Friday Randoms

[glitzyglow]

I had a dream last night that I had to put my cat down. I gave him some snuggles this morning. Why is my brain so mean to me sometimes?!

My life feels rather stagnant as of late. I'm not really sure what to do about it, either.

[glitzyglow]

May 13, 2016 11:41:13 GMT -5 mp said:

hugs. i'm sorry about that dream. the worst.

How is your job going lately? Are you loving it?

My job is going well and I do enjoy it, but I can tell that my drive for it isn't there like it used to be, if that makes sense. Daily I ask myself that pesky question: is this my life career? Is this the best use of my time/efforts/skills? What would I do if I could do anything else and make a decent living? How do I incorporate my skills (or learn new skills) into a career that excites me and allows me to pursue my passions? I think these are good questions for myself and I am actively working on attaining new skills to help me reach where I want to go, but in the meantime, I'm kind of drifting along until I make changes/master new skills or something changes.

Also looming above my head is the flatness of my housing situation, my future, my non-existent love life, etc. All those things feel like they've plateaued with no real change in sight. I've got fun stuff planned, but those events are the only real deviations from the ho-hum of daily life (i.e. me spending time with me). In all honesty, I'm sure my feelings of loneliness as of late and desire for a companion are coloring that. I just deleted the dating apps yet again because they yielded nothing and that is frustrating, which I also know from experience is the cycle of dating and that I'll be fine in a few days but it still sucks to feel trapped in the doldrums of it all yet again.

/end ramble. Thanks for listening! How is the job for you mp? I know things haven't been great and I hate that for you.

[pinkdutchtulips]

I started my day w an emergency tooth extraction :/ at the pharma now waiting for my antibiotics and pain meds. Percocet for a simple tooth extraction seems like way.too.much

[bg]

glitzyglow what a terrible dream!

And that sounds like a terrible way to start the day pinkdutchtulips! I hope it's not too painful!

I've got some fun things planned for the weekend that I'm looking forward to. But I also REALLY have to get work done. I hope I find my work mojo soon. I may need to hole myself up for a few days.

[Linie]

It's a good thing that I'm rather happy in my private life, because the money situation regarding the divorce is really f* up. I heard today that the tax authorities send my tax reimbursement to my STBXH. It is going to take a lot of ugly discussions to get that sorted out (and yes, I will contact the tax authorities first because the mistake is with them)!

[Deleted]

I have a free week of Blue Apron up for grabs.

I signed up for bagel meets coffee two days ago and I'm ready to quit. Haha. ::cries::

[dancelnow]

May 13, 2016 13:29:02 GMT -5 @lemonlover said:

I have a free week of Blue Apron up for grabs.

I signed up for bagel meets coffee two days ago and I'm ready to quit. Haha. ::cries::

I'd be interested. I keep hesitating on trying it.

[doglove]

I get you glitzyglow on a lot of the same levels.

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May 13, 2016 13:33:55 GMT -5 dancelnow said:

May 13, 2016 13:29:02 GMT -5 @lemonlover said:

I have a free week of Blue Apron up for grabs.

I signed up for bagel meets coffee two days ago and I'm ready to quit. Haha. ::cries::

I'd be interested. I keep hesitating on trying it.

IM me your email address and it's yours! I actually skipped for two weeks when I signed up. And then this past week, I forgot to skip but ended up thoroughly enjoying every meal! 

I've also been able to recreate a few meals. There was only one recipe I didn't care for and I've done maybe 5 boxes?

[1confused1]

I keep having dreams about being chased by dogs, or attacked by dogs. I looked up what it means online and it's pretty spot on: Psychologists tend to think that “chase dreams” occur when we are unable to cope with our fears and have trouble facing reality. Once ignored, these thoughts and images manifest over time in our unconscious mind, then is released during sleep in the form as a chase dream. These fears include stress, anxiety and phobias that we have overlooked and now it rearing it’s ugly head.

I have a potential custody battle starting again with xh, but I haven't been served so I don't know anything that he is asking. I think this uncertainty is causing these dreams.

[1confused1]

pinkdutchtulips, hope you are doing ok!

[pinkdutchtulips]

May 13, 2016 14:31:35 GMT -5 1confused1 said:

pinkdutchtulips, hope you are doing ok!

thank you for checking in I'm doing better, the novacaine is starting to wear off ... I'm hoping the pain can be controlled w Motrin

[glitzyglow]

pinkdutchtulips, that sucks! I hope you feel better quickly!

[Deleted]

Speaking of dreams I had the most vivid and lengthy dream last night I think I've ever had. I cannot stop thinking about it. Nothing bad happened and it was amazing how it brought together SO many aspects of my life.

Anyways other than that I've worn myself out with work today. I have a major deadline to hit in the next hour (popping in between review cycles) and then I'm FREEEEEE.

And by free I'll just be watching Netflix. Likely with wine. And it will be amazing.

