“Life is not orderly. No matter how we try to make it so, right in the middle of it lose a leg, fall in love, drop a jar of applesauce.” - Natalie Goldberg
"Why would you ruin perfectly good peanuts by adding candy corn? That's like saying hey, I have these awesome nachos, guess I better add some dryer lint." - Nonny
I can't really try next cycle anyway because the due date would be too close to the girls' birthdays.
You do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Whether that is having a beautiful family with two beautiful little girls, or TTCing for a third child next month, or year, or in ten years. It's about your body, your health. I am so sorry, but no matter what, you will be fine. You are a very strong woman. You are allowed to feel how you feel, that is not a weakness. *hugs*