I'm so sorry for your loss. The 7th anniversary since my dad's death was two weeks ago, and I swear, that day hits me like a punch in the gut.
Grief is so strange, because one day you feel like everything is fine, and you can smile at certain memories, and then the next day, the sorrow is enough to bring you to your knees.
So many hugs to you. It is a lifelong process, or so I've been told.
I'm sorry, I know how hard it is. Monday was 9 years since my mom died and it just doesn't seem possible that I've lived that long without a mom. Huge ((hugs)), I hope seeing your therapist helps.