I am sooo sad you guys (extremely long)

[bab]

Can't seem to pull it together today.
There is a lot going I so maybe I'm just overwhelmed? I can't even place exactly why I'm like this today. Anyway, here are some random bullet points
-I feel as if I have no relationship with my sister at all. We really used to be close. I cannot even with how self absorbed she has become. She really only reaches out to tell me these crazy fucking stories about being worried someone "doesn't like her." They are often career related but not always. For example, she texted me out of the blue this week to tell me she's in New Mexico at some conference. She asked how I was and instead of my usual, "fine" I told her I had just undergone a painful medical procedure and wasn't feeling well. I went on to say I was recently promoted so I went to work feeling like shit. She was like, "oh, you OK?" And by the way here's a 10 page text about me and how I'm worried this adminisrator I'm with doesn't like me. Whatever. I didn't even respond further.
-there is a huge rift developing between H and I. I'm just at the point where I'm numb to the mind games and manipulations and it seems he's slightly catching on so he's faking being nice and I'm not buying it. I'm exhausted.
-I am totally sick of being a Girl Scout leader. It's thankless. I'll be glad when June rolls around.
-I've been to too many medical appointments lately. It's draining. I have so much respect for people suffering with chronic illness.
There's more but I think this is enough for now.

[mom2twoboys]

So sorry this is all happening. Big hugs!

[honeychai]

Damn, Bab, sorry you're in one of these inevitable downswings in life. Please know that we have all (or most of us have, screw you lucky assholes that haven't), been there before.

Of course our issues are different, but I can relate. I'm in a major rut. Feeling hopeless about some health stuff, frustrated in some of my relationships, feeling anxious and just blah.
You are not alone.


Please remember that things will start looking up.

Could you talk to your sister?

I'm so sorry you're dealing with health stuff. It can be so scary, frustrating and just sucky!

As for your H, what the fuck is his problem?!

[underwaterrhymes]

Oh, bab. I'm so sorry.

[cville]

That's too much. Being disappointed by people who are supposed to love and care for you is so defeating.

I'm sorry you're feeling poorly too. Congratulations on the promotion, though!

[nsl]

(((hugs)))

[orangeblossom]

I'm sorry. Hugs.

[anlo]

Hugs, Bab. I hope you are feeling better soon.

[ProfessorArtNerd]

You can always message me, friend. I feel like once again we are in a similar situation. I care and will listen to you. Big hugs. And YOU GO GIRL, on that promotion.

[eb777888]

I'm sorry, bab. That is a lot.

[Eagles]

I'm sorry you're going through so much. Congratulations on the promotion, though!

[bab]

You guys are so nice, you all already congratulated me like a month ago...I just never bothered to tell my sister because I knew she wouldn't really give a shit. Not even, "what's your new title? What are your new responsibilities?"
Nope. If it's not about her, it doesn't matter. #gruge
But I'm supposed to care about her perceptions of her travel companions feelings about her...OK
I mean can you imagine? How does a person get like this?

[bugandbibs]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. It's totally understandable. Adding medical issues and work stress to already tense home life is too much. ((Hugs))

I've stopped hoping for people to be different and it has mentally been freeing. The friend that only wants to talk about herself? Fine, lets meet for sushi and I can enjoy my food while they do all the talking. I only volunteer for stuff I can do at home, because I can't handle the rest. I'll cut out stars all night long before I do a one hour shift at book fair.

[textbookcase]

I'm so sorry Medical shit is a mindfuck, on top of everything else. I hope things start looking up for you. Big hugs.

[cville]

There can never be too many congratulations.

I went through a short phase of only talking about myself right after I graduated from college. My long distance friend called me on it and I learned to check myself. I missed her and was saving up all my stories and questions to share with her but that left no time for HER during my (long distance, pre-cell phone, lol) calls. Whoops. I'm an ass. Anyway, I'm glad she said something. I hope your sister pulls her head out of her ass.

[nicbreeful]

(((babs)))

I'm sorry.. I hope your load gets lightened soon.

[jreeds]

((Hugs))

[onesweetworld]

Hugs Babs. My sister sound similar to yours and it always makes me wonder how we can be 180 degrees different. She is very self-centred too. Sorry about your husband and medical stuff too

[Moe]

heart babs. Hearts.

[Deleted]

hugs

[papie]

((((Hugs))))

I'm sorry you are struggling.  I hope things get better soon.  

[HiC]

I'm sorry babs. I hope you start to feel better soon. ((((hughug)))

[Deleted]

So sorry for your troubles, Bab.