follow up on my battle with depression.

[jennlin]

so i've seen a billion doctors, therapists, etc in the last several months, and all concluded that i had hit my breaking point, and needed time to reset. i took an 8-week disability from work and during that time i worked on me. my MIL still watched the kids..i went to the gym, slept, gardened, shopped, painted, traveled..everything that had nothing to do with work.

i am back at work now and i feel good. i'm not 100%, but at least i'm not crying anymore..i don't remember how much detail i got into before, but i was crying everyday between 1-4 hours a day...and now i'm not..so that is FANTASTIC. i'm not exhausted all day like i was, and i feel good.

the strange thing is, during my time off, i went to the gym 3-5xs a week, and i worked out for 2 hours a day...i don't weigh myself daily, but i weighed myself roughly at the beginning of my leave, and again at the end, and i gained 15 pounds..even through all that working out..and i still felt icky. my doc suggested getting my thyroid checked.. i told my mother about it, and apparently she has a thyroid issue she never mentioned to me...

turns out, i don't have thyroid issues, but i have some hormones that are incredibly unbalanced that causes sleep deprivation and weight gain.... i have a follow up in a week to see our next steps.

i know this board is dead now, but i still feel a lot of love for this board, and i feel like this is still home <3.

[dana86]

Thanks for the follow up. I've been thinking about you and how you are doing. I noticed in your IG pucs you just looked happy at peaceful so I was hoping things were heading in a good direction I hope the hormones are easy to adjust. I have thyroid problems and it's a pain.

[madDawg228]

Thank you for the update. I'm glad you are doing better and were able to take some time for yourself! I hope you don't have to go to too many more doctors for the next steps.

[minion]

Thank you for sharing the update.

[ilovebed]

I'm so glad you updated us. Working moms just get so beat up from every angle. It's all so hard but it sounds like there is a light at the end of the tunnel for you. I hope K is being a super supportive H.

[jennlin]

Jul 2, 2016 21:58:23 GMT -5 @lauralynne said:

Which hormones? I've got a terrible imbalance which can causes me to gain weight while dieting and and a bunch of other fun stuff...
I'm sorry you went through such a hard time but I'm glad you're on the path to recovery!
I'm self employed now so if you want to hang out, drop me a line!

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i've been meaning to follow up with you...you had been posting fun stuff on fb, and i had said i wanted to go to them..but every time the dates came up, i couldn't bring myself to leave the house. so i apologize for that momma.

i'll text you.

[shevacc]

jennlin, so glad things are looking up for you! Sending lots of hugs and hoping you get the hormone issues straightened out quickly.

[mkate710]

jennlin, love your transparency and your example of taking care of yourself so you can take care of your adorable kids. Big hugs to you, I hope things continue to get better!

[alias]

I never come on here, so I'm way out if the loop, but I happebed to see this and wanted to give you major hugs. I'm glad you took time for you and things are better.

[picksthemusic]

jennlin, I am super late to this, but I am so happy you are feeling better. I've been thinking about you a ton, and wanting to get together so the kids can play and we can chat and hang out.

I miss you, my friend.

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[7costanza]

I rarely come to this board anymore so I just saw this. I'm so sorry you've been struggling, but am happy you're taking steps to get better! I hope things continue to improve. Sending you good vibes! ❤️