Thursday Randoms

[jojoandleo]

I really need to get in shape, but apparently I can't get fit from just considering exercise. I downloaded "Sworkit" LOL. We will see if that helps at all.

[Eureka1984]

I'm having a day. I'm dog sitting and I didn't get much sleep last night so I'm cold and cranky. Thank god its almost the weekend!

[jigsy]

Hugs @32flavors - I'm sure it will be tough not having such a good friend around, but it is great that you have been able to develop such a great relationship and learn about yourself in the process.

[glitzyglow]

I'm glad you found such great friendship with ginger @32flavors.

I have no idea how I can feel as tired as I do. I need 24 hours to do nothing but sleep and nap. I might try to get a cat nap in on my lunch break.

I teared up listening to Mindy Kaling's book this morning when she talked about dating. It's oddly comforting to know she struggles with dating but it's also depressing to know she has a similar experience as me. I'm also overly sappy/emotional as of late.

[glitzyglow]

Also, my face, which is normally oily and disco ball-esque, has become super dry in the past few days. My makeup goes on terribly and my face is starting to peel. Another reason to hate winter.

[dreamcrisp1]

I haven't ate in a while so I will get lunch at some point. So ready for the day to end but it won't. It's taking forever. I'm on a precarious border between crying and not crying so I've advised my coworkers to limit their convos with me and don't ask how I'm doing. Sigh. Is it June or July as yet?

[jigsy]

I just got an email about a job I am really excited for. I had discussed this position with them at the beginning of December, but holidays, vacations, yadda yadda, caused it to be put on the back burner. I am hopeful that since they reached out to me, that means they are more ready. The company is younger and it shows. It is a creative agency, they have great benefits (including pet insurance, lol) the leave policy is basically perfect, and the office is in office/remote split. Basically, it is what I have been looking for in most aspects. So I am trying to not get too excited, but it's too late for that.

If I leave my job anytime before May (which is my goal) I will be leaving them in a pretty shitty place since my department is just me and my supervisor due to a maternity leave. If they had treated me better, maybe I would feel bad, but at this point, they reap what they sow - but it will definitely be an awkward, uncomfortable conversation.

[1confused1]

Jan 7, 2016 12:17:35 GMT -5 dreamcrisp1 said:

I haven't ate in a while so I will get lunch at some point. So ready for the day to end but it won't. It's taking forever. I'm on a precarious border between crying and not crying so I've advised my coworkers to limit their convos with me and don't ask how I'm doing. Sigh. Is it June or July as yet?

I'm really sorry your struggling, but I'm a little worried about you.  It's ok to be sad and miss him, but I think your reaction is a little worrisome.

[dreamcrisp1]

Jan 7, 2016 12:59:12 GMT -5 1confused1 said:

Jan 7, 2016 12:17:35 GMT -5 dreamcrisp1 said:

I haven't ate in a while so I will get lunch at some point. So ready for the day to end but it won't. It's taking forever. I'm on a precarious border between crying and not crying so I've advised my coworkers to limit their convos with me and don't ask how I'm doing. Sigh. Is it June or July as yet?

I'm really sorry your struggling, but I'm a little worried about you.  It's ok to be sad and miss him, but I think your reaction is a little worrisome.

Lol, he literally left last night. I think it's normal.

[pandora]

I have so much to do before my house guests arrive today.

I am looking for an apartment within an hour or so and cannot believe how ridiculous the rents are. I wish I could stay in the place that I own but my neighbors suck and I cannot take the raging parties anymore. I secretly wish they would break up before they get married so they would move out and sell.

Hugs dreamcrisp, 123...hugs all around!

[Deleted]

Yesterday, I took the afternoon off and spent it with BF. Between the holidays and him being sick, I missed him so much. Finally got my xmas present - a watch and lingerie. We opened presents, had lunch and drinks, back home for sex multiple times since there was nothing else we'd rather do, then out to dinner and drinks. Best sleep I've had in weeks.

Tonight I'm meeting a girlfriend for dinner and then stopping by BF's place since he's off tonight.

W2s arrived this morning, so I'm probably going to try to do my taxes this weekend and get them filed.

[1confused1]

@32flavors I had a friend like that and we did try dating, it totally didn't work and we realized we were just happier being friends.

[stephreloaded]

Jan 7, 2016 12:59:12 GMT -5 1confused1 said:

Jan 7, 2016 12:17:35 GMT -5 dreamcrisp1 said:

I haven't ate in a while so I will get lunch at some point. So ready for the day to end but it won't. It's taking forever. I'm on a precarious border between crying and not crying so I've advised my coworkers to limit their convos with me and don't ask how I'm doing. Sigh. Is it June or July as yet?

