Monday randoms

[1confused1]

I am so pissed.  XH filed for a modification in visitation/custody, but, according to the court website, didn't serve it in a timely manner (it has to be done 21 days before the hearing date).  I went to the courthouse to contest this and the court rejected it.  Four years of this asshole not having to follow the rules, I am so done with it.

So we go to court next week for the hearing, you can bet your ass I am going to lay out all of his disgusting life choices and nail his lying, welfare collecting ass to the wall.  The gloves are off asshole 

[doglove]

How frustrating 1confused1!

My date this weekend was crap. My recap is on TIP, but turns out the dude is very insecure and the whole thing was weird. I'm bummed, but whatever. It's par for the course lately. Every dating experience is jading me more and more.

[Linie]

1confused1,hugs to you!

We are signing the divorce papers tomorrow. I did all the paperworks, paid for all the certifcates and STBXH just told me he had not yet read the last draft of the agreement. And claimed he had to do everything and I just did "nothing". In the meantime, he lives in our house, for which I still pay my part of the mortgage and doesn't lift a finger for the sale.
And raised his voice again. I wonder if I will ever be able to hear someone shouting without wanting to hide under the duvet!

He will want to bring up certain things for discussion before our notary again and I had planned to have this thing over within 2,5 minutes! ARG!!!!

I'm having wine - ruining my attempts to diet

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I'm seeing a friend from Afghanistan this weekend and I nearly want to throw in the towel for this trip. My rover sitter bailed, my ride to the airport bailed, and I started my period. Like nothing can go right for me. I'm over this. The significance is Afghanistan is where we met and for those who don't know, I've had a hard time adjusting back to state-side living. So this is/should be a morale boost for me.

I also need to go see a doctor for depression because I just can't function anymore and I feel negative all the time. I also am wondering if I am tired all the time due to highway noise I heard in my bedroom. Maybe it isn't letting me sleep deeply and lack of sleep is making me depressed and unable to function or focus? Maybe I'm stretching here.

[Linie]

@lemonlover,

Lack of (good) sleep really does contribute to focus issues and depression/anxiety. Could you use ear plugs?

[bg]

I had a terrible interview this morning. It was almost comical. But I guess good practice? I shouldn't have scheduled it this week anyway because it's crunch time for my dissertation - way too much to get done. But then I'm going to travel to see a friend for the long weekend. Yay!!!

[bg]

May 23, 2016 13:28:37 GMT -5 Linie said:

@lemonlover ,

Lack of (good) sleep really does contribute to focus issues and depression/anxiety. Could you use ear plugs?

I agree. Or some kind of fan/white noise machine?

[stephreloaded]

WTF!! Why they seem so lenient with people like him?!

I'm sorry. Lots of hugs to you!

Meant to copy you 1confused1

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Linie, bg,
so I've been using white noise and I do think it's been helping. I'm afraid to turn it up too much because I have dogs and I don't want to hurt their ears (because I'm a crazy dog mom). I used to sleep with headphones in and I need my phone to vibrate on the bed to wake me up. I'm too afraid to do this because of phones catching fire. LOL.

I have seriously contemplated getting a hotel room just to get sleep. I try to explain how loud it is to some people and they don't understand and tell me to get noise reducing curtains. I have that and bubble wrap up to help soften the noise. I contmplated buying a twin mattress and sleeping in my walk in closet to not hear the noise. Or board up my window (like three panel window that is 6 feet across). I feel like I'm a crazy person.

[TR]

@lemonlover - that would drive me nuts, too. I think eventually you'll get used to it, but in the meantime I'd recommend a white noise machine like this: www.amazon.com/MARPAC-Dohm-DS-Electro-Mechanical-Machine-Sleeping/dp/B002GTR902 I have one and it's amazing. It won't bother your dogs, I promise.

Take some melatonin to help you get into a deep sleep. Sometimes I even have to put another pillow strategically placed over my exposed ear, but not over any other part of my face, haha. It helps further block noise.

[TR]

This is BF's last week working out of town! He'll have to travel for his new position, but it should be less. And now that I know we're moving in when my lease is up I'm so antsy and just want it to be time to do that already!

