weeks then come back in. The x-ray was clear, but the N. P. isn't always as thorough as the doctor." WTF...such a clusterfuck of nonsense information on their part. And a few weeks?! I cannot be off my foot for weeks. It is not financially possible. And if I'm supposed to be off of it, why did they not give me crutches or anything?

I think I'm feeling down because my new year has gone so off-schedule from how I wanted it to go. Hurting my ankle ruined my plans my last few days back home and now I can't exercise which is causing me major anxiety and sadness. I'm supposed to stay off of it, but I literally can't when it comes to taking care of myself because I'm very single; that in turn is a reminder of how hard it can be to be single and I'm over-focusing on why I'm so single all the time (and that's a whole other level of feelings/emotions). On NYE all I could do was go to dinner despite having all these great plans because of my ankle. I can't do so many of the things I wanted/needed to do in the new year. Like I said, pity-party of one.

/end rant. Thanks for letting me vent.

[stephreloaded]

Jan 4, 2016 20:08:35 GMT -5 glitzyglow said:

Jan 4, 2016 19:45:59 GMT -5 stephreloaded said:

How bad is your ankle? I sprain it about once a year and it takes me several weeks to feel better.

Does you bot feeling that well might be related to the end of the holidays and the start of the new year? I feel that sometimes, when you look back and you feel you didn't accomplish as much as you wanted toit starts to wear you down.

I don't know how bad it is because I really didn't get a clear answer from the doctor's office, despite calling and talking to several people. Two people said I had two small fractures, but they weren't confident in their own answer, which is why they agreed to send it to the radiologist. The next person I talked to said the radiologist said my xray was clear...I asked if that meant no breaks and she said she wasn't sure. I've left several messages to no response. I even called again today and they were all, "Oh, just stay off of it and if it still hurts in a few weeks then come back in. The x-ray was clear, but the N. P. isn't always as thorough as the doctor." WTF...such a clusterfuck of nonsense information on their part. And a few weeks?! I cannot be off my foot for weeks. It is not financially possible. And if I'm supposed to be off of it, why did they not give me crutches or anything?

I think I'm feeling down because my new year has gone so off-schedule from how I wanted it to go. Hurting my ankle ruined my plans my last few days back home and now I can't exercise which is causing me major anxiety and sadness. I'm supposed to stay off of it, but I literally can't when it comes to taking care of myself because I'm very single; that in turn is a reminder of how hard it can be to be single and I'm over-focusing on why I'm so single all the time (and that's a whole other level of feelings/emotions). On NYE all I could do was go to dinner despite having all these great plans because of my ankle. I can't do so many of the things I wanted/needed to do in the new year. Like I said, pity-party of one.

/end rant. Thanks for letting me vent.

I hope you feel better soon and that you get more answers!!

Last year when I sprained it I was told to be careful with it. I did find that I was feeling better after a week or so. I could walk on it but I could not run or train (I was training tennis at the time).

2016 will be your year despite not having an stellar beginning!

[stephreloaded]

My ex is being a moron. DD was put on a diet that she needs to follow because she is having stomach issues.

He does not only bot follow the plan but just feeds her junk. He is even diluting her medicine in fucking soda. I told DD she is old enough to know when she is screwing it up (not in those words) and sent the ex q message that he hasn't answered. She hasnt been gone a week.

[bl]

glitzyglow I had a similar experience with my ankle in October. It took me a week or two to go into the dr because I was sure it was just a sprain. They did xrays and the PAC thought it was fractured, but the dr didn't think so (he thought it was an old fracture I never got fixed), they couldn't reach a 100% sure conclusion so they sent it to a specialist. I ended up getting a letter from the specialist referring me to a podiatrist because it was still inconclusive. Luckily they gave me a boot to wear to take some of the strain off it when I was walking. It took almost 6 weeks from the time I injured it until I could walk any decent distance without pain (in all fairness I was not staying off it) and it still hurts if I do a day at Disney or other significant walking.

I hope you can get some real answers soon and either get crutches or some way to immobilize it so you can live your life.

[redshoejune]

I am trying to be a more positive person and not let my X's actions cause me to be upset, but I am exhausted by it. I have made it 2 days. Not sure I can keep it up any longer.

[1confused1]

Jan 4, 2016 23:52:34 GMT -5 redshoejune said:

I am trying to be a more positive person and not let my X's actions cause me to be upset, but I am exhausted by it. I have made it 2 days. Not sure I can keep it up any longer.

I think I've asked this before, are you in therapy?

[alleinesein]

I get to sleep in my own bed tonight!   <)

Done with my dog sitting gig and happy to be home.  

[redshoejune]

Jan 5, 2016 0:17:28 GMT -5 1confused1 said:

Jan 4, 2016 23:52:34 GMT -5 redshoejune said:

I am trying to be a more positive person and not let my X's actions cause me to be upset, but I am exhausted by it. I have made it 2 days. Not sure I can keep it up any longer.

I think I've asked this before, are you in therapy?

Oh yes. Every time I think I don't need to go anymore something rocks my world. Like now, my X appears to have moved (in with his girlfriend) without telling me and I think I'm headed back to court. So much for not letting him upset me.