I'm really sorry your struggling, but I'm a little worried about you.  It's ok to be sad and miss him, but I think your reaction is a little worrisome.

I cry a lot when DD leaves and she is "only'gone for a month. I think it is completely normal to have this reaction at first.

[bg]

I moved almost all of my clothing out of the house today. I think it'll be good for me to get everything out and cut the cord completely. I only have (a lot of) books left and I'm going to borrow my friend's husband to help me move those next week.

jigsy would you recommend any specific job websites for creative in southern california?

[stephreloaded]

I went today to a nutriologist which is different to a dietitian and I was very impressed. The guy put me on a scale that also measured body fat and yikes! The good think is that he told me that I am not as overweight as I thought and that I would never weight what the other Drs had told me was my ideal weight because of my bones and muscle mass.

I was sent home with a food plan that seems doable. He even provided brands for each of the foods in the diet which are a lot so it takes out a lot of the label reading and guessing in the process. I am worried that I will not do that well when I go to the US later this month. He then said that he would send me a list with all the American brands I can buy do I don't have an excuse. We shall see.

[1confused1]

Jan 7, 2016 16:49:59 GMT -5 stephreloaded said:

Jan 7, 2016 12:59:12 GMT -5 1confused1 said:

I'm really sorry your struggling, but I'm a little worried about you.  It's ok to be sad and miss him, but I think your reaction is a little worrisome.

I cry a lot when DD leaves and she is "only'gone for a month. I think it is completely normal to have this reaction at first.

Oh I completely understand.  I was just expressing concern because, on ML, she said she hadn't eaten since yesterday at noon and she didn't want people talking to her.  Just seemed a little extreme.

[jigsy]

Jan 7, 2016 16:55:43 GMT -5 bg said:

jigsy would you recommend any specific job websites for creative in southern california?

Not really - I use Idealist, Indeed, and LinkedIn mostly. So no different than most places, lol. I also use Creative Circle, but, as you may be able to surmise, it is more creative jobs, not so much local jobs, I don't think.

[stephreloaded]

Jan 7, 2016 17:11:56 GMT -5 1confused1 said:

Jan 7, 2016 16:49:59 GMT -5 stephreloaded said:

I cry a lot when DD leaves and she is "only'gone for a month. I think it is completely normal to have this reaction at first.

Oh I completely understand.  I was just expressing concern because, on ML, she said she hadn't eaten since yesterday at noon and she didn't want people talking to her.  Just seemed a little extreme.

I don't know. I think people react differently to these type of things. Maybe she is the "losing appetite type"? I on the other hand will eat everything in sight when I am sad or stressed.

dreamcrisp1 I do think that asking your co-workers to limit their interactions with you is a bit over the top though. In your personal life, you can deal with things as you think is best. We are talking about work and you need to be professional. 

[mommadukes]

Jan 7, 2016 9:20:58 GMT -5 @32flavors said:

Ginger moves to Chicago today. (He actually signed my bday card "the ginger"). We had dinner last night. He is such an awesome friend. I so appreciate what I have gotten from the relationship with him and in many ways it is a model for what I want in my SO in life. We are honest and respectful of each other. We have each been there for each other in tough times and spent many many hours just talking through each others stuff. The sex is amazing. We genuinely love each other, and tell each other. It doesn't fit society's definitions easily- we also talk about dates and sex with others openly and without jealousy (that part is probably not an aspect of my ideal SO). Him moving isn't an end to our friendship, I think we will be friends always. But it will change how often we see each other and keep in touch. I will undoubtedly visit him there and he visit here as well. I will miss him though.

We're u guys ever in a relationship? Not sure I remember the backstory

[dreamcrisp1]

Jan 7, 2016 17:34:02 GMT -5 stephreloaded said:

Jan 7, 2016 17:11:56 GMT -5 1confused1 said:

Oh I completely understand.  I was just expressing concern because, on ML, she said she hadn't eaten since yesterday at noon and she didn't want people talking to her.  Just seemed a little extreme.

I don't know. I think people react differently to these type of things. Maybe she is the "losing appetite type"? I on the other hand will eat everything in sight when I am sad or stressed.

dreamcrisp1 I do think that asking your co-workers to limit their interactions with you is a bit over the top though. In your personal life, you can deal with things as you think is best. We are talking about work and you need to be professional. 

I meant limit their convos to either work stuff or about them. I didn't want to talk about me because I wanted the distraction and to avoid crying. I went to coffee with one and lunch with another so I did eat and socialize.

Any type of stress or sadness and I lose my appetite. It's normal. However, it's back and I had a large dinner to catch up!

