So I know I've been vague...

[ditzydi]

Thanks. It's nice to know I'm not totally blowing this out of proportion. Although sometimes I still feel guilty about my anger towards them. They did after all give me a life, albeit a really shit one but they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right? I'm trying to find the positive in this whole thing even though some days it's hard as hell.

[auburnbride]

Don't feel guilty--your anger is justified. However, this is just me, but maybe had they not been your parents, maybe your life would have been even shittier?? And yes, I totally believe that struggle makes you stronger. And I bet you are a kick ass mom bc of all of it.

[kris356]

There is no reason for you to feel guilty. They were shitty parents, they proved that long before any of this came to light. You cut them out of your life for a reason. I know it is hard, DH struggles with this everyday. ((HUGS))

[ditzydi]

Mar 22, 2016 9:58:15 GMT -5 auburnbride said:

Don't feel guilty--your anger is justified. However, this is just me, but maybe had they not been your parents, maybe your life would have been even shittier?? And yes, I totally believe that struggle makes you stronger. And I bet you are a kick ass mom bc of all of it.

Yes my life would have probably been shittier considering they were saying my bio mother was trying to abort me (but I think they wanted me to give them pats on the back or parent of the century award) but my 'adoptive grandmother' told my biological mother she would take me.  And then she plopped me in my adoptive parents arms who never really wanted me. So it just set my whole life up for abuse, neglect and resentment from the people I thought were my biological parents from the day I could remember anything.  So shitty situation had they not adopted me but shitty situation once they did.  The positive is that at least I'm alive, here and have DH, DS and my friends to support me as I muddle through the emotions of all of this.  I'd like to think that I'm a better parents than those two gigglefucks.  I look at DS and wonder how anybody could ever hurt a child.  So at least I did learn that from them.  

[blondemoment123]

<3

[ditzydi]

Sorry if I'm rambling ya'll. My thoughts just come in waves. Just like all the memories. It's nuts trying to process all of this.

[franklin]

I'm so sorry ditzydi. That's a lot to come to terms with.