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[ditzydi]

We survived. Although I barely did bc I made the idiot mistake of calling Dumb and Dumber back after they called me on Easter bc I thought I might get some truthful answers from them. Instead I got more bullshit lies.



Retail therapy continues. Bought both of these dresses from my neighborhood's buy/sell fb page for $5 each.



I didn't realize the back on this one was all lace. Please excuse the sports bra. Was about to go running.

[ashap]

[bethaboo]

I'm realizing that I have worn some version of peachy-pink three out of four student days this week. At least today, I'll be swapping classes with another teacher for April Fools.

[callmehales]

perhaps a little matchy matchy, but I don't even care.

[jenniferl923]

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[jenniferl923]

I was cocking my head to show my top knot because I look like a boy with it slicked back. I have a hair appointment here very shortly to fix up these roots and get more purple in again.

[jenniferl923]

Here's my shoes. I feel like these still make my feet look like boats for some reason. The rest of my shorelines don't.

[jenniferl923]

ditzydi those dresses are super cute and look great on you!

[ditzydi]

Apr 1, 2016 11:29:46 GMT -5 jenniferl923 said:

ditzydi those dresses are super cute and look great on you!

Thanks!  The floral one is a little out of my comfort zone because it is so damn bright and busy but heck it was $5.  If I absolutely hate it, it did't cost a lot.  

I LOVE those converse!  I forbid you to send them back.

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ditzydi, sorry the call didn't go well.

Those dresses are fabulous on you.

[ditzydi]

Apr 1, 2016 12:52:51 GMT -5 @ffbride0813 said:

ditzydi , sorry the call didn't go well.

Those dresses are fabulous on you.

Thanks and thanks.  Some things never change.  But I at lease can change that I don't have to put up with their bullshit in our lives anymore.  

[lostarz]

Apr 1, 2016 9:28:59 GMT -5 callmehales said:

perhaps a little matchy matchy, but I don't even care.

Cute bump!

[tugsgirl]

Apr 1, 2016 11:26:31 GMT -5 jenniferl923 said:

Here's my shoes. I feel like these still make my feet look like boats for some reason. The rest of my shorelines don't.

LOVE these shoes....no way you should send them back!! So cute.

[snipsnsnails]

I missed one heck of a backstory, but I know when someone needs internet hugs, so (((hugs))).

This week has been a rough one. I feel like the walking dead over here with sleep deprivation. I've been phoning it in all week and today is no exception. : /

[ditzydi]

Apr 1, 2016 16:05:50 GMT -5 snipsnsnails said:

I missed one heck of a backstory, but I know when someone needs internet hugs, so (((hugs))).

This week has been a rough one. I feel like the walking dead over here with sleep deprivation. I've been phoning it in all week and today is no exception. : /

Thanks.  Cliff notes version is that I found out at the beginning of March that I was adopted.  I've been estranged from Dumb & Dumber for the last 2.5 years because they're twat waffles but of course had to call them back up to confirm the adoption and sure as shit it was true.  Called Dumb on Tuesday to get more answers, Dumber picked up and of course proceeded to play victim and went on about how she was still hurting.  Mega eyeroll.  Cry me a freaking river.  I asked for Dumb by name and Dumber got pissed and said never to talk to them like that because they were still my parents blah blah blah and that if we ever wanted to see them I don't ever talk to them like that.  I informed her that 1) they were no longer my parents and 2) they had no problems not seeing us the last 2.5 years and I had no plans of ever seeing them again.  At which point she again played victim and said that if we didn't want to see them then don't ever call them again.  Click.  Which is fine.  When we cut them out of our lives 2.5 years ago it was to protect my sanity and to prevent them from doing this shit to DS.  Because I've had enough of her doing this shit to me, I'll be damned if they fuck with DS's emotions.  So there ya go.  I guess that really wasn't cliff notes huh?  Ha.  But that's the latest drama rama from this week.  The last of the drama dealing with them.  Probably not the last as I sort through the basket case that is me. 

[ilovebed]

I didn't get a full body. It's a tulip hem maxi. I just got my hair done for the first time in 4 months! I wanted it done before baby. In heading in to H'a office for a baby shower!

[ilovebed]

ditzydi I adore the bright floral dress on you. You better wear it!!!

[ditzydi]

Thanks ilovebed . I will probably wear it for Sunday Funday at the neighbor's house.    I want to see your full dress!  

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(((ditzydi)))

[blondemoment123]

I did my hair and makeup today since I met some cw's for happy hour but tapatalk still won't upload pics. Grr!!

[ditzydi]

Apr 1, 2016 17:27:07 GMT -5 freedom said:

Apr 1, 2016 16:39:04 GMT -5 ditzydi said:

Thanks ilovebed . I will probably wear it for Sunday Funday at the neighbor's house.    I want to see your full dress!  

I didn't want to quote the other post but I'm sorry for what you're going through. I hope youre getting plenty of support from your h.

Thanks. Now that I know the truth I sit here and replay my whole childhood and the abuse and neglect makes sense bc they never truly wanted me. They even neglected to get me evaluated when a social worker told them I may be bi-polar after I attempted suicide as a teenager. And within the last month I finally got diagnosed by my psychiatrist with borderline personality disorder. Which stems from abandonement issues. Go figure. I guess my whole point of sharing any of this is as a form of therapy and to break the stigma about mental illness. Dumb and Dumber said they 'loved' me but all they did was abuse me and neglect me to leave me completely damaged and flawed that they took no responsibility for. They said it was all my genes and that I did not come from their gene pool.

As far as dh as a support system...he's been supportive as he can be but he's getting to the piint where his main concern is the well being of ds. Which I understand. And sometimes I think I should just let them go so I don't drag them down with me.

[snipsnsnails]

Oh, man, ditzydi, thanks for being so vulnerable in sharing that. There's no shame in any of it whatsoever. You can create and will create a completely different legacy with your DS, I know it, but that that is a result of so much pain makes me deeply sorry for what they put you through and continue to try to put you through. You are different and are making it different for your family and that is beauty stemming directly from the brokenness of the past. I'll say a prayer for you as you continue to move forward, one step at a time. xoxo

[blondemoment123]

((@ditzidi))

[love1999]

Hugs ditzydi. I hope you are able to sort all of this out and come out stronger and happier at the end.