[Deleted]

I'm having a bizarrely emotional day. I think randomly being away from home and dealing with that work crisis for 48 hours really took a toll. I only slept a few hours each night as well. Then today I found out my male cousin is in really deep trouble with the police. He just got bailed out and is being charged with a felony. Our family is super tight and my mom is devastated. His daughter is the light of my life and will be old enough to know what's going on if/when he goes to jail. I'm heartbroken for her and my mom. On top of all of that I really really saw how fat I've gotten. Full on gained 50 pounds in a year. I'm over tired and literally just burst into tears for now real reason. I hope tomorrow is better. And I hope I can find it within me to get this weight off. I've always been slim so this is devastating to me and I don't get what's going on. (Had the blood work and all checks out). Uggggg

[Deleted]

Jan 7, 2016 23:02:45 GMT -5 @32flavors said:

@pdx18 I'm sorry you are feeling crappy. I saw your LV pic and you looked great. It doesn't negate your desire to work off what you gained- I'm doing the same. But don't feel down on yourself while you work on it. Just yesterday (or the day prior) you were feeling good about life, work, and organization. Focus on the positive and work on the negative.

I'm hoping to take my own advice.

Thanks @32flavors! It's just been rough today. I know it will get better. I'm still overall optimistic. I actually think I'm just over tired. I a tired cryer hahah. I'm proud though that I haven't let it derail my organization. I'm still tidying and actually eating fairly well. I hope you feel better too!

[GilliC]

Good luck with the apartment hunt pandora !

Jan 7, 2016 12:48:29 GMT -5 jigsy said:

If I leave my job anytime before May (which is my goal) I will be leaving them in a pretty shitty place since my department is just me and my supervisor due to a maternity leave. If they had treated me better, maybe I would feel bad, but at this point, they reap what they sow - but it will definitely be an awkward, uncomfortable conversation.

Just focus on what's best for you! I understand the guilt, but you don't really owe them anything beyond what's contractually obligated.

[stephreloaded]

Jan 7, 2016 22:37:51 GMT -5 @pdx18 said:

I'm having a bizarrely emotional day. I think randomly being away from home and dealing with that work crisis for 48 hours really took a toll. I only slept a few hours each night as well. Then today I found out my male cousin is in really deep trouble with the police. He just got bailed out and is being charged with a felony. Our family is super tight and my mom is devastated. His daughter is the light of my life and will be old enough to know what's going on if/when he goes to jail. I'm heartbroken for her and my mom. On top of all of that I really really saw how fat I've gotten. Full on gained 50 pounds in a year. I'm over tired and literally just burst into tears for now real reason. I hope tomorrow is better. And I hope I can find it within me to get this weight off. I've always been slim so this is devastating to me and I don't get what's going on. (Had the blood work and all checks out). Uggggg

50lbs in a year is not normal. I think there must be something going on. Please go and get checked out. 

I gain weight crazy fast as well and I had never been this heavy in my entire life. I just met with an specialist yesterday and I have hope. Even if I don't lose the weight, I am working with my therapist to find a way to love myself as a whole. 

::hugs::

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Jan 8, 2016 8:45:20 GMT -5 stephreloaded said:

Jan 7, 2016 22:37:51 GMT -5 @pdx18 said:

I'm having a bizarrely emotional day. I think randomly being away from home and dealing with that work crisis for 48 hours really took a toll. I only slept a few hours each night as well. Then today I found out my male cousin is in really deep trouble with the police. He just got bailed out and is being charged with a felony. Our family is super tight and my mom is devastated. His daughter is the light of my life and will be old enough to know what's going on if/when he goes to jail. I'm heartbroken for her and my mom. On top of all of that I really really saw how fat I've gotten. Full on gained 50 pounds in a year. I'm over tired and literally just burst into tears for now real reason. I hope tomorrow is better. And I hope I can find it within me to get this weight off. I've always been slim so this is devastating to me and I don't get what's going on. (Had the blood work and all checks out). Uggggg

50lbs in a year is not normal. I think there must be something going on. Please go and get checked out. 

I gain weight crazy fast as well and I had never been this heavy in my entire life. I just met with an specialist yesterday and I have hope. Even if I don't lose the weight, I am working with my therapist to find a way to love myself as a whole. 

::hugs::

I did go get checked out and I have a super thorough doctor. Unfortunately we think it started by stress weight as a result of my former job, then packed on when I started working from home and was less sedentary. I actually think I'm going to try the intermitten fasting method. Naturally I'm not really hungry until about 1pm, but as an attempt to be healthy I was forcing breakfast. I think this actually got me partly down a bad path. That and having unlimted access to food at home wasn't good. I had my check up in September and my doctor wants me to come back this month to check on the weight. I had a pretty severe ED prior to the weight gain so I think that it just has been my body being like WTF?