I have approximately 8 million (ok 31, but still!) mosquito bites on my leg that are itchy and red and ugly

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May 23, 2016 13:46:36 GMT -5 TR said:

@lemonlover - that would drive me nuts, too. I think eventually you'll get used to it, but in the meantime I'd recommend a white noise machine like this: www.amazon.com/MARPAC-Dohm-DS-Electro-Mechanical-Machine-Sleeping/dp/B002GTR902 I have one and it's amazing. It won't bother your dogs, I promise.

Take some melatonin to help you get into a deep sleep. Sometimes I even have to put another pillow strategically placed over my exposed ear, but not over any other part of my face, haha. It helps further block noise.

I actually ahve this one:

www.amazon.com/HoMedics-SS-2000G-Relaxation-Machine-Nature/dp/B00A2JBMRE/ref=pd_bxgy_194_3?ie=UTF8&refRID=0KMXVJ52TDXRD9C3EBNF

Is the other one more beneficial???

I forgot about melatonin. I take unisom or nyquil on satuday night because Sunday is the only morning I don't have to wake up early. I feel hung over when I take it though. And yes, I've gotten as used to it as I will likely be since I've lived there 7 months and this depression started roughly around the same time.

[TR]

May 23, 2016 13:53:17 GMT -5 @lemonlover said:

May 23, 2016 13:46:36 GMT -5 TR said:

@lemonlover - that would drive me nuts, too. I think eventually you'll get used to it, but in the meantime I'd recommend a white noise machine like this: www.amazon.com/MARPAC-Dohm-DS-Electro-Mechanical-Machine-Sleeping/dp/B002GTR902 I have one and it's amazing. It won't bother your dogs, I promise.

Take some melatonin to help you get into a deep sleep. Sometimes I even have to put another pillow strategically placed over my exposed ear, but not over any other part of my face, haha. It helps further block noise.

I actually ahve this one:

www.amazon.com/HoMedics-SS-2000G-Relaxation-Machine-Nature/dp/B00A2JBMRE/ref=pd_bxgy_194_3?ie=UTF8&refRID=0KMXVJ52TDXRD9C3EBNF

Is the other one more beneficial???

I forgot about melatonin. I take unisom or nyquil on satuday night because Sunday is the only morning I don't have to wake up early. I feel hung over when I take it though. And yes, I've gotten as used to it as I will likely be since I've lived there 7 months and this depression started roughly around the same time.

I don't know, but it makes a true white noise with a fan as opposed to an electronic one. And I find that more soothing.

I take 3 mg of melatonin about half an hour before I want to go to sleep and it really helps with falling asleep. I get wicked weird dreams, though, haha.

Oh, I thought you'd moved in recently, yeah, that sucks, sorry

[Linie]

I have anxiety and take trazodone and it helps me sleep - and stay asleep. But when I sleep in a noisy hotel or so, I use ear plugs. They help a lot.

[shoofly]

I had my first therapy appointment in about 2 years a couple weeks ago. I mentioned it in one post. My follow up is next week. I don't think I'll be going back to this provider because it just didn't seem like a good fit. I'm trying to find some other providers through insurance and referrals from my psych nurse practitioner.

Yesterday was my dad's 60th birthday. When my boyfriend asked who'd all be there to celebrate, I said immediate family and started naming everyone. I caught myself almost saying my little brother's name. I had to pause. He just passed away in February. It's so tough to accept that he's gone.

In more positive news, we finally had a housewarming party last weekend and it was awesome! I was a little overwhelmed as I'm not nearly as outgoing as my boyfriend and his friends, but we had so many people visit and congratulate us on our home. We live in a great condo in our downtown area and it's great! I love how it all turned out.

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My SUV felt really unstable on the road today and my tire pressure was extremely low in 2 tires.  I got really nervous.  
After work J and I took my car in and the guys got it up on the lift and my tires were worn down strangely and I need an alignment really badly and I  2 new tires.  $500.  Ugh.  I'm just glad that nothing dangerous happened.