[Deleted]

There is a heated discussion at my workplace on if the parking lot smells like skunk or like weed. There's a lot of "I've NEVER smoked but I know what it smells like" going on. LOL. And a few coworkers went to the parking lot and then came back in trying to identify this smell. We are obviously very, very busy today.

[jojoandleo]

I cannot tell if my allergies are trying to kill me, or if I am actually sick.

[arielroux]

I'm exhausted. Work is killing me right now, and my anxiety has been off the charts. I can't wait to go home, put on some sweatpants, lie on my couch, eat junk food, and watch tv all night. I need to just zone out.

Yesterday was BF's birthday. I baked him a peach cobbler (lol) - It's his favorite dessert. He was so surprised, and really touched that I baked for him. I bake for no one. It came out so well. It was delicious! He also loved his gifts, and thanked me multiple times for making his birthday feel special. I was so touched at how much it meant to him that I actually teared up, haha. He really is wonderful, and I love him so damn much.

Tomorrow I have to go to a party for my cousin's college graduation. I really don't want to go.

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May 13, 2016 15:00:08 GMT -5 swizz said:

May 13, 2016 14:43:47 GMT -5 @lemonlover said:

There is a heated discussion at my workplace on if the parking lot smells like skunk or like weed. There's a lot of "I've NEVER smoked but I know what it smells like" going on. LOL. And a few coworkers went to the parking lot and then came back in trying to identify this smell. We are obviously very, very busy today.

::butting in because I'm bored:: There are strains that smell like skunk. I know this because my brother once hotboxed my car when he borrowed it for the weekend. He told my mom he ran over a skunk. 

Oh yeah. It's pot. Someone smoked it in their car or near our area. I'm not getting involved. Some of my favorite smells are pot and skunk actually. 


And I hot boxed in my car last night.

[arielroux]

May 13, 2016 15:00:08 GMT -5 swizz said:

May 13, 2016 14:43:47 GMT -5 @lemonlover said:

There is a heated discussion at my workplace on if the parking lot smells like skunk or like weed. There's a lot of "I've NEVER smoked but I know what it smells like" going on. LOL. And a few coworkers went to the parking lot and then came back in trying to identify this smell. We are obviously very, very busy today.

::butting in because I'm bored:: There are strains that smell like skunk. I know this because my brother once hotboxed my car when he borrowed it for the weekend. He told my mom he ran over a skunk. 

I almost always think weed smells like a skunk. I'll be like "eww, what's that skunk sme...ohhhhh, not a skunk." Every.single.time.

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May 13, 2016 15:08:47 GMT -5 swizz said:

May 13, 2016 15:05:10 GMT -5 @lemonlover said:

Oh yeah. It's pot. Someone smoked it in their car or near our area. I'm not getting involved. Some of my favorite smells are pot and skunk actually. 


And I hot boxed in my car last night.

I'm not opposed to any of the activities mentioned -- but not the best thing to do in someone's car you borrowed and who (you knew) planned to sell it on Craigslist that weekend, lol. 

My roommate doesn't want it in our apartment. I will smoke on our balcony when she isn't home. The delivery service I use doesn't do edibles. I have little choice.  

But I don't think my car is the smell source. And I own my car and do not wish to sell it on craigslist

[jigsy]

last night, I dreamt that I was skydiving with XH. He had a great experience, and I was like, meh...I couldn't get my parachute open (but was fine - not panicked) And he suggested I try going again because if the chute opens, it's more fun.

I feel like there is all sorts of dream meanings in this one.

[kanga1]

Since we're on a dream kick here is mine. Last night I dreamt that I had asparagus growing out of my legs and I've been grossed out by it all day.

[alleinesein]

May 13, 2016 15:05:13 GMT -5 arielroux said:

May 13, 2016 15:00:08 GMT -5 swizz said:

::butting in because I'm bored:: There are strains that smell like skunk. I know this because my brother once hotboxed my car when he borrowed it for the weekend. He told my mom he ran over a skunk. 

I almost always think weed smells like a skunk. I'll be like "eww, what's that skunk sme...ohhhhh, not a skunk." Every.single.time.

Skunk smells better than weed!!  The smell of weed makes me gag 

[sweetchix]

I just woke up from a dream that really shook me. I was watching TV and the news was telling a story about 2 little girls who were missing. Both their names were Hannah (DD2's name). As I watched it I got this horrible feeling and then... Her pictures started flashing on the screen. I texted XH to make sure he had her, and he didn't. I slowly realized it was true, she was gone. I woke up with tears in my eyes at that realization.

I hate these kinds of dreams. My heart is still racing from it. I'll bet it's stemming from the fact that she begged XH to let her stay with me tonight instead of going back with him. She was in tears. He finally agreed, and she's upstairs in my bed. Safe. But I think the fact that our routine changed is what caused this.