I'm so excited about HRC being the Democratic presidential nominee. I was thinking during my drive this morning how awesome it is that in my lifetime I've seen gay marriage legalized and a woman run as a legitimate candidate for president (Look around, look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now...). I hope to see even more great changes!
I am grabbing drinks tonight with a guy I went out with 1.5 years ago. We faded out texting after 1 date and I can't remember why. I do remember I thought he was pleasant, but honestly I can't recall much else about him or the date. If there was a real reason for the fade, I guess I'll remember tonight!
I wanted to feel good about HRC yesterday...but on my way to vote, I was listening to NPR and they had Donald Trumps speech and all I can feel is dread man. Trouble.
I am so stressed. I'm on the verge of losing my shit. It's quarter-end at work (I work in finance), I close on my house in a week, I have to finish packing, I move in 2 weeks. I'm insanely busy, and I have no time to do anything. I miss my boyfriend, I want to spend more time with him and I can't right now because I'm getting insane anxiety over my never ending list of crap. I need a hug, and for someone to tell me that it's all going to be ok.
I keep telling myself that I just need to get through this month, but jesus Christ, I'm at my breaking point right now. Thank god I have my therapy appointment tomorrow. It's going to be a total brain dump.
STBXH is super jealous of a new friend of mine. There's literally nothing going on but he brought it up last time we talked about separating a few things. He must have stalked this guy's Facebook cause he liked a few posts because he said, "I bet you're seeing "X". Yeah I couldn't compete with this super cool surfer dude that has great hair, awesome tattoos, and this cut up body." I'm thinking "damn you noticed more than I did. Are you in to him?" Like this guy and I were friends since he was married and I knew him through his own divorce. He's like my damn brother cause we went through training together. Ridiculous.
STBXH is super jealous of a new friend of mine. There's literally nothing going on but he brought it up last time we talked about separating a few things. He must have stalked this guy's Facebook cause he liked a few posts because he said, "I bet you're seeing "X". Yeah I couldn't compete with this super cool surfer dude that has great hair, awesome tattoos, and this cut up body." I'm thinking "damn you noticed more than I did. Are you in to him?" Like this guy and I were friends since he was married and I knew him through his own divorce. He's like my damn brother cause we went through training together. Ridiculous.
I went through something similar with XH. It makes them feel better if they can tell themselves that you obviously has someone waiting in the wings, even if it's not true, even if cheating isn't the reason you are splitting. XH told people that I left him for someone that worked in the same place as me. When he told me that I literally couldn't talk for 10-15 minutes because I was laughing so hard! This guy was the biggest, dumbest blockhead, and we'd barely even crossed paths, but apparently I was ready to flush my marriage for him. I told XH that I was breaking up with him because of HIM. They don't like when they can't play the victim.